And The Result is........

Yeah. . . .akhirnya perjuangan selama setengah tahun gw ngerjain skripsi membuahkan hasil.....gw dinyatakan lulus!!!Alhamdulillah!!!!Eiiittssss.....jangan senang dulu. Walopun gw lulus tapi itu juga dengan catatan yakni gw juga kena revisi. In other words....nilai gw belum keluar kalo revisi belum gw selesaikan.

The tests itself, well...what do i have to say???To be honest it was one of my important times in my whole life. But luckily, I did do some special preparations concerning my thesis in order to lessen the pressure and to give me a view on what's really gonna be asked at the tests. One of my thoughts was to make a set of mock up questions or in my words...shadow questions. These questions consisted of questions that I assume will be asked. And of course I did try to answer the questions briefly.

And luckily, what it did eventually helped me a lot on my tests. I really did get bombarded with questions and critics reagrding my thesis. The parts that where most critizied was my research methodology and my analysis. They really did a good job on finding out my weak parts. BUt due to my preparation, I reallt felt less nervous when having to answer the questions and critics.

During the tests, what made me more nervous wasn't the process of with but the outcome. With my current situation, I already knew that I wouldn't pass straightly. At least a revision would be plausible if I even passed this tests. But I guess that much more better than me not passing the test and ending up having to do the revision with two other counselours. In the end, I did receive a revision note which depicts the part where I have to do my revision, But my time hasn't stopped.

I had to wait for another hour outside till my judicium which was the reading of my test results by a lecturer. Between my waiting, I thought I hadn't finished my part coz I didn't even had my comprehension test, just my thesis test. But after some explanations, I guess there wouldn't be any need for such kind of test coz all I need is to lay back and wait for my judicium.

And as you've known, I passed. But with the revision, I really couldn't just relax and do nothing coz my revision still forces me to pay attention to my thesis. Besides, my revision does cover the parts that are critical towards a reserach. Anyway, eventhough i've got to finish of my revision, I do think that I deserve some time off to relax myself, especially the last 10 days prior to my test date was really depressing. And I really did plan what I'am gonna do when I finished my test. First of all comes manga and drama DVD's. One by one of course. And i'm sure other things will come when the days pass to enjoy my time off after an hard time of struggle.

And so....shall we lay back do things one by one and enjoy all if it.

The Hunt for a Future

Stair's to the seventh. . .Running up to Heaven Yeah !!!!


Sorry for the quote there. It's just i was listening to laruku's latest single called SEVENTH HEAVEN when i start writing. As for the title, I took the liberty to copy the title of a certain film which had a similar title to this.

Enough for title's, let's continue to the main course. The clock's ticking faster and faster as the date of my thesis test comes closer. The pressure itself is sure piling up within my nerves. I tried to keep calm and collected while the date comes closer. But it seems that I can't just ignore the real pressure that's coming within me.

The past days have been spent on hunting down approval on my thesis examination. The assurance on my examinees actually was available on monday noon, but i decided to find out the next day. The next day, as I found out who my examinees were, I had to start finding the persons listed. Too bad for that day, I only found 1 of them. For my counslour, he wasn't available till friday. And as for the other one, I had to wait for her on Thrusday morning after she had finished her lecture.

Well, I did eventually get all of the approval's needed. But still, some problems lies in front of me. My counselour suddenly ask wether the examinations could be either put in advance or postponed. It turn out he had to attend (again) a certain matter, causing him to ask us about the schedule. The problem wasn't from us, as for I and Rani initially agreed, but it came from the departement office. They couldn't initially aprrove the schedule being put advance or postponing them because of unknown reasons. They only said to come again on Monday for further information regarding this matter. In the End, I did have a certainty on my examinations, but when?? Guess I'm gonna have to find out later.

That's for my approval hunt. But still there are other things to be hunted down, especially by the cops. Speaking of which, there was a massive internet cafe raid conducted this week. The raid was conducted in order to sweep IC (I'll say this for Internet Cafe) using ilegal software within their computers. The result was that many IC's immediately closed their places in fear of also getting raided. The next day, IC's were really crowded everywhere. I wouldn't be surprised coz the IC' that were raided were popular IC's in Malang like the Raya net group and Surya Group. The area that had the most IC's raided were in the Dieng area (near my house), so the 3 IC's operating there which were RAYA Dieng Net, Surya Net and Pojok Net immediately got shutted down. That's why the IC's that survived were flooded with users the following day.

Concerning this matter, I wouldn't argue wether ilegal software should be wiped out. To me, I don't care wether it's ilegal or legal software. As long the price suites me, I'll go for anything. But the fact is here that legal softwares are sure expensive to get our hands on. I guess that's way people here prefer to use ilegal ones instead. But for IC's using ilegal ones, I do have to admit that's one kind of silly mistake. Why I say a silly mistake, coz as a commercial place, they should have known in the first place that doing such things could cause them to be raided by the police sooner or later. And concerning about the prive to purchase a legal software, I think it's absurd if they say they can't afford it. Let's say, if an hour cost around Rp 3000 and a computer is used around 15 hours a day, we'll get around Rp 45.000 a day. And usually an IC in Malang has around at least 30 computers to start with. With that, you'll get Rp 1.350.000 a day. In a month, a gross omzet of around 40 millions rupiah wouldn't be immposible to aim. With that much money, at leats they should have invested on buying legal softwares one by one. But stiil, they took the risk on using ilegal ones which caused them to be raid. Besides, who says that only popular softwares could only be used. There are loads of freeware out there that have the same functions with usual and popular ones. Which means, not using popular but ilegal softwares wouldn't harm anyone. It's just that for everything new, everone has to learn a bit. I just wonder, why people nowadays are soooooo lazy to learn something new???

I guess that's all. Besides that, I don't there other things to discuss. Even if there are, I'm sure it would be again an neverending complain about how my nerves are getting the best of me before my examination. Next time, I really do hope i have my degree. So, let's hope I write again in a succesfull condition, See ya next week!!!

2 Weeks and Speeding

Here i'am, back in front of my monitor, writing this blog. Well....it may be just an ordinary blog, blog, but as it implies, a blog also sereves as a mean to state ones mind.

2 weeks and counting, my thesis tests is finally decided, which is on the 31st of May. It seems that the only male on the test date would be me and Arif, the others are all female with a total of around 5-6 people joining the exams. And like other exams, i do have to admit that it really makes me nervous. But being just nervous i guess doesn't finish off anything, and so i try to prpare myself studying whats really needed for the tests.

Around last Wednesday, i went to campus. Some things that i had to finish off and meet with. The first one was about my thesis summary cover. This matter nearly made me pissed off. It's all because off that the requirements off the submission didn't clearly say that i had to make such thing, and it seemed this caused some misperception even among the staffs in the depatement office. But, rather thatn argue and ending myself in another potential trouble, I had to obey what the staffs said. It's just annoying that even the staffs have different perception among whats supposed to be clear and rigid.

Nest was to meet Elok. She offerred me this great book about CSR, which is my thesis topic. And aftera quick glance at it, it really was something to belong. I mean, it nearly contained all the things i had to know about CSR. It's quite a pity i knew about this book after i submitted my registration. Nevertheless, I bought it anyway, it might even come in handy since I might get some things that aren't available yet to my database.

LAst stop, to meet wendra. It wasn't an appoinment since he was attending his thesis exams. But i felt that i had to come and encourage him. It's also his second test since he failed his first one after being slaughtered by his examiner. And since it was just 2 weeks prior my exam, I think coming on such events might help me get to know the true feeling on what might i feel or i experience when doing my tests. Eventhough i've been to such occasions before, this one really did give me a close impression on how it feels while doing your thesis exams.

Other things??Not much, except picking up my new ceelphone and meeting up with galih. About my cellphone, I had to swich to another cellphone due to my PDA not able to receive or make a phone call due to it's speaker being broke. Luckily my mom had a spare cellphone. But since it was also broken, i thought I'd try to repair it. Luckily dad gave permission to repair it due to the high cost, in the end, I think it's worth it. Not being able to receive or make calls really does bother you. You just wouldn't know when you might have to make or receive a call in times off emergency. The only set back for me having to use this old-new cellphone is that I now again have to get myself accustomed to use it with just my thumbs. It's been around 3 years since I haven't used a cellphone with only one hand. This was because my prveious cellphones required me to used it on both hands, which was my stolen nokian 3300 and my recently broke PDA. Eventhough in the end I need to do some adaptation, I guess it's a welcome change.

Not to forget galih. It's been a while since we ahd our trip togetehr to selorejo with the others. It seems we had some kind of misundertsanding on when to meet. In the end, i had to give in and let him visit my house due to myself not understanding his message properly. He was there for about an hour or so, but we did really have a nice chat. I also got some usefull information regarding Telkom Speedy, a broadband internet service. He explained to me the ins and outs of it. It sure gave me brighter view on how to view it. Personally, I was thinking of subscribing to this service, but some things have made me to postpone it for the moment. One of those things are beacuse i have to prepare for the exams. The other things are about asking permission and finding out wether subcribing to it is worth it or not.

Well, I hope in the near future i'm able to subscribe to it. I really do need it cause having to go to the internet cafe really bothers me sometimes. It's mainly that you just don't feel at home while browsing. The other things is that since I like to download various stuffs, going to the internet cafe really sucks because you have to match the perfect time and day in order to get a maximum download rate, something which is really hard and painfull often. And so, I asked my brothers on helping out on doing a joint venture to buy a ASDL modem in order for me to subscribe. I'm sure it'ld benefit all of us. Especially Bgaoes and me use the internet often. I aslo don't have to wait in front of the monitor just to make sure i've finished my downloads. Hope I'll be able to subscribe soon after my tests are over.

Movie Review : Mr. Bean's Holiday

Ok.....here's the latest and last installment of the hillarious and funny Mr. Bean series. Since the last movie around 9 years ago, I thought that'll be the only movie. It proved me wrong due to the release of this movie. And as you've guessed, it still does serve and show dozens of hillarious and ridiculous scenes from Mr Bean.

This time, Mr Bean get's to go goon a vacation due to winning a lottery. Even by winning it, the disaster has started. Arriving in Paris....all sorts of things happened. From having to walk all the way to the train station, his lunch in the restaurant and ending up lost with a Russian director's son.

Even after getting separated for some time with this kid, Mr Bean gets to know this women he met on the road, who coincidently, needs to go to Canes to attend the Cannes Film festival. Along down the road, they both met again with the lost kid and both went to Cannes. Unknown to Bean, a country wide search has been issued upon him for being accused of abducting the Russian film director. And so, needing to get to the film festival, they start to do all sorts of trick, starting to cross dress to having to punch a security guard.

I think that' all for the story. don't wanna give much spoilers. Just want to save the enjoyment for last. As for the movie, it still does offer us Bean's latest craziness and stupidity on his vacation. But still there are some things that bug me. The story on Bean itself is quite outdated for me. This film should have been released about 2-3 years after the first movie. If it wasn't for Bean's pure stupidity and craziness in the movie, I think the film itself wouldn't be that of an interest to people.

The other thing is about the interaction between Bean and his surroundings. what I mean is, all of his stupidity and craziness since now has all started to his interaction with other people. And to me, this part wasn't exploited realy deep. In here, he just meet people and all of a sudden, they to end up having to follow Bean's madness. The worst part is, the ending of this movie is really lame, pure lame. As if all of the cast in the movie all become Bean...??!

Anyway, if your looking for laughs and giggles, I guess this film serves it's purpose. But for a decent story, I personaly won't recommend it. The first movie for me is way better than this one. I guess this movie is just a mere nostalgia and an official end the the Mr Bean franchise.

Postponed.....(again)

Arrrgghhhhhh....dammmmnnnnn....juts tell me how long do i have to wait for my fate to be decided. It sure does leave me restless having to wait for the D-Day.


Ah yeah, haven't told you anything, my test...got postponed again. This time it's being moved to the end of this month, which is May. I really don't know how to react on this thing, either be blessed or be devastated. Like i once said....only an extraordinary thing and event can make my tests be postponed for the second time...and it really did happened. Anyway, I do have to give my thanks to Allah SWT who made Mr. Made suddenly have to attend a certain duty in Jakarta for some days. This meant he can't attend my tests as my counselour.

Getting things postponed again sure made my time schedule quite jumbled. This leaves me with another 3 weeks of spare time to really prepare my side. And lucky me, Mr Made gave me some hints on what to prepare. Oh well....just basic stuffs like Accounting basics concerning the financial, cost and managerial parts. Not to forget my thesis of course. I sure have to make sure i study all those thiongs he said. Just in case, let's just add some miscellanous topics, in case they get asked for in my tests.

My life...oooohhhh....not bad or good either. Just the boring thing i always feel each day. It sure different being a college student in your final days. Nothing to do besides your thesis. Luckily beside my thesis, I do have some things to do, like studying japanese and english. As of my english, i'm on my final stages of this lesson. Having to do 2,5 years at EF surely tires and bores me. Especially if one by one your friends quit because they fail or refuse to continue. I did experience my golden times there around level 8-9. Too bad can't experience those times again. If only we could meet again in some sort of reunion.

As a replacement for my English lessons, i'm planning on trying to learn Mandarin. I was offered the chance to learn it long ago when i was in primary school, but i took aside that offer, which i really now kinda regret. Surely mandarin is slowly coming to become one of the major languages in the world, so i would think it's worth studying. But I do have to take in mind that after my exams, i don't have much time left, so better find a course and start it as soon as possible.

As of other things...i guess it's just about my body feeling a bit sick for the past 4 days lately. It all started last Saturday when I went to the Internet cafe early in the morning. And to make things worst, I rode my bike to the Cinema without wearing a coat and ended up home late at night. The same thing happened again while i rode my bike again without a coat the next day to eat at Bounty's. And to wrap up things.....due to insufficient warming up the next morning, my whole body went in pain. To descibe things, you can't fart which made my stomach quite swollen. By the end of the day, things really went much better. Thanks to my grandma who told me to put a bottle ful of hot water to my stomach. It really eased my suffer. But still, I guess i lost about a kilo or some while defacating. To think things went back again really made me careless. The next night, due to having to stay up the whole night made things deteriorate. My whole body worsened and I had to spend the whole night unable to sleep. Also, I had to go to the toilet every 1-2 hours in the night which really made me very tired. In the end, i was able to take a decent sleep by around 5.

And so....I do hope my body get's better. Better not forget to study. Relaxing and self indulging is good but better make sure to enjoy it properly and to it's limits. Make sure you don't get carried away, cause the next 3 weeks will be gone in an instance if I don't use my time properly. I was thinking...should I make myself some sort of time table to make things in order....Dunnoo....but i think i'll give it a try.

Movie Review : Spiderman 3

Another review here guys. There is however something special here bout this review. That is bout that i write this review straight after i finished the moview at the theaters. Theaters???Yup.....it's really been ages since i last been to the cinema's. And it really left me quite awkward just entering the place itself. I didn't what made me wanted to watch this film straight from the big screen, but after it finished, i think it was worth it.

And so bout the title itself. The film itself has been waited for ages by it's fans. And i do agree that this film has it's own taste. As a sequal, this film directly continues the story from the second film. But, it ain't called another sequal if it doesn't offer anything new. What's the new part??Villains of course and the other part is what always makes the previous spiderman movies really hit the box office. That is the personal life about the man behind the mask, Peter Parker.

The film really has a different approach to the secong movie. If the second movie was about spiderman doubting his own power, this time...he is being consumed by his power and ego. And to make things worst.....an alien symbiotic comes and starts to take control of his mind. Not to mention, his relationship with MJ.Since she does know his identity, it should have been more easier for spidey, but.....man can only plan....In other words, it seems things aren't going as they planned.

Add came Gwen Stacy to the scene which made their relationship quite hot. And also Harry, who at the beginning went all crazy witn his father's goblin legacy just to get knocked off and caught an amnesia for half the story. Quite amusing how Harry finaly regained his memory to tease spidey off after getting back his memoeries back just once again to get his face half scared by spidey's dark powers (pooor you.....).

Talking about the other villains which are Sandman and Venom. Sandman...hmmm.....not that of a villain...to m, he's just a wrong man in the wrong place. The epilogue on him with spidey finally explained things. The real menace should have gone to Venom, but he just got some action nearly at the end of the movie. This dude surely did some wreckage and havoc while fighting spidey. And with Eddie's persona, they do make a good match. I do hope Venom reappears again if another sequel is made, to me...he just didn't get much sreen time than he was supposed to.

I do have to admit, this movie sure had to many cast to begin with, making me a bit apprehensive on how they're gonna pull of with a good story. Luckily they did manage to do that, eventhough it could have been much more better. Three villains to begin with...hmmm...way too much.Even if they did insist on continuing this, they should have at least prolonged the movie lenght to about 3 hours. It's just I didn't feel the brawl was enogh, especially Venom with Spidey. In the end, the movie still does a good job on continuing the Spiderman franchise. Let's hope the next one will be more better (if there will be any).

Puisi Picisan (Part 2)

This real emotion wit you, don't ever kiss me goodbye, coz your eyes on me has left a perfect blue in my heart and soul

This secret of my heart,should anyone listen to my hearty? Or shoud it just be a wind of gold for myself

The ray of your face has ignited my soul, making a moment in my mind, leaving a real taste of your vanilla

Share your heart with me, don't ever leave me in a flood of tears, don't let the love bug in me touch the dune's of loneliness.

The tree of life that I am going through, sure...life is like a boat, rowing through the promised land of love, round and round in the field of hopes, glowing like an emerald green.

The eternal wind blows of the black stone in my mind, beside you only I can step aside thecape of storms raging through my veins, sensing that we're be destined to be together....

What is love? Is it a cureless sickness that makes a hole in the the inner core of our lives? I can only breathin the air, the scent of the mellow songs from my endless sorrow's within

This lovesick leaves me dazed and alone, let it go, make a move, surely it'll showone way to the discovery of a dreamless world

Do you expect me to give a gift? Some day one day mygrayish wings shall overflow this world with a vision to my heart, so that nobody but you can see this fine weather day of shines

Puisi Picisan (Part 1)

U'r presence pumps out my adrenalin,as if in a dream,your smile is like a sweet vanilla,your face shines like the full moon.

U'r exsistence makes me addicted to you, longing for you to be by my side,my blurry eyes can only see you in vivid colors

All year around falling in love to you, the colors of my heart wants to know your color's so we can be a key of heart for each other

Sweet dream's all night, can I feel an evergreen horizon that you put in every heart's love

The brilliant years past by, white feathers pour as the snowdrop's rain in my first snow, I sense a miracle from my mega step's towards you

Is this first love just a glacial love? Or is it just the birth of my revelation towards you, I hope what I feel isn't killing me nor a finale

Love and Honesty, is it enough to bond each other's heart's? Can my prayer's reach the heavenly ark in the sky? Or will my name will just be an echo in your simple and clean life.

The shallow sleep's I've been experiencing all night, is it the secret sign's that tells me the reason for loving you? Or is it the result of an everlasting hope for true love?

My trust on my feeling towards you,will it ever be an excistence in your mind? Or do I have to prepare myself to say farewell? Is it a sin to be passionnate on my feelings, or do I have to keep it black towards others?

Can u open my heart's sanctuary till i'm feeling fine?or do I have to lose control to the tangerine dreams?

What is love? Is it to be blame'd? Or is it to be a poker face? Can I fly high towards the ark in the lost heaven's?

I wish I could rewrite the days of happiness, when you would be the one to show me the meaning of peace and love towards each other, how I've always alonged for the link between us be realized in the spirit dreams inside us

Ready steady go my dear, the heaven's drive for us is coming closer, let us feel the brand new beat that’s outgrowing between us.

My dearest thoughts for you in this winterfall, perhaps love can invoke a bravery to show love flies everywhere

My sweetie, the four season's we've spent together, the aazing kisseses we've shared, the snow white loves we've had, is it enough to forget it and just say "time to say goodbye"

The next step's of our lives, will be a time slip to our fate of our lives, a winding road to the journey to a neo universe, get ready to spark in the new world

Loose and Tight Weeks

OMG....it been a while since i posted a blog. Didn't notice that it' been that long and all of a sudden it's now May. Ah well, never mind bout that, let's just skip on things.

Continuing what i've said before, I was prepairing to register myself for the thesis exam. But there seems to be a problem. All of a sudden, the exams itself were postponed till the 16th of May. This also led to the registration being prolonged till the 4th of May. Quite shoking for me since I was really already geared up and on fire to face the exams. with all this, I then thought, oh well, why not take a rest from all things, besides, I was already hyped up the past 10 days for thinking the examz were gonna happen on the 10th.

With sudden things happening, I than started to borrow comics again. Just being left away from comics for 10 days really left me clueless on what to borrow. And it really did coz there were dozens of new comics that i haven't read yet. And so i began to read those drugs (comics). It didn't stop there coz when i paid a visit to lava net, he..he.. guess what i found....???Code Geass complete till the latest episode, Woooowww.......I didn't hope to get this much jackpot in just a couple of days. And as u guessed, I really did spend the weekend just watching Code Geass and reading comics. My thesis..??I didn't even touch it. Speaing about Code Geass, i did read the synopsis before, but I didn't know that it was that awesome. It nealy led me to tears watching the last episode. Kinda of weird coz i rarely shed any tears. What i just hped is that they really make a conclusive season regarding Code Geass. It's really a shame if the makers in the studio's don't.

with all the looseining up happening, i then thought...wow...i guess it's time to get back to work. Besides reading comics and watching anime, i also got a chnace to visit selorejo lake with some of my old pals from high school. The trip itself was really refreshing coz we went through those highlands and passing through villages. Not to also mention the experience of having to stop for around 2 hours due to my car breaking down coz of one of the hoses loosened. we did managed to reapir it ourselves, but it really took time doing all that resulting our trip was reduced to just a couple of hours in the afternoon. But in the end, it really was a fascinating trip for me. Too bad i didn;t get to buy fresh milks there coz one of the areas we passed seemd to be a place were fresh milks are produced.

Back to work. Oh....it really felt a bit odd having to read such journal's and books all over again. And since i only got just fifve days to prepair all of the requirements to register, i think all just have to finish this off. And it really caused me some pain, having to go to campus back and forth every day just because of one thing, my bibliograph hasn't been signed as prove of aproval. And it was just yesterday i knew why when i called my counselour. He said there's a mistake on how i write thesis. The othe thing was that he didn't have any idea on where to sign it. On the last pasrt, i do admit it was my fault. And then i went to all the trouble of reapiring that part and submiting it again to his office. And this is one of the parts hate. With only just tomorrow for submiting my requirements, i do hate why i have to wait till the next day to know wether it has been signed or not. I do hope it has coz if not, then i'll have to wait for the next chance which will be around the 31st, quite long eehh....

with my days numbered, i can only hope the exams won't be that hard. I do know that there are still bugs and errors in my thesis, but if a just think bout that, i think i won't be going anywhere. Oooohhhhh......please Allah...make me pass this exam for the sake of my future.......AMIIIIINNNNNNNNN.



PS : This may be my last blog in a couple of days for the moment due to myself having a thesis exam.

Anime Review : Code Geass, Lelouch of The Rebellion

Aahhh, it's time to review one of my favorite anime's. At first honestly, I didn;t expect this anime to be that famous, not to mention making me have to wait every week for it to air. But in the end, it really sarisfied me to the point that I consider it to have one of the best storylines ever. The review here is supposed to wait for the 1st season to completely finish, but that'll mean it could only be done on summer when the last 2 episodes of the first season will air. Since the rumors says that it'll continue straight with season 2, then i guess i'll join the two last episodes of the first season with the second season.

What makes me eager to wait every week is the plot twist that happen in this anime. You really can't guess what's gonna happen next episode, even you've read the preview for it. It's always full of surprises and always makes you think how is Lelouch gonna reach his destiny. For Suzaku, i think he serevs as the side role and the antagonist of the series being Lelouch's friend and foe both. I do hope Suzaku is gonna be the main role in the 2nd season.

The story itself isn't that original. It starts with a boy named Lelouch who was banished with his sister to Japan by his family. Ironically, the Japan now they live in is now conquered by his family. It is when they where banished, Lelouch got to befriend Suzaku, the son of the now last prime minister of Japan. The setting of the story is 7 years since there first meeting and it revolves around their paths to free Japan from colonized.

Lelouch as the protagonist of the show does have a similarity with Light Yagami from Deathnote, both being very calculating and cunning to reach their ambitions. And too bad for Lelouch, his main rival is none other than his best friend Suzaku Kururugi (like Kira and Athrun form Gundam SEED). The interesting part is that even they are enemies, that only happens in the battlefield. But once back at schools, they again become great pals. But thisn only happens till late of the show when Lelouch finally gets to know who really Suzaku is.

As for the mecha, well to some degree, i do think it has more realism than other mecha shows such as gundam and the others. But you can't definately expect them to be all real. Luckily too, the mecha's here aren't the main parts of the show, not like gundam. The mecha's which are called knightmare frames act as a tool for each sides to battle each other. There are some ace KMF, but don't expect them to be that great with battle, which also adds to the realism. The interesting part in the KMF's are it can eject it's pilot cockpit like in usual day air fighter's.

And not to mention the main part of this show, the Geass ability. A powerfull ability that in Lelouch's case, enables him to give an absolute order on anything to someone. In the show, we are introduced to two types of Geass, one form Lelouch and the other from Mao. Mao's ability is more cunning as it enables him to read minds in a certain perimeter. The same parts is that this Geass power will slowly grow that it might endanger it's user. Mao has his Geass turned permanent and Lelouch got his one permanent late at the show. This ability in show ended up making Lelouch have to suffer great pain in his heart due to it turning on automaticly on the wrong person (no spoiler's here). In the end, the Geass ability really is an enigma that hasn't been solved.

Even if there is someting that is bothering me on this show is the constant fanservice being showed. If I can list it, it really does have too much I guess, from shower scene to masturbation scene. Masturbation....???Yup...even i was surprised to see this kind of scene able to get aired. If i was to give a rate, I think it's gonna be around 15+. Luckily the fanservices aren't scattered everytime. But the rate itself portrays how dense and deep i think the story itself. You would rarely find any comic reliefs and antics here.

The show in the end is a great thing to watch. I personally recommend it to those who like to watch anime. As for the 2 last episodes, I do hope that it really wraps up the first season perfectly. It way better to wait for summer for a perfect ending rather than have it rushed up.

Countdown

Waktu telah ditentukan......countdown to 3 weeks and counting....

Apaaan tuh???Yup...you guessed it, kepastian skripsi gw dah ditentukan.Kapan??Tanggal 10 Mei Insya Allah. Yang jelas...my days are numbered.

Well, sudah kuduga hal ini bakalan datang cepat ato lambat. Tetapi...jalan menuju kepastian ini berjalan cukup lambat dan berliku, terutama dalam waktu 2 minggu terakhir.

Semua dimulai ketika harus merevisi skripsi gw. Bagi gw, sambil jalan pun bisa gw lakukan hal ini. Yang jadi masalah adalah ijazah gw yang ilang. Dan tuk mulai mengurus hal ini, minggu lalu gw janjian ma galih di sekolah tuk ketemuan. sampai sana, jelasnya sih lumayan pangling ngeliat perubahan2 yang ada...termasuk pada galih sendiri yang menurut gw tambah kurus aja. Namun...bukannya ngurus ijazah eh gw malah ngobrol ngalor ngidul ma galih tentang berbagai hal. Ha..ha..bisa gw maklumin sih coz dah hampir 2 tahun ngga ketemu ma anak ini. Ujung2nya malah gw ajak nih anak ke rumah. Disana kita melanjutkan oborlan secara lebih serius. Akhirnya, dengan berbagai info tentang where 2 start, gw putuskan tuk ke sekolah kembali sekitar 2 hari berikutnya. Habisnya perlu ke kantor polisi dahulu katanya.

The surprise and shock came the next day. Setelah berkonsultasi dengan mama, yang juga disertai dengan berbagai nasihat dan peringatan atas kelakuan gw yang terkesan ignorant and cuek woalaahhh!!!tiba2 aja gw ditelepon lagi n katanya ijazah gw dah ketemu!!!Entah gimana petualangan skripsi gw hingga tiba2 bisa ampe ditangan mama tapi as usuall, gw masih tetep jadi main suspect atas hal ini. Heehhh...???Auh ah.....gw dah bosen tas hal ini, tapi jelasnya lumayan lega dah ketemu terlepas dari how it ended like this. Cerita lebih lengkapnya baru gw ketahui dari ibu yang selama ini bener2 mengetahui kejadian sebenarnya namun memutuskan tuk menyembunyikan the truth demi kerukunan 2 anaknya yang engkel2an gara2 skripsiku. Anyway at the end, I must be gratefull that my high school certificate has been found.

Dengan demikian tinggal belajar n mempersiapkan skripsi deh, Tetapi ada acara lain yang menuntut perhatian pada akhir pekan yakni acara gathering keluarga besar jemirahan di rumah. Entah kenapa kok barusekarang kesampaian tapi bagi gw merupakan kesempatan tuk ketemu lagi ma keluarga sono yang notabene jarang gw temui. Kalopun ketemu paling2 setahun sekali pas lebaran. Persiapannya pun lumayan, dimulai dari makanan dan peralatannya. Tapi...it all paid off at the day. Sebanyak 4 mobil yang dibawa, jumlah yang banyak karena yang datang sendiri sekitar 20 orang lebih termasuk anak2 kecil yang jadi mayoritas rombongan. Anyway, the gathering went well. Namun gw sendiri jadi agak tersiksa karena harus menahan ngantuk seharian dan cuma bisa gw lampiaskan denfan rebahan paling banter 10 menitan. Acaranya sendiri berakhir sekitar jam 3. Namun setelah itu gw masih harus pontang panting tuk ke elia yang minta dibalikn buku metpennya, juga nganterin berkat ke rumahnya nandar. The end of the day..my body really felt tired.....>_<

Besoknya hari senin gw ke kampus. And pada hari ini gw dapat kepastian mengenai kapan gw ujian. Alhamdulillah syarat2 admisitratif beres semua, tinggal bener2 menyempurnakan skripsi gw agar layak diserahkan. Harus gw akui, waktu 3 minggu tuk persiapan bener2 cukup. Tinggal bagaimana gw memanfaatkan hal ini sebaik mungkin agar gw ngga gagal. Jelasnya, gw dah ngga mikir siapa penguji gw, yang penting adalah mempersiapkan diri dan berdoa sebaik mungkin agar things go by my side. Tuk memulai langkah2, gw dah berhenti minjem komik sampai ujian selesai sementara ini. Rasanya sih lumayan sepi, but for the moment, i think i can handle it. Namun demkian, secara perlahan lahan mau gw kurangi bentuk2 hiburan yang selama ini bisa gw nikmati. Semua ini agar gw bisa bener2 berkonsentrasi dengan ujian skripsi dan komprehensif gw.

One small thing left, akhirnya les bahasa jepang gw dimulai kembali. Setelah vakum sekitar 3 bulan, akhirnya semua bisa kembali on track. Tapi setalah sekian lama juga ternyata kagok juga berbahasa jepang lagi coz selama itu ngga dilatih. Jadinya keliatan banget belepotan bahasa jepangnya. But i think that's part of the process. Nikmati aja semua....^_^

Ouuucchhh.....It Hurts!!!

Pernah negerasa bahwa kita sebagai manusia yang seharusnya diperlakukan secra manusiawi dan bermartabat tapi malah diperlakukan seperti benda mati?? Well, if u haven't...pasti u bakal kaget ngeliat berita2 di koran dalam seminggu ini. What's it ist???Itu looohhhhh....Kasus kematian praja di IPDN (lagi......).

Oficially, it's the third case since 2000....ingat..."resminya" coz konon sih dah banyak bangeettt yang mati tapi ditutupi. Tapi seperti pepatah, bau busuk lama kelamaan pasti tercium juga. Tapi yang bikin gw salut sepertinya bangsa ini jago dalam hal menutupi kasus2 semacam ini. Buktinya dibutuhkan 6 tahun sejak kasus resmi yang pertama untuk membuat pemeritah melek agar mau mereformasi institut penghasil camat ini.

Gencarnya berita2 tentang IPDN membuat gw berpikir....kok bisa....tempat pembinaan calon2 pemimpin bangsa malah diperlakukan seperti itu. Katanya sih mengadopsi cara militer. Tapi kalo gw bilang malah lebih sadis tuh. Entah disebut apa lagi kalo bukan cara militer....??Jelasnya kalo diperlakukan kaya gitu gw ngga bakal kaget kalo mentalitas birokrasi di Indonesia ngga pernah bisa jadi baik kalo dari awal dah disiksa kaya begitu. Wajar kalo dah pada kerja mikirnya kaco...mulai dari nilep uang rakyat....nyiksa rakyat...dan melonco rakyat....padahal.....yang diminta dari mereka cuma satu ...melayani...!!!

Ngeliat calon2 camat itu diperlakukan kaya gitu...gw sempet berpikir....wah....mendingan masuk militer deh.....masih dapat megang senjata...kalo Indonesia beruntung malah bisa ikutan nerbangin F-22 atopu F-35. Jelasnya...kalo ada orang jahat bisa ikutan tembak-tembakan ala counter strike.....singkat kata you'll get to be a hero. Jadi calon camat...????Moohhhh ahhh!!Bisa2 pulang balik nama.....or even worst....

The truth is for me....the education here sucks!!!The method specifically. Rasanya masuk ngga tambah pinter malah tambah rusak...semua segi tentunya.Ketika sekolah diharapkan menghasilkan bibit tunas bangsa malah seringkali dikorbankan atau layu duluan hanya karena segelintir oknum atu juga kebijakan yang membuat mereka malah ngga maju2.....

Coba cek diluar kasus IPDN...yakni anak2 SMA yang akan menjalani UAN mereka dalam jangka waktu dekat. Kasian juga belajar susah2 3 tahun kalo ternyata nasib kelulusan hanya ditentukan melalui 3 pelajaran mendasar dalam 3 hari. SO.....dengan kata lain ....rugi milih IPA ato IPS kalo yang diuji samaaaaaaa ajaaaaa!!Padahal kadang2....milih masuk IPA ato IPS dah bikin ribet...eh..ini malah keribetan itu terasa sia-sia kembali kalo hanya diuji 3 mata pelajaran mendasar.

Secara keseluruhan..... pendidikan disini ngga akan pernah bisa menghasilkan calon2 sepeti Gandhi....Einstein....ato juga Stephen Hawking kalo kerjaannya tiap hari diplonco ato dididik dengan kurikulum yang ngga jelas. Jadi perfikir....apa arti pendidikan?????Kan seharusnya mencerdaskan kehidupan rakyat....tapi selama ini hal ini sekadar jargon belaka.....kapan bisa maju di 2030 nanti....????


Wallahu'alam Bissowab......



PS : .....Hasil renungan pribadi atas penderitaan seluruh siswa2 calon pemimpin negeri yang sedang tersiksa oleh sistem pendidikan di sini.....

Drama Review : Hana Yori Dango

Pernah ngeliat Meteor Garden??Itu lhooo... serial yang mengorbitkan boy band F4??Nah ini adalah seri awal yang menginspirasi serial buatan Taiwan ini. Awalnya sih ragu apa bisa lebih baik dari Meteor Garden....tapi ternyata ekspektasi gw pas. Emang seri asli dimanapun jauuuhhh lebih mantep daripada sadurannya.

Acting : Karakter F4 pas dibawakan oleh bishounen2 yang tampil. Perhatia gw berikan pada Jun Matsumoto dan Shun Oguri yang membawakan tokoh Domyouji dan Rui. 22nya pas banget aktingnya. Tuk Jun sendiri, baru kali gw liat aktingnya yang meledak-ledak dan penuh emosi daropada aktingnya dulu di Gokusen. Tuk Oguri sendiri malah jadi lebih pendiam, kebalikan dari perannya yang di Gokusen. Malah....kalo dibandingin pas pertama kali tampil GTO...dah brubah jauuuhhh banget!!Tuk sisa anggota F4 lainnya...gw bilang sih cukup2 aja. Sayangnya mungkin plot ceritanya yang kurang memberikan mereka peran sehingga hanya terkesan sebagai pelengkap mata aja. Tuk Inoue Mao yang jadi Tsukushi...cocok banget lah!!! terutama raut mukanya yang bener2 mengesankan "rumput liar".


Storyline : Berhubung gw belum pernah liat manga-nya, gw bilang sih cukup2 aja ceritanya. Tapi yang paling bisa gw inget dari ceritanya adalah kelucuannya. Terutama bagaimana Tsukasa dan Tsukushi harus saling mencocokkan diri menghadapi 2 dunia yang berbeda dengan yang selama ini mereka hadapi. Tapi rasanya kok jalan ceritanya terlalu gimanaaaa ya???kaya klise bisa jadi ato mungkin tuk endingnya, gw katakan terlalu sempurna. Habis kok semua berjalan lancar2 aja dan berakhir dengan baik. Entah lagi kalo emang di manganya kaya gini, tapi gw sendiri ngga cocok dengan jalan cerita yang terlalu mulus2 aja tanpa halangan berarti.

Hikmah :


Jangan pernah meremehkan rakyat kecil!!Kalo ngga bisa berakibat bogem menah. Itulah yang dirasakan oleh Tsukasa ketika kena bogem mentahnya Tsukushi. Tapi enak juga kalo bogem mentah berujung ke saling cinta. Tapi dasarnya dah saling beda dunia, salting dan kelucuan lah yang malah didapatkan. Belum lagi betapa belepotannya bahasa jepangnya si Tsukasa dalam menyampaikana perumpamaan2. Singkat kata ...love can come from anywhere....

Great Anime's of My Choice

Ever since i've been watching anime (for the last 4 years that is), there are dozens of title that i've watch. I try to watch every genre. Some are great, some are just so-so and sometimes some are poor too. Nevertheless, every story has it's good and bad parts. Till this point, i'll give out my choice on my best anime ever. Note that the number doesn't state the rank.

1. Soukyuu no Fafner

Pertama kali ngeliat anime ini kok rasanya membosankan ya??Tapi seiring kebutuhan tuk ngeliat anime, akhirnya ngeliat juga. Ternyata.....Mantep euy!!Walo cerita ngangkat hubungan manusia dengan alien (suatu hal pada dasarnya gw ngga bisa cocok), ternyata ceritanya ngga melulu perang antar keduanya. Tapi bagaimana dua bangsa ini bisa saling memahami. Dasarnya sendiri ceritanya dah berat, tapi hal ini ngga buat gw tambah bete, tapi tambah penasaran gimana endingnya. Nilai plusnya juga adalah mecha-nya yang lumayan mbois. Stylish kaya gundam sih ngga, tapi kalo gw bilang seharusnya inilah bentuk suatu mecha. Andaikata ada sekuelnya gw jamin bakal gw ikuti.

Rating >> 4,5 dari 5


2. Fullmetal Alchemist

Gantinya slot gundam seed. Harus gw akui, ceritanya bener2 orisinal banget!! Belum lagi ceritanya yang ngangkat perjalanan dua saudara dalam hubungan mereka dengan alkemi. Aslinya sih dari komik, yang pada awalnya gw kira bakal sama, eh malah beda banget ceritanya dengan komik (yang sama cuma garis besarnya aja). Jujur aja, banyak hikmah yang bisa gw ambil dari anime ini, terutama mengenai pengorbanan dan ambisi manusia. What else...ah ya....soundtrack yang keten pool.. Coba....laruku, porno grafitti, AKG dll, pokoke jajaran artis2 top yang ngebawain lagu2 tuk anime ini membuat tambah betah aja ngeliat anime nya. Luckily, endingnya yang nanggung dilanjutkan di filmnya yang dengan sukses menuntaskan ceritanya. Anyway, I do recommend this anime.

Rating >> 4 dari 5


3. Planetes

Judul yang bagi beberapa orang ngga menarik, tapi bagi gw sendiri meninggalkan kesan yang mendalam.kok bisa..??simpel aja, coz walo genre ceritanya sci-fi, tapi kesannya realistis banget. Ngga ada yang bombastis dari latar belakang ceritanya. Malah kalo gw bilang down to earth dengan tokoh utama yang mempunyai lakon simpel banget..yakni pemungut sampah angkasa. Diangkat dari komik, tapi animenya berhasil membuat ending yang menurut gw jauh lebih bagus daripada komiknya, suatu hal yang harang terjadi apabila anime dibuat dari manga. Kalo mo nyari bagian yang asik dari anime ini adalah pada paruh kedua masa tayangnya. Malah 4 episode terakhir menjadi saat yang mendebarkan dan menegangkan habis. Akhir cerita bener2 membuat aq puas deh. Intinya, tuk membuat cerita anime, ngga harus bombastis banget latar belakang ceritanya, malah yang down to earth bisa lebih menyampaikan maksud dari pembuatnya.

Rating >> 4 dari 5


4. Code Geass


Wah, tuk judul ini gimana ya bilang nya....mo ngasih komentar tapi jelasnya gw belum tamat ngeliat semua, but still, i think this is one of the best anime ever!!Awalnya penasaran aja, bagaimana anime ini -yang merupakan kolaborasi studio SUNRISE dan grup CLAMP- membuat cerita mecha. Ternyata lumayan bikin ketaguhan !! Fokus utamanya untungnya bukan pertarungan mecha, tapi tentang perebutan tahta dan pemberontakan. Walo jadinya pertarungan mecha [un gw ngga keberatan, cuma belakangan agak bosen aja. Selain itu, plot twist yang bener2 di luar dugaan senantiasa membuat penasaran bagaimana kelanjutan ceritanya. Sayangnya sendiri 2 episode terakhit ditangguhkan ampe musim panas nanti di jepang sono, tapi kabarnya sih langsung disambung ma musim keduanya. Singkat kata, kalo lho ngaku penggemar mecha, rugi kalo ngga ngeliat anime ini. BIsa dikatakan bagi gw ini merupakan perpaduan antara deathnote dan gundam.

Rating >> 4,5 dari 5

Puling out potential...

Another quick week, Like the other weeks i've passed, this week really made me busy n tight. Well...not that tense as it used to be, still, i had to keep the pace on in order to get things done.

Ever since i've recovered, it kinda seems that i've snapped or something. It's just that i had this overflowing urge to finish of my thesis as soon as possible. The ill really did put my schedule behind really bad. And it seems that my hard work these pasts weeks have paid off.

Remember that i'm gonna wait n see due to my thesis draft submittance? It seemed that i didn't have to wait that long. I was called in MOnday around lunch to my counselour's office. The usuall stuff, being asked about my thesis like what metjod am i taking and sorts off. The end was just so cliche....he just said, if i've finised my revision, feel free to register for comprehesion exams. I did expect this, but still, i'm lucky that he actually did give me some things to revise. In that way, I can see some flaws and errors to fix.

After said the things that need to be fixed meant that my days are numbered from now then. I have to finish the revision as soon as possible so that i could start prepairing studying for my final exams. Cramming all those subjects in less than a month is really gonna be hard waork and pain. If i don't managed things, i might end up messing my future. So....to get things staright, i did managed to make a schedule draft.

Even though it's not fixed, i think it'll help me to get to know how i'll manage my schedule. Speaking of my schedule, i really gonna get things strict. Gradually, i;mgonna have my self reduce all the self indulging until around two weeks prior to my exams, i'll be free from all those kinda stuffs. Just remembered when i took my university entrance exams, i didi do these steps and t really worked, so i'm reenacting those success steps. Let' shope it'll work.

The revision itself....Well... how do you say. It's not that hard. It's just that some things really need to be patched carefully.But i guess i'll have it finisged by the end of this week. What's bothering me honestly is my absence of my high school sertificate. Man it's really a pain finding that stuff. I don't know where it is now, but if I don't find it by saturday, i'm gonna have to prepare myself to go to school and do the administrations. Speaking of that...i might have to do some calls to some old friends to help me out. I really hope i could finish this matter as soon as possible. I've been thinking about this matter for month just clueless on what to do. It seems i got my resolve at the last seconds. Bad habit i admit, but usually these kinds of condition pull out my potential to the limits.

Last words....May i finish of the revision quickly. The next level is awaiting me so gotta get things cleared. I hope n pray he best of my future....amiiinnnn.

Wait & See

Haaaahhhh......what a tiresome week. I say tiresome coz almost i experienced many things that kinda made me have to go around to many places in one time.

Dari hari senin aja dah pontang panting. Terutama pas harus milih antara nge-print skripsi dengan ambil plat nomornya chandra. Untungnya dah selesai. Jadinya ngeprintnya gw putuskan tuk malamnya aja. Jitung2 gw bisa mneg-edit lebih jauh. Selain itu gw cuma ke perpus kota doang. Akhirnya keturutan juga sih. Habisnya minggu lalu mo kesana ada aja halangannya. Sayangnya pas ampe sana gw malah lupa buku apa yang mau gw cari. Kalopun ada, sepertinya dah berubah banyak posisinya jadi susah tuk nyari bukunya. It's seems next time i have to prepare what books i'm gonna find n read.

The real thing started at night. Belum habis bingung gara2 mobil rusak eh helmnya bagoes yang gw pake juga ilang dicuri orang pas gw nge-print skripsi. Tapi kali ini, harus gw akui ini murni kesalahn gw coz seharusnya gw bisa bawa kedalam n ternyat ngga gw bawa. Ilang deh jadinya. Dah gitu, mau pulang hujan dereezzz. Basah Kuyup ampe di rumah. What a nice match for me that night....

Besoknya....wah, ternyata belum berhenti dari kejutan. Plan gw tuk naro skripsi saja di ruang mr made berujung dengan gw ketemu orangnya. Dah lama juga sih. Untungnya juga bapaknya lagi santai. But it seems dia ngga hafal banget tuh mana bimbingannya. Hasil akhirnya, gw malah disuruh ngelengkapin sisa skripsi gw n katanya siihhh...kalo emang ngga ada perubahan signifikan katanya langsung maju aja....?! What....???segampang itukah...dah gitu dia cuma ngomong bakal baca garis besarnya aja.....Gilaaa!!!Yang bener2 aja kalo gitu....wha....alamat jelek nih....kalo gitu gw harus bener2 memantapkan diri tuk ujian nanti, terutama sekali mengenai how to defend my thesis with a valid argument.

Perintah tuk melengkapin sisa skripsi yang berkisar daftar isi ampe daftar pustaka juga masih biki gw potang panting besok rabunya. Niat tuk nge-priny paginya harus bubar gara2 harus ke perpus Ub tuk verifikasi beberapa daftar pustaka yang kurang ato ngga jelas keterangannya. Udah gitu yang lain2 kaya bikin lampiran n daftar isi lumayan nyita waktu.

Luckily sorenya gw bisa nge-print d andi. Untungnya juga ngga banyak2 jadi ngga perlu sungkan ma orangnya. Dah lama juga sih ngga ketemu andi. Jadinya malah ngobrol ngalor ngidul...terutama tentang skripsi dan kabar anak2 yang lain. Malamnya mo main PS gw undur besoknya. Habis ngga yakin aja stamina gw nututi buat hal begituan. Walhasil gw malah nyasar ngenet malam itu. Gw putuskan ke Surya indah aja. Lately gw ke situ gara2 di galerinet dah mulai agak lemot. So nyari aja yang deket. Lagian disana juga ngga lemot2 amat...tergantung juga sih jam berapa kita kesana.

Kalo dilihat dari banyaknya yang gw donlot, bisa dibilang ngga memuaskan. Namun hati gw tetep ceria pulang gara2 bisa donlot 2 barang penting.....? yakni single barunya BoA n laruku!!!! Emang sih masih pada lom full version semua, tapi gw tetep aja gembira. Terutama lagunya laruku, mau bilang gimana ya???Yang jelas nuansanya ceria banget, khas tetsu nih. Dah gitu nih lagu keliatan banget kalo dipersiapin tuk jadi OST anime. Tuk yang BoA, tetep asik sih, tapi harus gw bilang ngga se-fresh kaya lagu2 yang keluar pada musim semi dahulu kaya Shine We Are ato Nanairo no Ashita. But, it's still enjoyable. Not to mentions her new short hair....beneran ngga ya potong tuh???

Kamisnya...baru bisa gw ke kampus naro skripsi gw. Pengennya sih pagi2 biar ngga perlu ketemu bapaknya, tapi harus gw sesuain ma jadwal ps-an. Pas kesana rupanya gw lumayan beruntung. Pas naro skripsi katanya bapaknya ngga ada, eh pas ke PPA, malah ngeliat bapaknya...how lucky i'am. Ohya, si wendra hari itu juga ujian kompre. Ngga lupa mampir sebentar nyemangati anaknya. Yang jadi masalah yakni ternyata sorenya gw dikabari ma johana rupanya si wendra ngga lulus ujiannya!!?Kaget juga sih gw, apalagi kalo inget anaknya paginya lumayan optimis dan ngga menunjukkan tanda2 nervous. Yang jelas bagi gw sendiri sih, harus bisa mencari tahu apa kira2 hal2 yang bisa menyebabkan kejadian semacam itu terjadi. Paling enak sih tanya ke orangnya sendiri yang barusan ngalamin. Dengan gitu, gw bisa mempersiapkan diri secara lebih baik.

Tidak lupa gw nyebut mobil gw yang rusak kali ini. setelah dibawa ke bengkel, ketahuna juga kalo emang mesinnya emang rusak. entah apanya yang rusak, tapi kayanya sih bakal makan biaya banyak. Tapi enaknya juga sih selain dibayar ayah, gw ngga perlu mengalokasikan uang bensin, jadi bisa lebih hemat deh. But, tetep aja gw berharap cepet selesai diperbaiki. Dalam kondisi yamg belakangan sering hujan, sepertinya naik mobil tetep jadi pilihan yang terbaik.

Naaaahhhhh.....sisanya tinggal wait n see deh semua. Terutama skripsi ku yang dah gw serahin ke mr made. Jelasnya gw berharap paling ngga ada yang perlu kek dibenahi, jangan asal bilang cukup ato gimana. But, buat jaga2 mending persiapin diri tuk kemungkinan terburuk, biar ngga kaget nantinya. So...C Ya!!

Durian's, Car's and Summaries

Weeee......seminggu hujan teruuuuzzzz. Kalo dulu cuma siang, rupanya langit dah ngga kuat nahan gejolak pipisnya. Jadinya pagi pun sekarang hujan deres. Dan kalo hujan gitu, hampir bisa dipastikan bakalan lama. Kalopun berhenti paling2 bersela 2 jam kemudian bakalan hujan deres lagi.

Aaahhhh, speaking of the weather, syukurlah 2 hari ini ngga hujan. Bosen 5 hari kerja kemaren isinya hujan terus. Gara2 hujan jadi perlu menyesuaikan banyak jadwal keluarku. Kalo ngga gitu bisa kebahasan nanti.

Sebetulnya bisa aja sih pake mobil. Tapi bensin yang sekarat membuat berpikir kembali tuk menggunakannnya. Soalnya gw bener2 sedang mengalami kanker sekarang alias kantong kering. Banyak hal yang harus kukeluarkan padahal sisa duit tinggal dikit. Dari les EF ampe daftar ulang les bahasa jepang. Moga2 aja uang bulananku dikirim lebih cepat deh.

Bicara mobil juga, rasanya lagi apes tuk hal ini. The problem is mobilnya rusak!!!Tebak hayoooo.....apa yang rusak???Radiatornya meledak!!Heh...gw kira radiator meledak merupakan hal yang biasa eh ngga tahunya malah suatu hal yang luar biasanya. Kejadiannya pas gw mau pulang ke rumah setelah mampir ke rumah bareng. Masih beruntung meledaknya deket rumah yakni depan gapura utama mau ke istana dieng.

Yang bikin gw lumayan khawatir yakni apakah bisa dipakai jalan kembali ke rumah. Habisnya nanggung banget. Untung aja masih bisa jalan, walo harus jalan kaya semut. Sampai di rumah gw langsung kontak om dhi perihal ini. Sisa malamnya....cuma bisa mengelus dada. Masih untung pula ayah juga mau nerima argumentasiku why this kind of thing happened.

Kalopun ada yang bisa membuat hatiku gembira malam itu adalah pesenan album BoA gw yang Made in Twenty akhirnya dapat. Lumayan lama juga nunggu barang ini, sekitar 3 minggu. 3 minggu yang lumayan apes juga coz habis hunting barang ini ternyata gw jatuh sakit. Tapi harus gw akui, punya albumnya bener2 asik. Yang gw incar terutama yaitu klip konser BoA The Live yang disertakan dalam DVDnya. Lumayan pikir gw daripada harus nunggu donlotannya yang sebesar 1,4 GB ato beli DVD aslinya yang seharga 900K tuk 2 keping DVD. Singkatnya......sensasinya BoAAAAAAAA banget.

Sisa minggu cuma gw pake tuk mengumpulkan inspirasi dan semangat. Coz gw plan maju ke pak Made minggu ini. Aslinya sih minggu lalu, tapi berhubung harus melakukan dikit revisi jadi mundur. I think it's bout time. Lagian gw dah didesak sana sini ma ortu tuk maju apapu risikonya. Gw sih juga dah mempersiapkan berbagai macam argumen terkait skripsi gw jikalau ditanya yang macam2. So, gw cuma membuat bab 5 n melakukan dikit pembetulan tuk hal2 kaya kutipan dll.

Akhir pekan bagi gw juga bisa dikatakan pesta durian. Habisnya pas ortu datang rupanya bawa sekardus full of durians. Entah beli ato dikasih, yang jelas selama gw masih bernafas, gw ngga pernah dapat durian sebanyak itu. Walhasil, besok malamnya pesta deh. Pengennya sih makan yang banyak, tapi rupanya perut dah ngga mengizinkan aku tuk melahap lebih banyak. walo dikatakan pesta, setelah gw cek lagi eh masih sisa 2 durian di kardus, gile beneeerrrr......

Akhir kata, kedepan jelasnya harus lebih hati2 ma hujan. Jangan sampai merusak jadwal kaya ngga les EF lagi ato lainnya. Juga gw harus sabar menunggu radiator mobil gw dibenerin. Last but not least, semoga urusan skripsi gw lancar2 aja. COz kalo dah dapat lampu hijau tuk kompre, gw mau segera ngurus ijazah gw yang ilang. AMiiiiiinnn for allll!!!!

 

Series Review : Kamen Rider Kabuto

Akhirnya, selesai juga seri ini. Sebetulnya dah lama pengen nulis reviewnya tapi baru kesampaian sekarang. Dan sebagaimana seri-seri lainnya, tentunya seri ini juga punya ups adn downs-nya sendiri. Anyway, here's the review

Story >>> 4 dari 5

Awalnya aq menganggap remeh seri ini. Walo dibumbui embel-embel dalam rangka 35 tahun kamen rider, rasanya belum tertarik. Baru setelah baca reviewnya di animonster jadi nyoba ngeliat seri ini, n ternyata lumayan menarik juga. Ceritanya sendiri kalo gw bilang mirip2 ma Kamen Rider Faiz, coz berjalan lambat n penuh misteri....yaaaa...untungnya ngga selambat Faiz

Ceritanya sendiri mampu tuk membuat gw setidaknya n adik2ku sampai menebak-nebak bagaimana akhir ceritanya. Aq awalnya lumayan khwatir tentang banyaknya kamen rider yang muncul, sekitar 8 klo ngga salah, tapi untung bisa membangun cerita yang baik, walo harus mengorbankan peran bagi beberapa kamen rider. Kalo gw sih idealnya kamen rider jangan lebih dari empat deh. Dari pengalamanku kalo lebih dari ini malah ngga fokus ceritanya kaya di Ryuuki n Hibiki.

Kenapa gw ngga ngasih angka sempurna tuk story-nya tidak lain karena endingnya sendiri berjalan diluar dugaan gw. Boss terakhir baru diperkenalkan pada episode 47. Lambat banget, dah gitu lumayan ngglethek bagi gw. Andaikata diperkenalkan lebih awal mungkin bisa lebih seru endingnya. Tuk endingnya sendiri sih ya cukupan lah. Apalagi dengan boss akhir yang telat diperkenalkan ^^;

Acting >>> 4 dari 5

Wow, rasanya baru kali ini ada tokoh utama yang bisa berlaku sombong sekaligus keren secara bersamaan. Untungnya sih baik hati. Harus gw akui, tokoh Tendou disini lumayan unik. Untuk mengimbanginya, maka ada si Kagami yang walopun baik hati tapi cukup mudah naik darah. Dan tentunya sifatnya yang berlawanan dengan Tendou menjadi bumbu cerita tersendiri.

Ternyata banyaknya kamen rider berpengaruh terhadap bagaimana akting mereka. Kaya Kamen Rider Drake misalnya. Perannya ngga menonjol pada akhirnya. Cuma dapat satu episode paripurna pada episode 37-38 aklo ngga salah. Yang paling melas yakni The-Bee. Sejak Yaguruma make Punch Hopper, perannya malah bener2 ilang. Yang bisa dibilang masih beruntung yakni Sasword. Ini juga dikarenakan dari awal diperlihatkan kalo dari sononya dia tuh worm, jadi dipastikan bakal memainkan peran di akhirnya.

Bagi pasangan kick n punch hopper, gw harus bilang gimana ya???Habisnya sejak kemunculannya rasanya peran mereka amat ngga jelas dan lebih terkesan sebagai gelandangan yang kebutulan dapat zecter belaka. Endingnya sendiri bagi pasangan ini juga nanggung, senanggung peran yang mereka mainkan.

Fiture >>> 5 dari 5

Maksud gw dari fiture adalah sejauh mana seri ini bisa menyampaikan "Rasa Kamen Rider". Habisnya sejak era kamen rider baru dimulai, rasanya banyak banget deh eksperimen dilakukan. Contoh terbaik dalam hal ini adalah seri Ryuuki n Hibiki. Seri Faiz sendiri juga menggabungkan konsep kamen rider dengan jagoan dari seri-seri metal heroes.

Kabuto sendiri kalo gw bilang bisa dikatakan kembali ke rasa seri Faiz, yakni dimana kamen ridernya bernuansa metal. Namun berhubung ini dalam rangka 35 tahun kamen rider, makanya banyak deh yang berusaha dimasukin.Kalo mo teliti, ya lihatlah konsep kabuto. Ini sendiri dah pernah ada di kamen rider stronger n kamen rider blade. Juga konsep double rider yang sebelumnya tenar oleh pasangan ichigo-Nigo kembali hadir lewat pasangan kick n punch hopper.

Tuk Kabuto dan Gattack, gw sendiri ngga bisa bilang mereka double rider murni. Habisnya bentuknya aja dah beda. Tapi menarik tuk diperhatikan dimana yang satu didasarkan dari stag beetle dan satunya dari rhino beetle. Juga jenis sepedanya yang saling berbeda jenis, satunya sepeda balap dan satunya sepeda trail. Keberlawanan ini sepertinya dicocokkan dengan tabiat dan sifat masing2 yang berbeda.

Tapi yang paling menarik perhatian gw adalah banyaknya cameo dari berbagai orang yang pernah menjadi kamen rider dan seri super sentai atopun yang terlibat dalam seri sebelumnya. Mungkin bancakan kali mumpung lagi peringatan 35 tahun ^^ Yaaa...lumayanlah bisa melepas kangen terhadap tokoh-tokoh tersebut.

Akhir kata, kamen rider kabuto kalo gw bilang bisa dikatakan salah satu yang terbaik semenjak zaman Kuuga. Banyaknya unsur2 dari kamen rider sebelumnya baik dari segi cerita, fitur dan peran membuat seri ini lumayan unik n seru. Jangan lupa bagaimana seri ini juga bisa dikatakan sebagai ajang mencari koki terbaik....ha..ha..ha..kaya seri real master cooking ajah!!!

Prelude 2 End

AAhhhhhhhh...ketemu lagi,a week it has been, luckily i've made some important progress this far.

Lama nggarap akhirnya salah satu bagian kritis dari usahaku untuk mengakhiri hidup di kampus telah selesai, yakni nggarap bab 4 dari skripsiku. Sebetulnya aq agak heran, kok bisa ya secepat ini selesai. Bukannya gw nggarap asal2an, tapi kok ada suatu inspirasi dan kemudahan yang menyertaiku ketika berusaha menyelesaikan ini.

Seperti yang udah gw ceritain sebelumnya, jadwal skripsi gw dah bener2 behind schedule gara2 gw sempet kena gejala tipus. Perlu waktu sekitar 2 minggu tuk membuat badan gw bener2 siap tuk dipake mikir. Bicara masalah behind schedule, gw sudah lupa ini yang keberapa, yang jelas dah jauuuhhhhh meleset dari jadwal aslinya.

Plan awal gw, pertama kali yakni gw mentargetkan pebruari kemaren dah bisa kompre. Itu dengan perhitungan akhir desember selesai ngurus masalah penelitian dan membuat laporannya. Namun ya apa daya, rupanya ada kesalahan fatal di metpen sehingga harus ngulang. Duuhh...jadinya kerja keras selama bulan september-november hampir aja kebuang sia-sia. Ya untungnya sih ngga semua, namun cukup membuatku repot tuk kembali mempelajari metpen kualitatif. Padahal sebelumnya dah lumayan dibikin pintang panting belajar yang kuantitatif.

Walhasil, selama bulan januari gw bener2 ngebut tuk membenahi bab 1-3 ku yang terlanjur berbau kuantitatif. Pengennya sih nanya dulu ke empunya pembimbing tapi kalo2 dipikir-pikir malah bisa2 tambah lama aja. Ya udah tancap gazz!!Langsung aja gw putuskan tuk memulai penelitian.

Masalah timbul ketika gw mulai coz rupanya anak2 lagi musim liburan. Duh (lagi).....untung masih ada beberapa anak2 berseliweran pas masa daftar ulang sehingga bisa kuwawancarai. Tuk masalah wawancara sih, gw sendiri ngga begitu yakin apa dah bener2 mencukupi, tapi gw cukupkan dulu tuk sementara. Lagian dasarnya kualitatif emang ngga ada patokan baku tuk masalah batas responden sih.

And,gw ngga kena gejala tipus deh, seharusnya bisa selesai akhir pebruari ato awal maret. But...wacckkss!!kena sakit lagi deh. But alhamdulillah dah sembuh sekarang, tinggal bener2 meulihkan stamina yang sempet ilang. So segera aq memulai pekerjaan yang telah tertunda 2 minggu. Sengaja gw buat sesistematis mungkin kerja gw agar ngga mengganggu acar gw yang lainnya. Hiburan2 lainnya yang gw rasa menyita waktu gw tunda dulu, just saving the best for last. Jadi langsung masuk gear 6 deh pas nggarap. Awalnya sih ada kekhawatiran kalo tuk masalah analisa bakal lebih sulit, tapi entah kenapa gw merasa bener2 mudah n lancar dalam pengerjaannya. Padahal bagian analisa bener2 butuh pemelintiran kosa kata dan tata bahasa yang bener2 njelimet, tapi ajaib tuk akhirnya, bisa selesai hanya dalam waktu 4 hari !!

So...at least i deserve a reward, so langsung deh minjem VCD anime n minjem komik secara gendeng2an. Ya emang sih, belum bisa dikatakan bener2 selesai, coz i need to patch up some stuffs in chapter 2. Rupanya gw belum ngejelasin masalah mahasiswa dalam teorinya. Tapi gw dah megang bahannya, tinggal ngetik aja. Tuk kerjaan gw yang bab 4 itu, gw putuskan tuk minta tolong denok n nandar tuk mereviewnya. Harapan gw biar gw tau mana bug2 n kesalahan yang perlu diperbaiki. Gw juga plan tuk minta tolong ayah tuk turut mereview, biar ada cita rasa dosen dalam review kali ini. Dengan demikian gw bisa bener2 mantap n yakin pas menghadap dosen gw.

Speaking of dosen...he..he..dah berapa bulan ngga ketemu ya.....???September ampe Maret.....wahh....dah 6 bulan tuh alias setengah tahun. Bukannya ngga mau ketemu, lha mau ketemu gimana lha wong pas ngomongnya ketemu pas bab 3 eh malah nyuruh neyelsain ampe selesai. Ya jadinya kaya gini,siapa sutuh juga kaya gitu. Harapan gw ya atleast kasih dikit saran2 ato apalah tuk mengkritik skripsi gw. Jangan malah suruh langsung ujian. Walo akhirnya kaya gini pun ya gw sih dah siap, coz gw dah prepare for the worst semenjak tau dosen pembimbing gw itu dia. Moga2 aja lancar...amiiiinnn!!!

Type-Us

Ciihh, again plan ruined. Well, i shouldn't supposed to be angry but i'm a human so it's normal to be a bit mad. As long u don't blame the uppers (in this case Allah SWT), I think it's serves as a kind of muhasabah.

Ternyata flu gw bukan flu biasa, tapi dah ngarah ke gejala tipes. Gila apa!!??Gw ampe heran, capek macam apa sampe bisa kena gejala tipes??padahal tiap pagi dah mulai merintis olahraga, tentu aja dari yang ringan2. Kalo dah kaya gini terpaksa deh back to square one.

Tentunya yang paling berimbas dari sakit gw kali ini adalah progress skripsi gw. Jika ngga sakit at least minggu ini gw yakin dah bisa mengahadap mr you know who....Tapi apa daya, Tuhan yang menentukan.

Namun demikian, gw jadi bisa memperpanjang waktu tuk mengumpulkan inspirasi. Beberapa hari lalu gw ketemu denok n ervin. Alhamdulillah ervin lulus. Sayangnya gw ngga bisa hadir men-suppport dia pas dia kompre. Dari dia, gw dapat banyak nasihat mengenai skripsi dan bagaimana ujian kompre itu. Ternyata kuncinya juga cuma satu, selama kita bisa membuat alasan yang meyakinkan tuk skripsi kita, insya Allah beres. Juga harus yakin dengan apa yang kita kerjakan.

Dari denok, gw sendiri dah agak lama ngga ketemu anaknya. Dari dia gw akhirnya tau last progress mbak-nya dengan arif. Yahh...mo gimana lagi, kalo ngeliat perkembangannya sih dah gw perkirakan bakal kaya gitu. Si arif kalo gw bilang juga terlalu main api sih. That's what u get in the end.

But it's really a while sejak ketemu anak2. Terakhir ya pas tanggal pertama kampus masuk sejak liburan. Sejak itu anak2 ya sibuk dengan urusannya sendiri2, terutama yang sedang mengerjakan skripsi. Yakin deh, hal ini pasti jadi semacam neraka bagi mereka yang sedang berjuang menyelesaikannya.

Tapi, ketika aq melihat kerumunan anak2 yang masih kuliah, sungguh....gw jadi teringat betap jangka waktu 4 tahun telah begitu cepat aq lewati. Ervin pun setuju ketika kuungkapkan hal ini. Betapa ketika kita masih bisa menikmati waktu2 bersama dengan kuliah, nongkrong bersama dll. Sekarang semua sudah tercerai berai dengan urusan masing-masing. Makanya, ketika anak2 ngumpul, gw jadi punya perasaan andaikata kita bisa selalu melewati waktu bersama-sama melewati suka dan duka.

Jujur aja, gw sendiri baru bisa menikmati hidup apa adanya baru sekitar setahun ini. Melihat anak2 yang masih hijau, yang masih kuliah membuaktku teringat pada masa aq masih hijau pula. Jadi kepikiran sekarang, kenapa waktu sedemikian banyak jadinya seperti ini.

Tapi juga, mungkin keadaan seperti ini juga sudah lama tidak kurasakan. Mungkin terakhir pas aq masih di london. Honestly, sejak gw pindah ke singapura n ke jakarta, life's been hard n harsh. Especially since High school, life hasn't been the same since than.

Well, as the capitalist's say, just save your own ass!Tapi tentunya gw ngga mau sekasar itu. Masa depan itu ngga jelas. Maka daripada itu gw kepikiran tuk selalu mengingat and cherish my remaining life in Brawijaya sekuat gw mampu. Memories will be the soul of your future, so never forget it. Palagi kalo gw dah lanjut keluar, ngga jamin deh, hidup bisa sesantai ini, so cherish everything...!^_^


NB : Thank's 4 the manga 20th century boys, it really showed me how precious friends are till the end ^_^

Movie Review : Kamen Rider Kabuto "God Speed Love"

Satu lagi movie keluar untuk seri kamen rider baru tiap tahunnya. Movie kali ini menjadi movie kamen rider yang kelima semenjak kamen rider agito memunculkan filmnya pada tahun 2001 lalu. Kali ini filmnya juga terasa lebih spesial karena serinya sendiri merupakan seri peringatan kamen rider yang ke-35, cukup tua juga nih. So baik di seri maupun filmnya, banyak aspek2 yang kembali dimunculkan dari beberapa seri2 sebelumnya. Ok..langsung aja reviewnya...

Storyline : Sebagaimana film2 kamen rider selama 5 tahun terakhir, versi movie kali ini juga menampilkan suatu cerita alternatif dari versi serinya. Kalo biasanya diangkat alternatif ending atau alternatif timeline maka kali ini yang diangkat adalah suatu alternatif beginning and ending. Kalo gw bilang, adanya2 cerita2 alternatif ini bisa menguntungkan dan bisa merugikan, tergantung bobot cerita itu sendiri. Tapi secara umum kalo gw bilang sih film2 kamen rider yang selama ini beredar selalu punya satu kelemahan, yakni durasinya sering kurang panjang sehingga ngga sebanding dengan cerita yang ingin disampaikan. Padahal beberapa malah lebih bagus dari versi serinya, termasuk film "God Speed Love" ini.

Acting : Film baru, maka sebagaimana biasanya....muncul kamen rider baru pula. Kali ini muncul 3 kamen rider baru yaknio hercus, ketaros dan kaukasus. Adanya kamen rider baru sih sebetulnya asik2 aja, namun kenapa kecenderungannya kok hanya sekedar numpang nampang doank. Dengan kata lain porsi aktingnya kok dikit banget. Malah kadang cuma jadi pelengkap derita bagi kamen rider utama belaka. Di film ini malah tambah kerasa coz di serinya sendiri kamen ridernya dah banyak yakni lima, eh malah ketambahan 5 lagi. Andaikata diimbangi ma lama durasi dan ceritanya sendiri bakalan kerasa peran dari ke-3 kamen rider tambahan ini.

Effects : Kalo tuk efek gimana yaaa.....so so aja tuh. Sebetulnya tuk adegan di bumi bagus sih, terutama yang di area padang pasirnya. Tapi pas pindah ke adegan di ruang angkasa kok jadi kerasa hambar ya???Setting pertarungannya juga keliatan banget kalo disana sini tempelan. Kaya perlu niru hollywood nih.

Hikmah :

Sebagaimana judulnya, ceritanya berpusat pada 3 tokoh yakni tendou, kagami dan hiyori. Cinta diantara 3 tokoh ini sama tapi berbeda yakni tendou dengan hiyori merupakan cinta kakak beradik sedangkan antara kagami dan hiyori merupakan cinta sepasang kekasih. Tendou dan kagami berdua mengalami kesedihan ketika mendapati hiyori menderita penyakit yang tak tersembuhkan. Padahal tuk tendou sendiri, dia baru bertemu dengan adiknya yang telah lama terpisah dari dirinya. Tendou sendiri akhirnya bisa membuktikan bahwa cintanya lebih besar dengan menyelamatkan bumi agar hiyori dapat hidup kembali dengan melakukan perjalanan waktu. Patut dicatat bahwa peran tendou disani rupanya lebih ekspresif dan emosional dibandingkan di serinya.

Hal lain di film ini adalah mengenai pertarungan ambisi dan pengkhianatan yag terjadi terutama antara personel di ZECT dan NEO ZECT. NEO ZECT sendiri ternyata disusupi oleh seorang pengkhianta yang ironisnya malah dikhianati balik oleh organisasi asalnya. Juga bagaimana kamen rider kaukasus disini bertarung semata-mata hanya demi kesenangan pribadi tanpa memperdulikan musuh-musuhnya. Kalo gw bilang sih yang kematiannya paling disayangkan adalah kematian ketaros dan kematian yang paling konyol yakni bagi drake dan hercus.

I'm in Flu

Uuuuhhhh, flu lagi nih....lagi lagi dan lagi lagi deh, rasanya jadi penyakit langganan kalo kondisi badan ngga dijaga nih. Aneh juga coz gw yakin dah menjaga kondisi badan gw dalam seminggu terakhir.

2 minggu terakhir gw dah mulai rutin olahraga kalo pagi hari. Walo belum mulai berkeringat, paling ngga bisa membantu pemanasan dan merenggangkan otot gw yang lumayan mulai kaku. Kalo gw itung2 rasanya dah hampir 3 bulan ngga olahraga lagi sejak pindah dari kos-kosan. Dengan demikian harus mulai dari awal deh.

Hari2 belakangan bagi gw serasa ngebut n harus kuakui juga terkadang sedikit monoton. Ini karena gw harus ngebut mengerjakan skripsi gw. Ya sekitar pembahasan dan analisa hasil wawancara yang telah gw lakukan. Wawancaranya sendiri sih belum bisa dibilang selesai sih, baru sekitar 50-60%, but aq pikir dikerjakan aja sebagian, sisanya dikerjakan sambil jalan aja. Kalo ngga gitu bakal kelamaan aq ngerjainnya.

Target pribadiku sih minggu ini bisa selesai sekitar 50-70% dari pembahasan dan analisa yang ada. Sengaja ngga ampe 100% karena kondisi sebagaimana sebelumnya. Juga sebagai taktik agar sekiranya nanti bisa dapat tips, arahan atau saran n kritikan terkait skripsi gw. Kalo ngga gitu bisa2 ntar gw langsung disuruh langsung main ke ujian kompre nih. Kalo gitu bisa gawat deh. Jangan sampe dah.

Ternyata, emang ngga gampang ngerjain bab 4. Bagian yang paling susah adalah memisahkan antara bagian yang murni merupakan pembahasan dengan yag merupakan analisa gw terkait penelitian ini. So, hal ini juga membutuhkan waktu bagi gw, terutama untuk memilah mana yang mana serta memilih kata2 yang tepat bagi apa yang bakal gw tulis. Satu2 nya yang membantu gw adalah gw dah buat semacam guideline sehingga gw tau mana yang harus gw tulis terlebih dahulu dan mana yang terakhir. Lucky...

Namun ya itu, karena ngebut ngerjain ini gw ngerasa agak monoton nih jadinya. Terpaksa deh nyari inspirasi, walo pada akhirnya malah membuat schedule kerja gw agak berantakan gara2 harus ngebelain inspirasi tersebut karena beberapa bersifat hot item like DVD, VCD n komik (usual stuff lah!). Masih untung disela-sela itu gw masih bisa memaksakan diri ngerjain skripsi gw, walo hasilnya kadang juga ngga maksimal.

Selain nyari inspirasi dari hal2 tadi,gw juga nyempetin diri ke sby. It's quite a while since i've been there, mungkin ada 3 bulan kali. Tapi berhubung beban kerja gw cuma sedikit, gw ngga bisa lama2 disana, cuma 1 malam 1 hari aja. Tapi dengan waktu segitu dah gw niatin tuk memberdayakan waktu gw sepuasnya. Caranya?? Yakni seharian disana gw pake tuk jalan2. Banyak kok yang gw lakukan. Mulai dari PTC ampe ke Togamas baru disana.

Niat utama sih tuk hunting album Made In Twenty-nya BoA. Sayang seribu sayang, barangnya dah habis rupanya, terpaksa deh mesan. Ya...moga2 aja bener2 dihubungi ma yang jual coz pengalaman gw mengatakan ngga bakalan deh dihub kalo ngga pelanggan setia ato qta dah ngasih DP. Let's hope. Sambil hunting itulah gw menemukan banyak hal2 baru d PTC, rata2 sih terkait toko2 yang ngejual Plamo dan gashapon. Sayangnya ya itu...masalah harga..... Selain ke PTC, juga ke DTC tuk beli tas baru. Sengaja ngga beli tas punggung coz gw nyesuain kebutuhan aja. Toh belakngan dah ngga kuliah n beban bawaan gw dah ngga seberat dulu lagi. Mau pulang ke rumah, mampir ke togamas deket rumah di sby. Kali ini gw kaget coz gedungnya dari luar kaya butik ato FO dan semacamnya. Asli, unik banget tuk ukuran sebuah toko buku. Sayang, walo gw dapat beberapa buku, buku asli yang gw cari ngga ada tuh. too bad....

Malamnya cuma makan malam di TP. Kali ini restonya makanannya aneh banget. Ya model2 MR.Celup tapi lebih prestise aja. Sayangnya rasa makanannya ngga sebanding ma restonya. Hambar puoll!!Habisnya semua makanan cuma bisa direbus sih. Ngga ada yang bisa digoreng kaya di hanamasa. Pulang2 jadinya agak aneh gitu, kenyang tapi di lidah ngga berbekas sama sekali makanannya. Di TP sendiri ngga lama2, cuma nyetak foto n beli roti trus bali. Habisnya ayah ada janji malamnya ma temen2nya.

But, ya semua itu di hari yang sama gw lalui dengan badan yang cukup nggreges n kadang agak pusing. All because of a flu. Mungkin gara2 kemarennya ngga tidur siang n kena AC terus-terusan. Sampe di malang besoknya gw segera makan n tidur seharian. Tentunya dibantu ma obat flu yang gw tenggak setiap habis makan. Alhamdulillah jadinya sekarang dah agak mendingan. Tapi, gw belum bisa mengatakan gw dah sembuh. Mending obatnya gw habiskan sampe kira2 besok deh.

Jadinya sambil mengobati diri ini, gw cuman bisa main n baca2 buku yang ringan. Juga nyelesain DVD Jumong yang pinjem minggu lalu. Mau nggarap skripsi ngga bisa coz mau mikir dah keburu ngantuk kena pengaruh obatnya. Tapi gw sungguh berharap semua ini ngga membuat plan awal gw tuk selesai minggu ini tertunda. Kalo terunda lagi bisa gawat nih. Insya Allah.....

Things I hate the most.....

Well, as a human, certainly i do have things i like. On the other hand, it's also normal for me to not like some things. what are they...??Not much..here are some....

1. To be awaken while asleep. Sounds kinda lame right? Masalahnya gw kalo dah dibangunin sering ngga bisa idur lagi. Jadi pastikan gw dibangunin tuk urusan yang penting. Kalo diingetin tuk sholat n ada janji insya Allah ngga bakal marah.

2. Diganggu pas makan. Makan bagi gw merupakan sesuatu yang nikmat. Nikmat karena kita sedang mensyukuri karunia Allah atas kita. So never try to disturb me while eating. Especially pulling some dirty stuffs while eating. Don't ever try

3. Dibohongi. siapa sih yang mau dibohongi??Yakin dech ngga bakal ada yang mau. Well...for white lies, i'll maybe give another consideration, but better make it really good or else. Besides, i'm a man who's able to be talked with, so...why bother lying???

4. Dikhianati. Ini sih lebih parah daripada bohong coz dah nyangkut hubungan kepercayaan dengan seseorang. Manusia jaman sekarang tuh aneh2 jadi susah tuk dipercayai. Gw sendiri jujur aja termasuk orang yang skeptis atas sseuatu yang baru. But, kalo dah yakin seseuatu tuh bener, pasti bakal gw bela n percayai habis-habisan. Being betrayed sure is a harsh thing to be experienced

I think that's for now....can't think of other things though, till now then...see ya

 

Inspring What's Lost

What's lost??Mau nulis skripsi lagi minta ampuuuunnnnnn malasnya. Harus gw akui sih, gw dah sekitar 1 bulan lebih dikit ngga mbaca dan nulis lagi skripsi gw dari bab 1 ampe 3. Belakangan sibuk nyari responden dan mewawancarai. Emang sih belum selesai, but aq pikir dah waktunya kembali ke meja, ngerjain dan menganalisa data2 yang telah terkumpul.

Tapi itu dia, data dah ada, gw binguuunnng harus mulai dari mana. With that much data, it's sure quite confusing on how and where to start. Coding and kategorisasi sih udah (walo aslinya nelat banget ^^;). So...I think what's left is to find my lost inspiration.

Inspiration...he..he.. sure hard to find if it's lost. Gw sih dah nyiapin hal2 tuk menumpuk inspirasi andaikata kekurangan. Tapi rasanya hal2 yang telah gw lakukan sepertinya telah jenuh dan usang. Tanda2 butuh hal baru nih. So, here i'am, trying to think of new things to awaken my lost soul.

For instance, MATOS, who doesn't know the biggest mall in Malang?Aslinya gw ilfill banget kesana, macet,(berbau) ilegal dan ngga mall banget. Namun demikian, gejala jenuh inspirasi yang gw alami semenjak 3 minggu terakhir memaksa gw kesitu. Not much could be found rather than a new taste of japanese food (thanks to roppongi there). Besides that, it's really all crowd and dozens of couple's spending their time off.

GM or galeri multimedia. It's sure been a while since i've been there. Sabtu kemarin mampir kesana. Awalnya gw kira anime2 dah pada musnah. Eh ngga taunya malah tambah banyak. Koleksinya sih lebih lengkap daripada di DATRENT, namun tuk2 item2 yang gw cari ternyata ngga lebih mendahului daripada yang disana. But, if i have time, it's sure a try to visit there and find and try some new stuffs like softwares, anime adn games. Besides, ini tempat yang telah jadi langganan gw sejak jaman SMA, rugi klo gw lupakan begitu aja. Habisnya tempat ini berperan banyak dalam memperlengkap koleksi anime, software, mp3, game dan movie gw sejauh ini.

Komik....he..he.. mulai agak bosen tuh, habisnya belakangan ngga ada komik yang bener2 bisa membuat gw menantikannya seperti menantikan seorang kekasih yang lama ngga ketemu. Terakhir ya SD KYO itu, sayangnya dah tamat sih. Anime, lagi agak seret coz yang gw cari kaya Code Geass, Savers dan kabuto sepertinya belum pada keluar tuh. Waiting lagi deh. Untungnya ada drama korea baru yang bernama Jumong yang membuat gw senantiasa penasaran dan menunggu kelanjutannya. Kirain fiktif eh ternyata true story coi. BElum lagi pemeran utama wanitanya cantikkkk rek, BoA aja kalah (Kok rasanya pernah gw bahas ya...???)

Plan gw, biar otak lebih segar dan ngga butek aja, gw mau ke surabaya tengah pekan ini. Lagian, dah lama banget ngga kesana. Rasanya dah sekitar 4 bulan. Moga2 aja dapat inspirasi baru sehingga pengerjaan skripsi gw bisa lebih cepat. Mungkin sejauh ini anda2 yang membaca ini bingung, kok inspirasi berpengaruh banget ma pengerjaan skripsi. Well, the problem is, skripsi gw tuh kualitatif. Nah kualitataif tuh penekanannya pada kata2 nan indah dan saling bertaut bersambung. Singkat kata.....harus punya banyak persediaan kata2 tuk nggacor tiada habis. So...u now get it right??

So, i hope this lost inspiration tale could be ended this week....lets hope so....

Perhaps Flop.....

hi..hi..hi.. kaya judul lagu aja. Emang apanya yang flop?Banyak!!

Mulai dari mana ya???Mungkin ngga seserius yang dikira, tapi bagi gw udah bikin lumayan capek tenaga n pikiran. Tapi mulai sekarang bakal gw ambil hikmahnya.

Pertama2, masalah nyuci mobil. All went well that morning. Mobil kinclonk kembali setelah kena guyuran hujan dari langit. Entah kenapa, apa gw-nya yang terlalu terobsesi ma NFS Carbon ato emang dah bakat nge-drift, pas mau gw masukin ke garasi, gw lupa ngelepas rem tangan, padahal gas dah gw injek penuh. Akibatnya.....?ROda mobil berputar kencang pada tempatnya serasa sedang nge-drift di circuit catalunyu eh catalunya. Pas gw lepas rem tangannya mobilnya malah meringsek masuk ke garasi. Untung aja gw bisa nginjek rem tepat waktu sehingga bisa terhindar dari kerusakan lebih parah. Namun demikian, drifting gw rupanya sukses meninggalkan prasasti di lantai depan, bekas guratan ban berputar yang sangaaaaaattt tebal!!Duh...mati aku, ketahuan ayah bakal kena kerja rodi. Awalnya gw coba tuk ngebersiin pake air n gw sikat ternyata ngga begitu membawa hasil coz bekasnya tebaalll banget. Tapi, mungkin Gusti Allah SWT masih sayang ma gw, sorenya turun hujan, derez pula. Langsung aja gw manfaatin tuk nyikat bekasnya, kali2 aja bisa. Yaaaa....walo belum ilang sama sekali sampai sekarang, tapi at least bekasnya dah ngga separah pas baru kejadiannya. Kalo gw inget lagi dan andaikata pas ada ayah, dijamin gw bakal jadi sasaran amukannya. Belum lagi kalo inget bau bekas ban yang sangat bau nan pekat.....uuhhhh....

Selesai masalah mobil, next comes my kompie. Gara2 si-chan, kompie gw tuk pertama kali bobol keperawanannya, dibobol virus "tak dikenal" lewat tranfusi data melalui Flash disknya. The outcome....kompie gw ngga mau booting....!$^#%&$(&$Langsung aja gw putuskan tuk install ulang. awalnya pas gw ngelakuin hal ini, gw masih belum nyadar kalo rusaknya gara2 virus, gw kira emang OS dah bejat n waktunya install ulang OS. Setelah 3 jam "operasi penggantian OS", kompie gw back to normal,tapi......rasa curiosity gw membawa ku pada satu folder tak dikenal, gw klik dan ternyata.......kompie gw re-boot dan ternyata rusak kembali...AAARRRGGGGHHHHH!!!!!SIAAAALLLL$##%&@$^Rupanya itu virusnya....!!!Asli, langsung gw speechless habis itu. Harusnya gw nyadar dari awal kalo rusak gara2 virus.Tapi, nasi dah jadi bubur, terpaksa gw ulangi kembali install ulangnya....nasib......Hikmah yang bisa gw ambil, kalo mau masukin mobil posisi nanjak, jangan seusai main game semacam NFS, GT, F1 dan game balap lainnya. Bisa2 terbawa suasana dan ikut2an drifting.

And, masalah dengan kompie gw ngga selesai begitu aja. Kembali karena rasa curiosity gw yang besar, kerusakan kembali terjadi. Hanya saja bukan karena viruz tapi karena suatu transformation pack. Hal ini terjadi hari minggu kemaren. Setelah selesai install OS, gw njajal vista transformation pack yang ada di koleksi cd gw. Awalnya sih gw kira bakal lancar2 aja tanpa risiko toh sebelumnya dah pernah gw coba dan ngga bombastis banget perubahannya so i thought it'ld be risk free. TApi kali ini entah gw mencet apa pas nyettingnya ternyata perubahannya pada tampilannya ternyata waaaahhhhh banget, in other words kereeeennnn. Hampir mirip ma vista yang asli. Melihat hal ini gw sih seneng2 aja sekaligus heran, kok bisa ya beda ma yang kemaren. But, gw ngga kelamaan berpikir kaya gitu n menikmati hal yang ada.

Namun kenikmatan itu hanya berjalan beberapa saat. Entah berpengaruh apa tidak, tiba2 listrik padam, dan kompie gw turut mati bersamanya. Pas gw hidupin kembali dan mau gw shutdown ternyata kompie gw malah ngga mau shut down. UUgghhhh...kena lagi deh gw. Gw coba system restore ngga bisa, di-uninstall ngga mempan....terpaksa deh install ulang lagi......hiks..hiks..hiks..So, malam senin itu terpaksa harus gw hebisin dengan berkencan di depan kompie, install ulang OS lagi. Kali ini gw dah ambil hikmah. Pertama.....senantiasa update virus definition anda. Serangan virus ke kompie gw terbukti gara2 Antivirus gw ngga berhasil mendetect virus itu gara2 ngga update. Kedua.....jangan percaya ma yang namanya transformation pack dan segala macamnya. Gw dah kena dua kali tuk masalah ini, yang pertama tuk longhorn sekarang vista. Emang hasilnya kereeenn habis, cuma risikonya juga besar, mending kalo nyari beginian cari yang ngga bombastis banget perubahannya, biar risikonya ngga gede pula.

Yang flop ternyata ngga cuma seputar mobil dan kompie, gw ternyata ikut-ikutan flop juga. Mungkin kebanyakan hal begituan seputar gw belakangan. Flopnya mana lucu lagi. GW kepleset pas berbicara. Tiga kali pula dan di depan adik2 gw. Kalo depan orang lain sih ngga masalah, tapi depan adik2 gw, wah, pasti jadi bahan tertawaan sepanjang 7 turunan. Yang pertama, gw ngucapin kata2 disana disitu dalam konteks menunjukkan tempat ini. Kedua pas gw mau nunjukkan rumah bareng, gw malah ngucapin di bareng di sini (paradoks banget khan), yang terakhir malah tambah ngga jelas. Pas mau nyuruh lim dan chan malah gw manggilnya kamu, lim ma chandra. Nah kamu itu sapa masalahnya....???seakan-akan gw itu orang lain kali...Singkat kata, kalo mo ngomong, pikirkan dulu kata2nya biar ngga jadi baha tertawaan 7 turunan nantinya. Apalagi kalo berbicara di depan orang ma cam chandra, dijamin bakal diinget2 dalam gen-nya deh...

Aahhhh, enough of the flops. It's as if i'm de-faming myself. Sekarang mau ngelanjutin donlot sisa kilp2 laruku dari youtube. Lumayan loh, walo gambarnya ngga jelas tapi koleksinya banyak lho. Belum lagi bisa ngeliat cuplikan konser 15 tahun-nya laruku disana (walo cuma 5 lagu doang), tapi lumayan lah, daripada nungguin DVD aslinya keluar (yang entah kapan pula). I'll meet again maybe next week, besides, i've got loads of things to finish and take care of.

 

 

Banjir.........BAAAHHHHH!!!! (Dibaca : Biarkan!!!!)

Hhuuuuuaaaaaaahhhhh, nguantuk nih. Agak maksa nih nulis blog, habisnya banyak hal2 menarik yang perlu gw bahas. Tenang aja, bukan tentang hidup gw yang bosen ini kok, lebih seru dan juga hueboohhhh. Apa itu????Liata aja judulnya.

Yup, Indonesia harus gw akui sedang dilanda musibah dan bencana berkelanjutan. Belum hilang peristiwa tenggelamnya KM Senopati di laut jawa dan nyungsepnya pesawat Adam Air di sekita laut Sulawesi serta anjloknya berbagai kereta api di tanah air ini, eh ternyata......terjadi banjir yang hebat. Ngga tanggung2, yang kena paling parah adalah ibukota sendiri yakni jakarta. Sekarang kota ini jadi lebih mirip kubangan air raksasa kalo dilihat dari atas. Pokoke pangling dah.

Kadang gw ampe heran sendiri, kok Indonesia banyak amet ya dapet musibah. Ada aja kasusnya, baik yang bersifat menular, yang kecelakaan murni ampe yang bau-bau human error. Kalo Irak katanya dijuluki negeri 1001 malam, gw sekarang mau njulukin Indonesia negeri 1001 musibah. Bedanya disini ngga da perang kaya di irak aja. Bahkan kalo mau gw urut rasanya bisa2 berita di koran bisa nutupi semua jatah halaman yang ada. Ya...iseng2 aja gw daftarin musibah dan kecelakaan yang mungkin terjadi di republik ini dan ternyata emang mendukung hipotesa gw tentang negeri 1001 musibah. Ini daftarnya....

Tanah Longsor, Gunung Meletus, Banjir bandang, Tsunami, Banjir Lumpur, Gempa Bumi, Pesawat jatuh, kereta anjlok, kapal tenggelam, Flu Burung, Demam Berdarah

Banyak juga ya rupanya. Bahkan list ini masih bisa ditambah andaikan terjadi bom meledak lagi kaya di bali ato di kuningan. Kalo emang beneran kaya gini. suerrrr.....lengkap dah negeri ini deritanya.

Ngeliat keadaan yang sedemikian parah, ya gw sebagai manusia yang pengen mutu hidup dan kehidupan gw lebih baik juga turut prihatin. Tapi biar ngga ampe strezz banget gw akali dengan joke2 seger dalam hidup gw. Sebagai contoh, pernahkah kita berpikir kenapa banjir kiriman selalu melanda jakarta???Gampang!!!!!Namanya juga banjir KIRIMAN, KIRIMAN JEKKK!! ya yang namanya kiriman mana mungkin kita tolak, bener ngga??yang bisa ya cuma nerima aja. Makanya Jakarta selalu kena banjir. Terus pernahkah kepikiran kenapa jika terjadi banjir bah di jakarta para pejabat kok cuek banget??Namanya juga banjir bah....ba bah, yang dalam bahasa jawa biarkan saja!!Make sense kalo rasa peduli pejabat ngga ada coz mereka saja sudah menamai banjir dengan banjir bah!!! So Be It mungkin kata mereka...

Lucunya lagi, ngeliat jakarta yang sedemikian ruwet karena banjir, tiba2 gw denger berita yang menyatakan SBY setuju untuk membuka pintu air manggarai agar air dapat mengalir dengan risiko istana juga kena banjir. Nahh ini dia....sebab musabab banjir pikir gw. Lha pintu air manggarai aja ngga dibuka, makanya nggarai banjir di jakarta (manggarai = tadi menyebabkan dalam bhs jawa).Secara singkatnya, rupanya akar masalahnya dipelihara ma kota itu sendiri sehingga senantiasa menyebabkan banjir.

GW tebak, andaikata bung karno melihat hal ini, paling2 dia bakal nyuruh ibukota pindah kembali ke Yogyakarta kaya jaman perang kemerdekaan dulu. Kalopun pindah sih gw setuju aja. Lagian kalo gw bilang, yang namanya ibukota ngga selalu harus merupakan pusat segala2nya di republik ini. Pusat2 seharusnya disebar ke seluruh Indonesia, sekalian perataan pembangunan. Kalo ngga gitu sekali kena musibah gede ya kena semua, contohnya ya banjir ini nih.

Tapi andaikan.....andaikan ibukota jadi pindah karena banjir ini (maksa banget ya...^^;) gw usulkan pindah aja ke Malang!Kok malang??Banyak alasannya kok. DI Bandung....banyak sampah, di Yogya....dah pernah (gantian doonk), Di Semarang.....terlalu bukit, Di Surabaya.....panas rekkk,lagian ntar kalo bangun istana bisa2 dijarah bonek2. Nah, paling cocok ya di Malang. Belum rame, relatif sejuk, ramah dan aman. Kenapa gw bilang aman, coz setau gw seumur-umur republik ini, ngga pernah ada bom yang meledak di Malang, atau ada serangan teroris segala. Ada juga terorisnya malah ketangkap di Batu 2 tahun lalu. So, i think Malang does fit to be a capital...who knows sometimes......

Namun demikian, kalopun jadi Jakarta tenggelem oleh air, janganlah bersedih, gw punya usul yang lebih realistis juga. Jadikan aja Jakarta kota air macam kota Venezia. Keren tuh!!!!No polution at all juga tentunya. Asik2 aja kalo gw bilang kaya gini. Malah unik pula coz jadi kota air terbesar bisa2 nantinya.

Last but not least, dari segi klenik dan gaib pun bisa dikaji banjir kali ini menurut gw. Inget2 kalo di porong khan pada kena banjir lumpur selama hampir 1 tahun ini. Nah, bisa jadi mereka pada berdoa gini "....YA Allah, berikan hambamu ini teman dalam menjalani penderitaan ini....". Nah kali2 aja yang ketiban "rejeki" ini adalah kota Jakarta. Kurang apa coba, yang ngedoain aja kyai, ustadz, belum para bonek2....so, lumayan manjur khan??!!

Inget porong inget lumpur. Inget lumpur inget kuala lumpur ibukota malaysia. Nah, kurang hebat lagi apa coba. Indonesia aja punya 2 ibukota, belum jakarta statusnya sekarang sebagai kota air bak Venezia, apa gw julukin Indonesia sebagai kota Internasional aja ya???Banyak yang bisa diplesetin jadi kota2 terkenal di nagri, ex: Milan-Malang, Jerman-Jejer Kauman dll.

Dah ah, capek nih, semoga bangun besok banjirnya dah surut, kasian yang pada kena tuh, sorooooo urip e.....

Scars of Time

Ketemu lagi. Sori kalo dirasa agak lama. There's something lately that's speeding me up. Itu lho......masalah wawancara penelitian. Alhamdulillah dah dapat 4 responden sejauh ini + 3 lagi yang dah menyatakan kesanggupannya tuk aq wawancarai dalam waktu dekat. Who said that i'll regret not joining those who went to Malaysia??

Kalo ngeliat judulnya kayaya kok serius amat ya blog ini?Ahh...ngga juga, hanya saja emang blog kali ini ta' maksudkan tuk sedikit bermuhasabah atawa merenung (bukan merenung dalam artian tidur lho...).

Kadang2 aku berfikir, sejauh apakah hidup ini aq arungi. Sejauh manakah aq telah melangkahkan kakiku agar dapat melangkah jalan kebenaran. Bagaimanakah hidupku telah kujalani. Hal2 ini sampai sekarang masih terngiang2 dalam lubuk sanubariku.

Dalam posisiku sebagai mahasiswa, seringkali aq menatap masa lalu, how i cherished those times, how i enjoyed life to my fullest. How me and my friends held high our dreams and idealism. Melihat orang2 tua disekitar kita, membuat kita berpikir, andaikan waktu bisa berhenti sehingga kita bisa selalu dalam keadaan muda.

Namun....life goes on. Day by day....month by month....year by year passes by. Dalam jangka waktu tersebut, kadangkala, ada saja yang berubah pada diri kita. Walaupun kita tidak ingin hal itu terjadi, namun yang pasti, kita akan tambah tua. Ketuaaan adalah suatu keniscayaan dalam kehidupan yang fana ini. Namun yang seringkali kita takutkan adalah, apakah ketuaan itu akan turut mempengaruhi semangat kita dalam kehidupan ini.

Semakin tua seorang manusia, biasanya dia akan semakin menghadapi bagaimana kerasnya hidup, bagaimana kotornya hidup seorang manusia dan menghadapi bagaimana tidak berdayanya manusia dalam menghadapi keadaan sekitarnya. Hal-hal ini lambat laun akan mengikis hati nurani, kesucian hati dan kefitrahan dalam diri kita. Ibaratnya erosi, hal ini perlahan tapi pasti akan memakan diri kita jika kita tidak membentengi diri dari hal2 ini.

Bagi yang SMA, kadang mereka melihat orang lain yang dah mahasiswa atu yang dah kerja dan berkata "...enaknya yang dah kaya gitu, bisa have fun terus, seakan hidup ngga pernah susah...". Namun hal yang sebaliknya juga dilontarkan oleh mereka yang lebih tua pada yang lebih muda "enaknya masih muda, tenaga banyak, ngga memikirkan beban hidup, pokoke have fun forever...". Suatu paradoksisme yang seringkali menimbulkan ironi tak berkesudahan.

Bagi ku sendiri, pepatah waktu adalah pedang semakin membuktikan diri. More than half a decade of life full of turmoil for me has really eroded my soul to the least. Dalam akhir masa kuliahku, membuatku berfikir, andaikan waktu bisa terulang. Andaikan kita kita bisa menikmati masa2 penuh cita dan idealisme itu. Sayangnya hal ini takkan pernah terjadi.

Dalam keadaan ini, yang hanya bisa kita lakukan adalah semakin menyadari pentingnya masa hidup kita. Enjoy and cherish it while u can. Don't use it for such frifullous things. Hold high the banner of truth, hold high your dreams and don't ever loose your idealism.

Eventhough, look back to your past. Don't ever forget it cause it'll serve as a lesson to us. Never ever regret what we've done cause regrets don't lead us to anything besides agony and neverending pain. If we have time to regret, it'll be better to do more usefull and meaningfull things to our life for an atonement. More enjoyable rather than sulking deep within the dunes of our pain adn sorrow.

The past sure is dark, but don't worry. As long as we have something to reach and gain, surely there will be a path. Paths only exist for those who believe in it. Paths ain't for loosers and people who like to stay in the shadows of their past. A path will only open if we try to make and pave it. Hopefully, it'll lead us to a place where we all longed for.


Dedicated to the other me, and all people struggling to live as a "human"......