Back to Foreverness

Aaaahhhhh….akhirnya….back to perth….setelah 2,5 bulan ku pulangkan jiwa dan ragaku ke tanah airku Indonesia…kembali diriku harus go bek tu perth demi meraih cita2ku :P
How was my vacation?Seperti permen nano nano…rame banget rasanya liburanku….semuanya bisa dikatakan kualami…senang (pastinya ini lebih banyak :P), susah (susah karena hal2 GJ) dan sedih…lho kok sedih?ada ajah deeehhh:p…tapi pastinya ini juga melengkapi liburanq menjadi suatu liburan yang member hikmah yang banyak bagi diriku.

Awal2nya kupikir 2,5 bulan bisa bener2 kugunakan tuk hal2 yang sesuai jadwal…ternyata engga….2 minggu pertama….pengennya relax do nothing…malah selama 2 minggu ini ku masih diserang jetlag. Jadinya bawaanku ngantuk cepat…padahal masih jam 9 malam . The next couple of weeks I tried to start enjoying things as I planned. But yeah…kita merencanakan..Allah berkehendak lain….ternyata hidup engga seindah impian he..he..he..:P

But then…life still goes on…After a month there…I finally did what others say a real vacation. Artine jalan2 ke luar menikmati liburan dan engga hanya diem aja di rumah. Palembang, Bandung, Jakarta dan Surabaya menjadi sasaran jalan2ku…maklumlah…malang sendiri isinya cuma itu2 aja, jadinya pengennya mengenal tempat2 lain:P. Khusus tuk Palembang….walo Cuma 2 hari aja…it was quite worth it…menikmati bagaimana rasanya pulau Sumatra dan wisata kulinernya;). For Bandung?He..he..he..palagi kalo engga hunting baju2 bagus nan murah ;). Habisnya….baju2 di perth mahalnya minta mati…ntar kalo diriku engga punya baju masa diriku mau telanjang di perth?maybe aman2 aja sih :p…tapi entar diriku bisa ditangkap polisi Indo atas tuduhan pelanggaran UU Pornografi (emang bisa polisi indo nangkepin orang di perth ?).

The last month of my visit there was simply a bit plain. Cuma berusaha menikmati liburan apa adanya:P. But it still gave me the best memories and impression needed to refill my spirit for the upcoming semester. If there is one thing I still regret is not being able to meet all my friends for one last time before going back. However, I’ve predicted this so it didn’t leave me that disappointed though .
And here I am then…back to foreverness. U might wonder why I say foreverness?Well…it’s just that I always reminisce back to last year when I first came to perth. Left alone a month prior the start of studies was one of the loneliest times in my life. With the summer heat that was strikingly hot, the cloudless blue skies and the tree leaves that didn’t even move…it just felt like it would stay like that forever…especially when the day is long during summer. But yeah the again…that was a year ago. Now?Its obviously much more better. At least I know what to do and who to contact know even after 2,5 months leaving perth.

Nevertheless, the 2,5 months did somehow leave some unexpected excess on me…for example…I seem to having difficulties on speaking good and proper English. If before I could just speak without even have to think what I wanna speak…now its like I’ve gotta think first before saying something…crap…this really isn’t good news. This means that I might have trouble when I face the customers on my work .

Study?well….I do hope I haven’t lost the sensation of how to study properly and effectively. With a target of 4 High Distinctions (Ya Allah…berikanlah hambaMU ini kekuatan tuk meraihnya), I’m gonna have to put everything I have to achieve it. Of course with more effort and sacrifices than ever before. Its gonna be one hell of a semester for the next couple of months….

Therefor…despite the ups and downs I’ve had over the past 2,5 months…I’m gonna have to leave it behind and look forward to the next semester. Put aside all your troubles, worries and despair to concentrate on what u’ve planned and aimed for. For the next semester…ganbatte kudasai ne ….matta ne ;)

Un-said

Un-said memories…un-said words…un-said thoughts…un-said emotions…un-said times…un-said heart…un-said minds…un-said promises…un-said dreams…un-said ties…un-said masks…un-said fatamorganas…un-said passion…un-said tears…un-said wishes…un-said aspirations…un-said forever it will be…

Light in the midst of rain

For once….I thought rain was something to be accepted with disdain…for it did ceased the rays to come.

For a moment…I felt that rain was to accepted with bitterness and displeasure….for it caused a mind to go astray.

For a second…the rain that poured like cats and dogs almost caused a flood of eye sweat so sour that it even caused blindness.

For a while…I thought rain would make time to stop as it is…in a merciless manner depriving us from desires.

Yet so…a distinct ray comes passing through…enlightening the losts of any despair.

Certainly…a revelation seems approaching the dusk of times…reaching the bottom of foreverness to purify lust.

With the time that suddenly continued…its as if seven outlooks drop by and offer us a glimpse of whats to come.

Look ever forward beyond the mists of eternity and grasp that rock steady dream you’ve defined on the start...for it shall bear the fruits to countless bounties that can never be counted...

Embrace

Everyone has something they dear and long…however…do we have the ultimate power to make that true?

Sometimes we wait years and ages for something to happen and come…yet….did it came to truth?

We always have that precious thing we yearn of…nevertheless…did we ever receive that very thing?

For that everything we once dreamed of….still…do we now hold on o those dreams we once felt so?

The lasting feelings and thought I had for those days….however….has it ever had its effect on the miserable days we now live?

Timeless days and night that come and go….despite so….can we shoulder the coldness that slowly lurks in our spine?

Blindless paths we go…however…did we forsee the ultimate things that we had to remember for life?

Lost roads to forever….can we grasp what we’ve longed deep in our hearts….covered sinfully by mud?

For all we had….for all we felt….for everything we done….can we ever peacefully embrace the things good and bad?

If black and white was what we had to go through….then….can we ever calmly accept our preceding times?

The blues of memories we concluded…is it that tough to be ever erased for the good of the imminent steps?

Even so…with all that’s forthcoming…still…embracing the blacks and white is what we gruesomely go on and on till darkness or light awaits us…..