Was it?

Was it when i first saw u with the veil on back then in ramadhan 2001?

Or was it when I read your blog on fs?

Did it happen when you downloaded the song?

Or was it when you said you had the drama’s I wanted?

It could be any out of all the possibilities

But surely our moments so far ain’t no possibility :)

Was it when u said you’ve been reading my writings?

Or was it when you said . . . you liked me too :D ?

Man 2 Man

On that table. . . face to face with your dad

Trembling though his words reciting the du’a on our moment

Yet...man to man....I just knew . . .

It was a moment of truth for him

On releasing his beloved daughter

To a man . . . he barely knows

To a man . . . just few occasions met

To a man . . . a trust he will bestow

To a man . . . he would call “son”

Sir . . . I may not know you deep, yet do trust me . . .

Sir . . . You may not seen us often, yet its ok . . .

Sir . . . Though it may be sudden, yet please allow to say “dad”

Trembling my feet were on the second you took my hand on the oath

I realized it was nothing compared to the sheer trembling your hands were

Putting his utmost trust to a complete stranger . . . his daughter’s fate

Sir . . . I can’t promise wealth for your daughter, I can only put my best effort that every money and rizq she takes would be of a halal source & method

Sir . . . I can’t promise her an easy life ahead, I can only encourage & lead her to be strong & face life full of gratitude whatever it is

Sir . . . I can’t promise you daughter that she won’t ever cry, I can only put my blood & sweat that her only tears would be those of joy

The next few seconds . . . moments for every man

Determination of a man

I took the oath, not just for happiness, good & bounties

But for every sin, bad & vice she brought

Sir . . . please allow me . . . .

Was it?

Was it when i first saw u with the veil on back then in ramadhan 2001?

Or was it when I read your blog on fs?

Did it happen when you downloaded the song?

Or was it when you said you had the drama’s I wanted?

It could be any out of all the possibilities

But surely our moments so far ain’t no possibility :)

Was it when u said you’ve been reading my writings?

Or was it when you said . . . you liked me too :D ?

Two Cups

Coffee . . . a rich flavored beverage that has shapened up civilization till now

Chocolate . . . a sweetness that have made people flock around for its taste

Being poured into the white mug . . . it adds atmosphere to the place its served

It brings liveliness to the room

It addresses the mouth with all the best a taste bud could feel

And it gives you fondness to enjoy the talks after that

Just taking a sip of it . . . it prompts us to take the eternity of being together

Endless fondness thru chit chats are made genuinely as our thirst is being quenced

Until the last slurp . . . it makes us go for more, for the moment is what makes us want to hold hands forever . . . . :)

Fond-Due

Like a liquid of possibilities . . we find ourselves in the whirlpool of crossroads.

Gettin closer, the swirl ends and off we are to each ends of the pool

Running and rotating each other, we see yet it is only when the spoon is dipped and rotated, only we can get back to the whirlpool of fondness

A sudden dip can abruptly stop the greet, but hey . . . only a cruel would dare to do such things

Served hot . . . such bond should always kept this way, for coldness it the sign of being thrown away

Melting like cheese . . . the sweetness must be preserved in anyway, for it keeps the smile awake

The fondness of touch . . . is due closely, as far away ness cannot help the ending swirl of fondness . . .

two.....

What does it means to be two . . . .?

Well . . . it's obvious that its more than one, having more numbers to it

With two . . . the possibilities are wide open than being a singular being

by two . . . it means there are a pair

With pairs . . . it shows that all things can be done simultaneously

By simultaneously . . . . we learn to do things at a step, with patience but leads to bigger things ahead

By looking ahead, we pray and vibrate all the positive attitudes to envision a dream come true

Again . . . it only needs two . . . not one . . . or even in three's, four's nor fives

Its what God has made things in pairs, so that they go in perfect harmony . . . complementing each other.

Nothing is made perfect . . . therefore . . . it is only in pairs that almost most things work in the universe

It is only by two's . . . that human beings can achieve their compassion

compassion that takes it time to shape and wait for the perfect time to make the two's meet and join

and once a journey of two's has commenced . . . it is a long everlasting voyage that will be full of surprises ^_^

Mati di lumbung Padi

Emas bergunung gunung . . . raib berkapal ke timur

Hutan . . .berhektar-hektar hijaunya . . . tumbang demi uang

Cendekia tumbuh luar dalam . . . hitunganlah yang mau diseriusi

Jiwa lahir tiap detik...berbuih karena tak de kualiti

Roman budaya nan melimpah, sayang terurus tanpa aksi

Terima . . . malas!

Denger . . . Tuli!

Liat . . . Buta!

Menahu . . . Berpura!

Niat . . . Diam!

Necis . . .mengemis . . .muka manis . . .tak tahu persis . . . . . . . . . .

Is it?

Is it your eyes that looks thru my heartat
Is it the touch of your hands that calms me
Or is it the words of your mouth that holds me
Either way . . . I feel soothened by all of them

Is it the way the way the way that you think
Is it the way how you perceive
Or is it the way that you feel
Regardless so . . . I sense tranquility on my mind

Is it how you walk
Is it how you laugh
Or is it how you smile
Nevertheless . . . I’ve found happiness asides me

Be it the winds...or the clouds that comes
it could never stop the red line that connects
Stories, prayers, laughters, heart and touch
Are what keeps us going

Is it how we vision
Is it how we vibrate
Or is it how we pray
Hence forth . . . I see a bright horizon waiting us

Heads up high

Life is as it is . . . bright . . . dull . . . dark . . .or colorful

It goes back to what glasses we use . . .

Nevertheless, our age would always be a rainbow, shining thru after the rain

They will sometimes be cold, tough, and sometimes frightening

But worry not love, you’re not alone . . . . as we humans are meant to be together

Names may be shouted on us . . . things could be thrown to faces . . . or even stabbed from behind

Fear not dear . . . believe in Karma, and let the heavens do their job, for our lives are too precious for heavens work

Pray for light and forgiveness to be bestowed upon them while we go on thru life

It’s not bout looks . . . its takes heart and mind to whether the journey thru this mundane world, as it’ll wind away and show the eternity of ones soul

Road could lead astray . . . and it would be our belief that’ll keep us on track
Heads up . . . proud enough and smile to the world, for we have got to this moment

Look ever forward . . . see the promised future that we’ve both envisioned, and race thru all things till the heaven’s ring by

Our Nexus

You laugh . . . I laugh . . .

You cry . . . I cry . . .

You moan . . . I listen . . .

You fall . . . I bring you up . . .

You share . . . we enjoy . . .

You astray . . . I remind . . .

You silence . . . I ask why?

You dream . . . we vision

You smile . . . we love . . .

Our hearts intertwined with each other, makes you also do the same with me

Thru tears, laughs and dreams we’ve shared together, we are visioning an endless nexus, unbreakable ever

The thorns would always bite us . . . but it’ll be us to tirelessly grab our hands and go thru it unscathed

It doesn’t always need logic . . . just complement it with our hearts and sense, hence countless possibilities are em bowed to us

Can’t wait to make all this official . . . waiting for the heavens to lay their greetings on us :)

Now . . . .

I can't stop melting from your kisses

I can't be mute when you're speaking

I can't stop longing for your hugs

I can't be blind upon your looks

but most of all . . .

I cannot deny on your gracefulness :)

Then . . . .

Dear . . . did you ever realize how lucky I am? For knowing and getting to know you . . .

For once ago . . . just seeing your photo was just ordinary . . . and now it feels so extraordinary

On hearing your name was then normal, now . . . it has made me above normal

As then I was hard ice . . . now I slowly melt upon you

And how you change me from extreme to modesty

And now . . . .

Ichi nen ato de . . . .

Ichi nen no mae ni . . . I made you speechless with my confession of love

Clueless of how it might end up . . . you sincerely accepted as things were

Since, we started low but sure, regardless of the thousands of miles that separated

Like rubber, I would bounce back to your place every once in a while when possible, just to fulfill the feelings of longing and seeing

As promised, we would get closer as life grew older, but the snailish pace can do sometimes feel slow

But hey, why bother or sad? Once we reminisce back, proud we are that we have made, a small yet fundamental milestone for each one of us :)

And as the days passes onwards, I can slowly feel and see, that our dreams are slowly manifesting, to what we both vibrated, hoped, yearned and visioned together.

Hence, as the numbers tingle back to the same one last year, I can only say thank you for everything until this moment, never stop or tired to together grasp the moment that we we will forever be united

Indeed, the road is still tough, but hey, as long as it's with you, I believe we can achieve it, not half and half :P, but together . . . body and soul ;)

Though my body is far, my soul is with you

Though our eyes are different, we envision the same things

Though our hearts are separated, we vibrate the same resonance

Together >:D< . . . Happy :) . . . Resonating ;). . . Vibrant ;)) . . . Understanding :D . . . Caring ;;) . . and Loving :*

Puisi Picisan . . . Part 3

Get out of the shell . . .have a nice day…but hey….stay away from troubles ;)

A seventh heaven is waiting for you . . .as your white wishes are on its gate of the promised land

Shine . . .for the glamorous sky is the key of heart to a life’s spark

Livin on a prayer in this wild world . . .it’ll be the same even ten years after . . . as the lost heaven’s is waiting for our prayers to be on the horizon

A time slip happens as we prove our existence in the gracious days we go thru . . . coming closer to a revelation of life

The grayish wings of fate embraces us as the shadow of the day brings forth the cape of storm . . .pouring down the white feathers of eternal winds.

The moment of truth comes as time goes on . . . washing away the innocent sorrows that lingers in our pain.

Heaven’s pride . . .awakens a winter fall of endless stories . . . creating precious nexuses.

Spiral’s of destiny . . .pulled down by gravity . . .crawling away from the starlight of sins . . .

Against all odds . . .wavering upon the northern cross . . . under the infinities of the moonlight . . .putting the mosaic pieces together.

The new world should be free from any fleeting and neverending sorrows . . . whilst the sanctuary of reasons blow away all

Spring + Winter = Sprinter.....

Ketika angin berhembus....seketika aku merasa diterbangkan sang bayu...

Cucian numpuk gara2 hujan tiada henti turun membasahi bumi

Jaket hujan membuat diri berasa gundam dengan full armor.....

Ditambah hujan yang menerpa miring 45 derajat....membuat payungku sia-sia saja keberadaannya...

Jiahh...makes me wanna tuck in bed for the rest of day...

But Hey....it ain't that bad...at least you have this humid sensation...makes you feel at home in July :D

Compared to those freezing cold days...where you felt your skin had warped.

Watching the smoke that blows out of our mouth as we breath in and out.

And you had to relentlessly turn on that heater...causing a future hole on your bills due to excessive use >.<

Or even trying to getaway to some hot place to heat up the heart that has frozen...

Nevertheless...its all a process...a state of enjoying every little step and second of life...

When you look back at home where only two seasons....grateful should we be on the experience of having 4 seasons.

Though spring might start of in a wet wet manner...it's the start of springing opportunities...

The spring of forgiveness...the spring of hope....the spring of assignments >_<....the spring of vacations and the spring of joy ^^

仲間 ~ Friends

Walking to the same path...we share the same dreams friends...

But life is as cruel as it it...departing us from visions we shared

Nevertheless...we keep our nexus as tight as we could...for it'll be a memento for years and forever

we laugh and we cry...all together...as if the future was never there

One falls...one lets their hand out....

One goes astray....the other reminds of their mistakes....though it's sometime tough to keep it objective

This bond is what defines us for years to come...as it would be forever in our souls

Omoi no Tenshi

Alone in the room….filled with coldness that comes to the skin


Yet you wonder weeks ago. . .where it was warmth and joy that filled your face

You grasp that mobile of yours. . .watching earnestly for that someone to say “tadaima”

Yet. . .It all ended in a wink

Days by days you walk your steps for your humble dreams

Yet. . .your steps sometimes stumble across the sheer thought of having someone to walk besides you. . .taking your hands to fulfill a dream together

It’s not an unrequited feeling. . .a lad far across the oceans holds eye sweats. . .praying. . .hoping and longing for the promised time to come again.

Nevertheless. . .hard work and honest talks are all can be done. . for it’s the one step to keep our feelings intact to one another.

Or would I rather be penniless. . .just to hear an angelic voice to soothen your dry heart ?

Carees of Venus

Standing…seeing you left my legs limp…but you walked me through the start of what I longed for

Words…stuck at my throat for a while…it just melted freely with the soothing of your touch.

Hands…little I kenw those small and cold hads were actually warm enough to keep my heart warm and brighter as days pass.

Shoulders…I hope those small ones be able to support our ties for ages to come my dear

Cheeks…tender enough to make me wanna touch those softness forever.

Regardless of what you are…I yearn and long for that promised time we had together to stay firm and strong on our ties whatever stands between us….

Till that time…all I can do is relive those moments we caressed each of our heads….to soothen the pain of distance between us.

One month ago…one month later…

One month passes…we still go by those lavish dreams

Hopes rekindle…awaiting what’s to be encountered on the spears of our sights

Endless phases accompany us to the exchanges we had

And now…a turn has passed

Years ago…little was known on the future steps…

And then it turned out to be what heart couldn’t even imagine

Nevertheless…I’m happy as a bronze mileage is broken

新月~ New Moon

Precious moments pass, I wonder upon the starry night now

Dark…yet…you start to appear…slowly glowing my soul

Fading away all those old shadows…you enlighten and bedazzle myself

You offer laughs…smiles…and happiness…in a humble way…that even pride cannot resist

Despite so…there are things left mysterious…tempting ones heart to explore and go on a never ending voyage through the skies

Through the sparkling stars above…your light is always the brightest

As if your rays send an enchantment of songs throughout the never ending nights…keeping it warm in the middle of the upcoming snows

Though you still have more to shine in the depths of my heart…I will still be here waiting for you…the time you will shine to your fullest…to a full moon