The Hunt for a Future

Stair's to the seventh. . .Running up to Heaven Yeah !!!!


Sorry for the quote there. It's just i was listening to laruku's latest single called SEVENTH HEAVEN when i start writing. As for the title, I took the liberty to copy the title of a certain film which had a similar title to this.

Enough for title's, let's continue to the main course. The clock's ticking faster and faster as the date of my thesis test comes closer. The pressure itself is sure piling up within my nerves. I tried to keep calm and collected while the date comes closer. But it seems that I can't just ignore the real pressure that's coming within me.

The past days have been spent on hunting down approval on my thesis examination. The assurance on my examinees actually was available on monday noon, but i decided to find out the next day. The next day, as I found out who my examinees were, I had to start finding the persons listed. Too bad for that day, I only found 1 of them. For my counslour, he wasn't available till friday. And as for the other one, I had to wait for her on Thrusday morning after she had finished her lecture.

Well, I did eventually get all of the approval's needed. But still, some problems lies in front of me. My counselour suddenly ask wether the examinations could be either put in advance or postponed. It turn out he had to attend (again) a certain matter, causing him to ask us about the schedule. The problem wasn't from us, as for I and Rani initially agreed, but it came from the departement office. They couldn't initially aprrove the schedule being put advance or postponing them because of unknown reasons. They only said to come again on Monday for further information regarding this matter. In the End, I did have a certainty on my examinations, but when?? Guess I'm gonna have to find out later.

That's for my approval hunt. But still there are other things to be hunted down, especially by the cops. Speaking of which, there was a massive internet cafe raid conducted this week. The raid was conducted in order to sweep IC (I'll say this for Internet Cafe) using ilegal software within their computers. The result was that many IC's immediately closed their places in fear of also getting raided. The next day, IC's were really crowded everywhere. I wouldn't be surprised coz the IC' that were raided were popular IC's in Malang like the Raya net group and Surya Group. The area that had the most IC's raided were in the Dieng area (near my house), so the 3 IC's operating there which were RAYA Dieng Net, Surya Net and Pojok Net immediately got shutted down. That's why the IC's that survived were flooded with users the following day.

Concerning this matter, I wouldn't argue wether ilegal software should be wiped out. To me, I don't care wether it's ilegal or legal software. As long the price suites me, I'll go for anything. But the fact is here that legal softwares are sure expensive to get our hands on. I guess that's way people here prefer to use ilegal ones instead. But for IC's using ilegal ones, I do have to admit that's one kind of silly mistake. Why I say a silly mistake, coz as a commercial place, they should have known in the first place that doing such things could cause them to be raided by the police sooner or later. And concerning about the prive to purchase a legal software, I think it's absurd if they say they can't afford it. Let's say, if an hour cost around Rp 3000 and a computer is used around 15 hours a day, we'll get around Rp 45.000 a day. And usually an IC in Malang has around at least 30 computers to start with. With that, you'll get Rp 1.350.000 a day. In a month, a gross omzet of around 40 millions rupiah wouldn't be immposible to aim. With that much money, at leats they should have invested on buying legal softwares one by one. But stiil, they took the risk on using ilegal ones which caused them to be raid. Besides, who says that only popular softwares could only be used. There are loads of freeware out there that have the same functions with usual and popular ones. Which means, not using popular but ilegal softwares wouldn't harm anyone. It's just that for everything new, everone has to learn a bit. I just wonder, why people nowadays are soooooo lazy to learn something new???

I guess that's all. Besides that, I don't there other things to discuss. Even if there are, I'm sure it would be again an neverending complain about how my nerves are getting the best of me before my examination. Next time, I really do hope i have my degree. So, let's hope I write again in a succesfull condition, See ya next week!!!

2 Weeks and Speeding

Here i'am, back in front of my monitor, writing this blog. Well....it may be just an ordinary blog, blog, but as it implies, a blog also sereves as a mean to state ones mind.

2 weeks and counting, my thesis tests is finally decided, which is on the 31st of May. It seems that the only male on the test date would be me and Arif, the others are all female with a total of around 5-6 people joining the exams. And like other exams, i do have to admit that it really makes me nervous. But being just nervous i guess doesn't finish off anything, and so i try to prpare myself studying whats really needed for the tests.

Around last Wednesday, i went to campus. Some things that i had to finish off and meet with. The first one was about my thesis summary cover. This matter nearly made me pissed off. It's all because off that the requirements off the submission didn't clearly say that i had to make such thing, and it seemed this caused some misperception even among the staffs in the depatement office. But, rather thatn argue and ending myself in another potential trouble, I had to obey what the staffs said. It's just annoying that even the staffs have different perception among whats supposed to be clear and rigid.

Nest was to meet Elok. She offerred me this great book about CSR, which is my thesis topic. And aftera quick glance at it, it really was something to belong. I mean, it nearly contained all the things i had to know about CSR. It's quite a pity i knew about this book after i submitted my registration. Nevertheless, I bought it anyway, it might even come in handy since I might get some things that aren't available yet to my database.

LAst stop, to meet wendra. It wasn't an appoinment since he was attending his thesis exams. But i felt that i had to come and encourage him. It's also his second test since he failed his first one after being slaughtered by his examiner. And since it was just 2 weeks prior my exam, I think coming on such events might help me get to know the true feeling on what might i feel or i experience when doing my tests. Eventhough i've been to such occasions before, this one really did give me a close impression on how it feels while doing your thesis exams.

Other things??Not much, except picking up my new ceelphone and meeting up with galih. About my cellphone, I had to swich to another cellphone due to my PDA not able to receive or make a phone call due to it's speaker being broke. Luckily my mom had a spare cellphone. But since it was also broken, i thought I'd try to repair it. Luckily dad gave permission to repair it due to the high cost, in the end, I think it's worth it. Not being able to receive or make calls really does bother you. You just wouldn't know when you might have to make or receive a call in times off emergency. The only set back for me having to use this old-new cellphone is that I now again have to get myself accustomed to use it with just my thumbs. It's been around 3 years since I haven't used a cellphone with only one hand. This was because my prveious cellphones required me to used it on both hands, which was my stolen nokian 3300 and my recently broke PDA. Eventhough in the end I need to do some adaptation, I guess it's a welcome change.

Not to forget galih. It's been a while since we ahd our trip togetehr to selorejo with the others. It seems we had some kind of misundertsanding on when to meet. In the end, i had to give in and let him visit my house due to myself not understanding his message properly. He was there for about an hour or so, but we did really have a nice chat. I also got some usefull information regarding Telkom Speedy, a broadband internet service. He explained to me the ins and outs of it. It sure gave me brighter view on how to view it. Personally, I was thinking of subscribing to this service, but some things have made me to postpone it for the moment. One of those things are beacuse i have to prepare for the exams. The other things are about asking permission and finding out wether subcribing to it is worth it or not.

Well, I hope in the near future i'm able to subscribe to it. I really do need it cause having to go to the internet cafe really bothers me sometimes. It's mainly that you just don't feel at home while browsing. The other things is that since I like to download various stuffs, going to the internet cafe really sucks because you have to match the perfect time and day in order to get a maximum download rate, something which is really hard and painfull often. And so, I asked my brothers on helping out on doing a joint venture to buy a ASDL modem in order for me to subscribe. I'm sure it'ld benefit all of us. Especially Bgaoes and me use the internet often. I aslo don't have to wait in front of the monitor just to make sure i've finished my downloads. Hope I'll be able to subscribe soon after my tests are over.

Movie Review : Mr. Bean's Holiday

Ok.....here's the latest and last installment of the hillarious and funny Mr. Bean series. Since the last movie around 9 years ago, I thought that'll be the only movie. It proved me wrong due to the release of this movie. And as you've guessed, it still does serve and show dozens of hillarious and ridiculous scenes from Mr Bean.

This time, Mr Bean get's to go goon a vacation due to winning a lottery. Even by winning it, the disaster has started. Arriving in Paris....all sorts of things happened. From having to walk all the way to the train station, his lunch in the restaurant and ending up lost with a Russian director's son.

Even after getting separated for some time with this kid, Mr Bean gets to know this women he met on the road, who coincidently, needs to go to Canes to attend the Cannes Film festival. Along down the road, they both met again with the lost kid and both went to Cannes. Unknown to Bean, a country wide search has been issued upon him for being accused of abducting the Russian film director. And so, needing to get to the film festival, they start to do all sorts of trick, starting to cross dress to having to punch a security guard.

I think that' all for the story. don't wanna give much spoilers. Just want to save the enjoyment for last. As for the movie, it still does offer us Bean's latest craziness and stupidity on his vacation. But still there are some things that bug me. The story on Bean itself is quite outdated for me. This film should have been released about 2-3 years after the first movie. If it wasn't for Bean's pure stupidity and craziness in the movie, I think the film itself wouldn't be that of an interest to people.

The other thing is about the interaction between Bean and his surroundings. what I mean is, all of his stupidity and craziness since now has all started to his interaction with other people. And to me, this part wasn't exploited realy deep. In here, he just meet people and all of a sudden, they to end up having to follow Bean's madness. The worst part is, the ending of this movie is really lame, pure lame. As if all of the cast in the movie all become Bean...??!

Anyway, if your looking for laughs and giggles, I guess this film serves it's purpose. But for a decent story, I personaly won't recommend it. The first movie for me is way better than this one. I guess this movie is just a mere nostalgia and an official end the the Mr Bean franchise.

Postponed.....(again)

Arrrgghhhhhh....dammmmnnnnn....juts tell me how long do i have to wait for my fate to be decided. It sure does leave me restless having to wait for the D-Day.


Ah yeah, haven't told you anything, my test...got postponed again. This time it's being moved to the end of this month, which is May. I really don't know how to react on this thing, either be blessed or be devastated. Like i once said....only an extraordinary thing and event can make my tests be postponed for the second time...and it really did happened. Anyway, I do have to give my thanks to Allah SWT who made Mr. Made suddenly have to attend a certain duty in Jakarta for some days. This meant he can't attend my tests as my counselour.

Getting things postponed again sure made my time schedule quite jumbled. This leaves me with another 3 weeks of spare time to really prepare my side. And lucky me, Mr Made gave me some hints on what to prepare. Oh well....just basic stuffs like Accounting basics concerning the financial, cost and managerial parts. Not to forget my thesis of course. I sure have to make sure i study all those thiongs he said. Just in case, let's just add some miscellanous topics, in case they get asked for in my tests.

My life...oooohhhh....not bad or good either. Just the boring thing i always feel each day. It sure different being a college student in your final days. Nothing to do besides your thesis. Luckily beside my thesis, I do have some things to do, like studying japanese and english. As of my english, i'm on my final stages of this lesson. Having to do 2,5 years at EF surely tires and bores me. Especially if one by one your friends quit because they fail or refuse to continue. I did experience my golden times there around level 8-9. Too bad can't experience those times again. If only we could meet again in some sort of reunion.

As a replacement for my English lessons, i'm planning on trying to learn Mandarin. I was offered the chance to learn it long ago when i was in primary school, but i took aside that offer, which i really now kinda regret. Surely mandarin is slowly coming to become one of the major languages in the world, so i would think it's worth studying. But I do have to take in mind that after my exams, i don't have much time left, so better find a course and start it as soon as possible.

As of other things...i guess it's just about my body feeling a bit sick for the past 4 days lately. It all started last Saturday when I went to the Internet cafe early in the morning. And to make things worst, I rode my bike to the Cinema without wearing a coat and ended up home late at night. The same thing happened again while i rode my bike again without a coat the next day to eat at Bounty's. And to wrap up things.....due to insufficient warming up the next morning, my whole body went in pain. To descibe things, you can't fart which made my stomach quite swollen. By the end of the day, things really went much better. Thanks to my grandma who told me to put a bottle ful of hot water to my stomach. It really eased my suffer. But still, I guess i lost about a kilo or some while defacating. To think things went back again really made me careless. The next night, due to having to stay up the whole night made things deteriorate. My whole body worsened and I had to spend the whole night unable to sleep. Also, I had to go to the toilet every 1-2 hours in the night which really made me very tired. In the end, i was able to take a decent sleep by around 5.

And so....I do hope my body get's better. Better not forget to study. Relaxing and self indulging is good but better make sure to enjoy it properly and to it's limits. Make sure you don't get carried away, cause the next 3 weeks will be gone in an instance if I don't use my time properly. I was thinking...should I make myself some sort of time table to make things in order....Dunnoo....but i think i'll give it a try.

Movie Review : Spiderman 3

Another review here guys. There is however something special here bout this review. That is bout that i write this review straight after i finished the moview at the theaters. Theaters???Yup.....it's really been ages since i last been to the cinema's. And it really left me quite awkward just entering the place itself. I didn't what made me wanted to watch this film straight from the big screen, but after it finished, i think it was worth it.

And so bout the title itself. The film itself has been waited for ages by it's fans. And i do agree that this film has it's own taste. As a sequal, this film directly continues the story from the second film. But, it ain't called another sequal if it doesn't offer anything new. What's the new part??Villains of course and the other part is what always makes the previous spiderman movies really hit the box office. That is the personal life about the man behind the mask, Peter Parker.

The film really has a different approach to the secong movie. If the second movie was about spiderman doubting his own power, this time...he is being consumed by his power and ego. And to make things worst.....an alien symbiotic comes and starts to take control of his mind. Not to mention, his relationship with MJ.Since she does know his identity, it should have been more easier for spidey, but.....man can only plan....In other words, it seems things aren't going as they planned.

Add came Gwen Stacy to the scene which made their relationship quite hot. And also Harry, who at the beginning went all crazy witn his father's goblin legacy just to get knocked off and caught an amnesia for half the story. Quite amusing how Harry finaly regained his memory to tease spidey off after getting back his memoeries back just once again to get his face half scared by spidey's dark powers (pooor you.....).

Talking about the other villains which are Sandman and Venom. Sandman...hmmm.....not that of a villain...to m, he's just a wrong man in the wrong place. The epilogue on him with spidey finally explained things. The real menace should have gone to Venom, but he just got some action nearly at the end of the movie. This dude surely did some wreckage and havoc while fighting spidey. And with Eddie's persona, they do make a good match. I do hope Venom reappears again if another sequel is made, to me...he just didn't get much sreen time than he was supposed to.

I do have to admit, this movie sure had to many cast to begin with, making me a bit apprehensive on how they're gonna pull of with a good story. Luckily they did manage to do that, eventhough it could have been much more better. Three villains to begin with...hmmm...way too much.Even if they did insist on continuing this, they should have at least prolonged the movie lenght to about 3 hours. It's just I didn't feel the brawl was enogh, especially Venom with Spidey. In the end, the movie still does a good job on continuing the Spiderman franchise. Let's hope the next one will be more better (if there will be any).

Puisi Picisan (Part 2)

This real emotion wit you, don't ever kiss me goodbye, coz your eyes on me has left a perfect blue in my heart and soul

This secret of my heart,should anyone listen to my hearty? Or shoud it just be a wind of gold for myself

The ray of your face has ignited my soul, making a moment in my mind, leaving a real taste of your vanilla

Share your heart with me, don't ever leave me in a flood of tears, don't let the love bug in me touch the dune's of loneliness.

The tree of life that I am going through, sure...life is like a boat, rowing through the promised land of love, round and round in the field of hopes, glowing like an emerald green.

The eternal wind blows of the black stone in my mind, beside you only I can step aside thecape of storms raging through my veins, sensing that we're be destined to be together....

What is love? Is it a cureless sickness that makes a hole in the the inner core of our lives? I can only breathin the air, the scent of the mellow songs from my endless sorrow's within

This lovesick leaves me dazed and alone, let it go, make a move, surely it'll showone way to the discovery of a dreamless world

Do you expect me to give a gift? Some day one day mygrayish wings shall overflow this world with a vision to my heart, so that nobody but you can see this fine weather day of shines

Puisi Picisan (Part 1)

U'r presence pumps out my adrenalin,as if in a dream,your smile is like a sweet vanilla,your face shines like the full moon.

U'r exsistence makes me addicted to you, longing for you to be by my side,my blurry eyes can only see you in vivid colors

All year around falling in love to you, the colors of my heart wants to know your color's so we can be a key of heart for each other

Sweet dream's all night, can I feel an evergreen horizon that you put in every heart's love

The brilliant years past by, white feathers pour as the snowdrop's rain in my first snow, I sense a miracle from my mega step's towards you

Is this first love just a glacial love? Or is it just the birth of my revelation towards you, I hope what I feel isn't killing me nor a finale

Love and Honesty, is it enough to bond each other's heart's? Can my prayer's reach the heavenly ark in the sky? Or will my name will just be an echo in your simple and clean life.

The shallow sleep's I've been experiencing all night, is it the secret sign's that tells me the reason for loving you? Or is it the result of an everlasting hope for true love?

My trust on my feeling towards you,will it ever be an excistence in your mind? Or do I have to prepare myself to say farewell? Is it a sin to be passionnate on my feelings, or do I have to keep it black towards others?

Can u open my heart's sanctuary till i'm feeling fine?or do I have to lose control to the tangerine dreams?

What is love? Is it to be blame'd? Or is it to be a poker face? Can I fly high towards the ark in the lost heaven's?

I wish I could rewrite the days of happiness, when you would be the one to show me the meaning of peace and love towards each other, how I've always alonged for the link between us be realized in the spirit dreams inside us

Ready steady go my dear, the heaven's drive for us is coming closer, let us feel the brand new beat that’s outgrowing between us.

My dearest thoughts for you in this winterfall, perhaps love can invoke a bravery to show love flies everywhere

My sweetie, the four season's we've spent together, the aazing kisseses we've shared, the snow white loves we've had, is it enough to forget it and just say "time to say goodbye"

The next step's of our lives, will be a time slip to our fate of our lives, a winding road to the journey to a neo universe, get ready to spark in the new world

Loose and Tight Weeks

OMG....it been a while since i posted a blog. Didn't notice that it' been that long and all of a sudden it's now May. Ah well, never mind bout that, let's just skip on things.

Continuing what i've said before, I was prepairing to register myself for the thesis exam. But there seems to be a problem. All of a sudden, the exams itself were postponed till the 16th of May. This also led to the registration being prolonged till the 4th of May. Quite shoking for me since I was really already geared up and on fire to face the exams. with all this, I then thought, oh well, why not take a rest from all things, besides, I was already hyped up the past 10 days for thinking the examz were gonna happen on the 10th.

With sudden things happening, I than started to borrow comics again. Just being left away from comics for 10 days really left me clueless on what to borrow. And it really did coz there were dozens of new comics that i haven't read yet. And so i began to read those drugs (comics). It didn't stop there coz when i paid a visit to lava net, he..he.. guess what i found....???Code Geass complete till the latest episode, Woooowww.......I didn't hope to get this much jackpot in just a couple of days. And as u guessed, I really did spend the weekend just watching Code Geass and reading comics. My thesis..??I didn't even touch it. Speaing about Code Geass, i did read the synopsis before, but I didn't know that it was that awesome. It nealy led me to tears watching the last episode. Kinda of weird coz i rarely shed any tears. What i just hped is that they really make a conclusive season regarding Code Geass. It's really a shame if the makers in the studio's don't.

with all the looseining up happening, i then thought...wow...i guess it's time to get back to work. Besides reading comics and watching anime, i also got a chnace to visit selorejo lake with some of my old pals from high school. The trip itself was really refreshing coz we went through those highlands and passing through villages. Not to also mention the experience of having to stop for around 2 hours due to my car breaking down coz of one of the hoses loosened. we did managed to reapir it ourselves, but it really took time doing all that resulting our trip was reduced to just a couple of hours in the afternoon. But in the end, it really was a fascinating trip for me. Too bad i didn;t get to buy fresh milks there coz one of the areas we passed seemd to be a place were fresh milks are produced.

Back to work. Oh....it really felt a bit odd having to read such journal's and books all over again. And since i only got just fifve days to prepair all of the requirements to register, i think all just have to finish this off. And it really caused me some pain, having to go to campus back and forth every day just because of one thing, my bibliograph hasn't been signed as prove of aproval. And it was just yesterday i knew why when i called my counselour. He said there's a mistake on how i write thesis. The othe thing was that he didn't have any idea on where to sign it. On the last pasrt, i do admit it was my fault. And then i went to all the trouble of reapiring that part and submiting it again to his office. And this is one of the parts hate. With only just tomorrow for submiting my requirements, i do hate why i have to wait till the next day to know wether it has been signed or not. I do hope it has coz if not, then i'll have to wait for the next chance which will be around the 31st, quite long eehh....

with my days numbered, i can only hope the exams won't be that hard. I do know that there are still bugs and errors in my thesis, but if a just think bout that, i think i won't be going anywhere. Oooohhhhh......please Allah...make me pass this exam for the sake of my future.......AMIIIIINNNNNNNNN.



PS : This may be my last blog in a couple of days for the moment due to myself having a thesis exam.