Just realized

Just realized...the total posts of this year has surpass the ones from previous years till 2009. Jeez...I guess I've been very busy and lacking the time and creativity to post anything.

Well...it it weren't for the latest things from my Smartphone, I guess I wouldn't be back here with my rumblings and so on.

Hope it keep going on :)

The Biggest Purchase

Ever dreamt of having your own house, from your own money, by your own sweat?

Guess everyone does, who doesn’t? Thing is, nowadays, such dream are becoming and becoming more utopic.

Face it, soaring land prices, (Over) Priced houese from the developers. On top of that, average or (if not to say) low salary and rising living costs. All these summed up together, getting your own house would be a heck of struggle.

Applied on me? Sure it does, especially here in Jakarta. Even seeking outside Jakarta, the prices are fairly similar. Sometimes, the prices doesn’t even compensate for the lack of infrastructures to it.

Like it or not, I had to face this issue sooner or later. Being the head of the family, your in the constant position to always seek out ways to improve and better the lives of your family. Having your own house is just one of them.

Do I hate my current house? Hell no! Well, its just not that I hate it, but it’s just bout anticipating my future. Staying in a (said) subsidized flat just besides the national heroes cemetry, things are fairly OKAY for the moment. Just meters away within walking distance to the train station, a shopping center just at the basement, and all amenities within close range, what more can you ask?

Well...like I said, its about the future. In a flat, you don;t have the luxury of space. In a somewhat 30m²  unit, things are pretty much packed. No room for useless things. All items must be of essential need and can be stored tedily. Otherwise, I risk making my unit a pile of garbage storage. Not to mention the lack of a garden. Meaning that there’s no green thingy to watch on and get that fresh and natural feelin.

Over the past few month, I’ve been eyed with this new land opening from a house developer in South West of Jakarta. Well, its not technically Jakarta. Anyway, since then and till now, I’m in the struggle get this house within my grasp. Although some sacrifices will ensue.

The only way I can ensre it is to secure a house loan from my office. But that means, I’m kinda pawning my life to my office. Asides from the fact that I can set it to another house mortgage or new office, I’ll be pretty much stay for the rest of my life.

Is it worth it? For me now....YES?? In my circumstances, I think its now bout now or never. Some years back, I wouldn’t be thinking of doing so. But as you get older, get more commitments, and looking prices at a never ending upward trend, you’ve just gotta have the guts.

Luckily, I’ve somewhat secured help from my ol’ man. However, I’ll be sure to repay him as soon as I can afford it. Man, I sure owe lots in my life. Even till now when I’m in need for a housing fund. Just need to get the paperwork right in all parts, and hopefully, I can secure the deal in the next month.

Sure time is ticking for me. Thus everyday, its an adrenaline rush. However, if I vision the future that I want, I guess its gonna be worth it. As for myself being tied, I don’t mind for the moment. Let’s just think bout it when you’ve already hit the upper ceiling. Not to say that I’ve haven’t. But this thing makes the ceiling go higher, and forces yourself to reach that upper ceiling.

For the future.....

Rewind

It’s funny, when you read back what you’ve written in the past 4 years, every since you’ve started to work. And when you do it, you just can’t let go of the tears of happiness and all things mixed together. Its just thanks God that I’m still here, well and alive.

But then, by rewinding it, I remember, everything has a cycle. Even for my work. The things I’ve gone thru, written thru all these times, are testament to what I’m goin thru now. No longer I can bear this...

To rewind....means to start things a new. Just got the joust recently. So I’ll just have to start of with that. Eniwei, it is sufficient, as i cannot ask more right now. Let’s just go thru things with will power as beginners.

Its all bout grabbing back the power and choice back into my own hands. Use what’s available, modify and enhance it to my own use. Stop whining and waiting. The world won’t wait for me. I’ve seen others already fly while I often think of myself still at square one.

It’s not bout the results, it’s always more on the process. Regardless of the color awaiting me at the end of tunnel, I have to make sure the process is done in a just and right manner. No more short cuts, no more whimping.

The future’s in stake. The dream is already on a cliffhanger. If it ain’t me...then who’s gonna take care of myself?

Physically Sidelined

Ketika kamu merasa on the high....segalanya goin good....smooth and fun...JEBRET

Then came that horrendous moment.....

Gw ga’ akan nyeritain dsini. Mengingatnya saja sudah membuat gw cukup trauma. Apalagi kalo bukan karena gw hampir dekat dengan kematian gw. Emang, skalanya belum ada apa2 dengan apa yang dialami Chandra. Tapi fakta bahwa itu terjadi sudah jelas membuka peluang gw menuju alam lain.

Luckily...no broken bones....Just some bruises and mangled muscles. Even till now the effect still lingers. Still gotta go and have my mangled muscled massaged back while slowly physically gaining back the enduranatce. Bruises are almost done. Just still got one tiny bit at my right heel. 

No lifting heavy things for the moment. Need to carefully walk when on the stairs. Need to watch out for my foot balance. Need to restrain mysefl from overpronating when walking....just too much things to watch out on this moment till fully healed.

Really...the price of such healthiness is what I’ve just felt...so expensive, that we cannot ever put a price to it. Every little bit of it, we must be gratefull of it. By what? By being careful and taking care of it through letting in good and healthy food and exercising it. Guess I missed out on the very first.

I guess this is one of my life events, that’ll have a profound effect to me. Ever since I was often left gaizing, unvoluntarily remembering that very moment I was clinging on with my life on the edge. And thanks Allah SWT, I’m still given a second chance.....

A year since then . . .

I remembered writing it....just maybe forgot to post it. I think it was around 2011 somethin....here's my thoughts on those times....

Eeeeewwwww...tak terasa, hidup berjalan demikian cepat, dan tiba2, you’ve just found yourself setahun hidup di Jakarta, or to say, di Indonesia sejak kembali dari Perth. A chapter of journey that starts up new visions and experience.

Clear is in my mind, that nite that I had to part from Perth back to my country. Really felt sad knowing that a chapter’s life had to end after marvelous times there. But life had to continue on and it was clear for me, that staying there wasn’t the best of the options available.

Touch down on the on going worsening pollution of Jakarta, my thoughts were head focused on applying for jobs. What more had I have to do besides this. Could have started from Perth, but I thought of taking my time there. Here, it took me efforts to apply here and there, including going to job fairs and taking care of my degree credentials, in which sorry to say, didn’t result in anything up till now.

Nevertheless the tight atmosphere of getting a work, I tried my best to enjoy life. Reading books and watching movies from my laptop are just some of the many things I tried to do to occupy myself during to keep my mind from idle. I even had a visit from Somad, one visit in which I thought would be the last for some times to come with my fellow dorm mates. This was bound to come as we were all living our lives somewhere. The best now is to constantly keep in touch through available means.

My efforts on applications only ended up with two being followed up, one of them is where I’m now currently working. As for the other, well, my thought back then on denying the offer was somehow due to my insecure of my own knowledge. Being admitted to such high class corporation would obviously be a perfect match to what I’ve been studying so far. But it seems my lack of of diligence in this field was what held me back. Therefore, it now is part of my history.

On the other side, my admission into one of the biggest asian bank has somehow brought me most of the new and challenging things in life so far. Not only friends, but also perspectives and a whole new attitude regarding work and related matters. All immersed in a beautiful plan from the heavens that always keeps me gracious to Allah SWT from allowing me to experience such feat.

And now, a year has passed. Regardless of all the ups and downs during those times, it never keeps me to feel gracious. It is at times like this and always must we do, to look below on those who cannot reach our current level, say our thanks to Allah SWT for the chance and honor to be given such bounty in life.

God knows what’ll happen from here on, a year later, five years later, and beyond. My only hope is to be able to go all those times in wisdom and be a better person for myself and others. One more thing . . . with memories ;-)

Man 2 Man

On that table. . . face to face with your dad

Trembling though his words reciting the du’a on our moment

Yet...man to man....I just knew . . .

It was a moment of truth for him

On releasing his beloved daughter

To a man . . . he barely knows

To a man . . . just few occasions met

To a man . . . a trust he will bestow

To a man . . . he would call “son”

Sir . . . I may not know you deep, yet do trust me . . .

Sir . . . You may not seen us often, yet its ok . . .

Sir . . . Though it may be sudden, yet please allow to say “dad”

Trembling my feet were on the second you took my hand on the oath

I realized it was nothing compared to the sheer trembling your hands were

Putting his utmost trust to a complete stranger . . . his daughter’s fate

Sir . . . I can’t promise wealth for your daughter, I can only put my best effort that every money and rizq she takes would be of a halal source & method

Sir . . . I can’t promise her an easy life ahead, I can only encourage & lead her to be strong & face life full of gratitude whatever it is

Sir . . . I can’t promise you daughter that she won’t ever cry, I can only put my blood & sweat that her only tears would be those of joy

The next few seconds . . . moments for every man

Determination of a man

I took the oath, not just for happiness, good & bounties

But for every sin, bad & vice she brought

Sir . . . please allow me . . . .

Urus sana . . . Urus Sini . . .

Masuk bulan kesembilan dalam tahun ini, rasanya kaya baru kemarin aja masuk 2012, and all of a sudden I’m here, all with my changes here and there. Selain urusan nikah dan kerjaan, sebetulnya ada 1 hal lain yang sudah lumayan bikin pikiran senep, yakni masalah pengurusan dokumen2 administratif terkait idup gw. Name it....SIM...KTP...STNK....dan Buku Nikah. 

Keruwetan pertama terjadi ketika ngurus KTP. Sebetulnya andai mulai dari ini ngga’ ruwet, yang lain juga ngga’ bakalan ikutan ruwet. KTP yng awalnya tercatat di Malang, kupindah ke Jakarta. Padahal, aku nantinya akan melangsungkan pernikahan di Malang. 

Jadilah keruwetan itu bermula, dari ngurus perpindahan KTP di Jakarta sampai selesai pencatatannya di KK. Baru aja itu selesai, langsung disambung dengan pengurusan berkas2 pernikahan dari kantor kelurahan dan KUA sini sampai ke instansi yang sana di Lawang sana. 

Bukan masalah gerutu ku untuk mengurus hal2 itu. Tetapi lebih pada kelalaianku untuk memikirkan segala sesuatunya lebih matang sehingga aku harus mengurusnya (hampir) sendirian. Belum lagi teringat harus bolak balik karena masalah pengetikan yang salah di beberapa dokumen. Hal2 ini lumayan bikin sport jantung dan hati ngga’ tenang dibuatnya. 

In the end, selesai juga pengurusan 2 hal itu. Namun 2 left masih nunggu. Oh well....belajar dari 2 dokumen penting itu, aku bertekad harus lebih hati2 dan mempersiapkan diri lebih awal. Namun fakta bahwa dokumen2 tersebut tercatat di luar Jakarta membuat proses memperpanjangnya juga menjadi agak lebih panjang. Walhasil, dana yang harus dipersiapkan juga lebih banyak. End result, finally got things done . . . for the while at least. 

Ah ya....kalo diinget2...aku juga sempet berurusan dengan pengadilan perihal SIM ku disita karena pelanggaran lalu lintas hahahaha....So...jadilah aku bayar denda dan ambil SIM ku di pengadilan. Time and money lost (again). Sungguh....banyak pelajaran yang kudapatkan dari pengurusan segala sesuatunya dalam beberapa bulan terakhir. Ngga’ cuma dana dan waktu yang perlu dipersiapkan, tetapi juga kehati2an dalam melakukan segala sesuatu. 

Selanjutnya, masih ada 1 hal yang perlu diurus, yaitu membuat KK sendiri. Ini karena aku sudah menikah dan agar resmi tercatat sebagai suami istri di KTP, maka perlu ada KK terpisah. But anyway, berhubung ngga’ terlalu mendesak banget, I guess I’ll take my time and enjoy life while learning the tib dits to prepare doing it later on. 

Overall...its not that I hate taking care of my administrative things as a good citizen. Its just that the process is damn tedious....paperworks here and there. Not to mention that it takes quite a while and involves quite some money...fiuuuhhh.....

Part of the Line

RAD staff now I am officially. I have to be glad I’m back in this department after a short detour in MMU early last year. Though I’m in a different unit, but hey, that’s what I wanted, and I got it ! So, for just this, I can only say....Alhamdulillah ;-)

So goes on the journey. Turns out that I still have to be rotated for at least the start of the new semester in May later on. Boss says its to see in which part I would be needed and seen to be excelling at. I don’t mind personally, as I do have to understand such actions since I have never been deployed so in the unit.

In other words, its kinda like a OJT, but you won;t be going anywhere after it ends. So I guess that what I really need to do from this point onwards is to build up a strong enthusiasm and rapport on any kind of assignments given. I don’t have any TRP companions on my back now so my condition is a do or die stance.

For this month and May later, being a credit reviewer would be my daily work. Being the next line after a credit analyst, I have to say it brings back some headache that I purposely wanted to avoid. The good thing is that, you won’t be having t make up the analysis from scratch. The bad part, you need to be knowledgeable enough to criticize and amend any mistakes in the works of an analyst. And for me who’s work as an analyst back then was sort of wishy washy, I guess I need to gear up my learning curve in order to keep up with the pace.

There’s a part which I do have to consider myself lucky, which is the condition of my peers which seems to be very supportive (my perspective so far). Until my first two days, I have been continuously engaging in constructive discussions on how to do a proper credit review. By dong so, I have to admit, the job is certainly challenging. Not only it involves the point as mentioned in the previous paragraph, it also is a mixture of seeing things from another perspective of things.

So from now, I’ve gotta get myself engaged in more work to sharpen up my abilities. Though it may lead up to more cuts and bruises, I guess its a necessity if I were to succeed in this field, ganbarimashou !!!!!

Permanent

Errr.... dua bulan kah?bisa jadi begitu sih, again life rolls around like a dice in a game. Ngga’ bakalan tau kemana nasib berputar. Yang hanya bisa diusahain hanyalah kecepatan dan arah lemparan. Tapi jatuhnya itu dadu dimana, hanya Tuhan lah yang Maha Mengetahui.

Ok, kali ini gw ngga akan akan lagi permasalahan yang ada di beberapa post gw sebelumnya. Akan ada lanjutan posting2 tersebut. Yang ingin kutuangkan dalam posting kali ini adalah bagaimana keadaan berjalan di kantor, kelanjutan OJT, dan pandangan2ku akan hal2 itu.

Sampai hari ini, sudah 4 bulan lebih gw di CBD1. Honestly, in terms of total experience, banyak amat hal yang kudapatkan disini. Kalo mau disingkat, tempat ini adalah semacam all in one place to learn everything from A to Z. Dari bagaimana meng-approach customer sampai pemeliharaan secara dokumentasi dan transaksi hari2, bisa kita dapatkan disini. Hal ini membuat proses pembelajaraan dan praktek jadi lebih menyeluruh.

Hal ini kurang bisa terjadi di departemen2 sebelumnya. Itu karena, departmen2 lain lebih merupakan 1 departemen terspesialisasi pada 1 bidang. Memang, jadinya kita lebih fokus pada 1 pekerjaan tetap. Tapi dalam jangka panjang, hal itu akan membuat kita kehilangan fokus akan garis besar dari perkerjaan di kantor ini. Yang dalam hal ini, gambar besar itu bisa kuraih kembali di departemen ini.

And gw harus bersyukur. Masa rolling di departmen ini di extend untuk 1 bulan sampe Maret. Ini karena pengumuman permanent placement sudah diberikan. Yep....the bloody announcement was made finally. After waiting almost 3 months the agony was finished. Me?? Alhamdulillah I got what I wanted, which was to be placed as a credit risk officer. Others?? Most where accepted with mixed feelings. While some did go to place where they wanted, the sense of awkwardness was evident. Maybe some emotios were still lingering with the place of designation. Others even were placed into departments completely foreign to them, and obviously this was viewed with an even more downward tone in their hearts.

Well, I known it was a hard process for the HR friends and management, but then you’ve gotta remember, we’re soldiers in a battle field. So the only choice available is to follow the assignments or get your ass out to another office. Works these days have little if not no consideration on a persons feelings towards their placement as most employees nowadays are considered mere robots, even to be considered a soldier is still quite a luxury.

On my side,I guess I am truly lucky to be assigned on that role. The reason is that I am one of the few people who got the placement exactly were I wanted to be. For that only, I feel really grateful to Allah SWT who has heard my wishes and prayers. My choice to be there is also based on certain reasons, that most of them stretch back to my life perspective, and future plans ahead.

Going back to my basic principles, working in a bank honestly wasn’t my best and ideal job and career. Though I have yet to know what best suits me for my life, I can tell that working here is somewhat of a vile and capitalistic work. The idea of amassing huge amounts of money from other peoples is just way too much. And we are continuously forced to do so. In short, they say greed is good.

And it is thru these things that people just get a job in any banks possible. My friends have also yearned for those prestigious positions in a bank such as marketing, dealer, analyst and so. But for me, such spotlights aren’t dazzling me anymore. While I can settle for reasons saying that it’s more to build a career portfolio in the long run, for long term commitment in a bank, I think that’s gonna eat your life up some day.

To think my thoughts are wrong. Well, I’ve seen one too many people in the office that stands as direct examples of what I perceive of people that end up amassing to much money for the bank and themselves. The saddening part is, though you do gain a well paid paycheck, you barely could enjoy your life with someone meant for you. Even if they do have someone already, its as if your playing chase and run everyday just to juggle your roles as a familyman and salaryman.

On my personal view on my placement in the department and towards the office, it still stays as a mere stepping stone. It’s for need of amassing the needed knowledge, know hows and money to get ready starting up my own job. I’ve always longed to do so. Eventhough my head is still blank in regards to what would be my finest things to do, I have engraved it in my heart and soul to be able to achieve soon. If my plan is still vague, lets just say I hope by the next 12 years, I can start to see myself doing some little steps in beginning a new self job.

Nevertheless . . . welcome yourself to a new journey !! :)

Deployment Chronicles~Risk Administration (Middle Market)

Up i go to the third floor again. And for another first time, I’m confined in a room, specifically for the middle market risk unit, one sort of an autonomous unit under the RAD. Why I say autonomous, is because all the unit here, like CMU and OMU, aren’t really related to each other asides the fact that they both control risks. Hence, its sort of odd when they all seldom interact with each other as their work requires little so.

As it says market, its somehow of a policeman towards what the treasury does. So, its kinda more close of a relationship to the dealing room compared to the others. The benefit? Often gettin free meals and snack when any of the dealers are having an occasion. Sort of inviting some jealousy from the other units :D.

The first days here, were not only on dealing with learning the ins and outs of the place, it was more on swifting my mindset. Having been six month in the ops departments, my mindset was kinda set at having to help out others with their work ASAP. And since it was more practical and physical, it didn’t take long for us to do so. But in the middle office, we had to have a better grip of the work, the products, and the workflow. So we couldn’t just rashly go and help others. We had to move at a sure but steady pace.

So for the first weeks, I was almost left with nothing real to do asides attaching myself to one of the staffs, learning, asking and taking notes on what they were doing. Asides so, I was also left learning the treasury products, which to be honest, have some twist in them. This hindered us from understanding them quickly. It wasn’t until the second month there that I finally had the chance to do some real work, still under the supervision of a senior staff.

It was around March or so, that i finally had the chance to do the work with almost no direct supervising. As time moved on, I was given the chance to learn other duties. On several occasions, I was also given the chance to contact other staff to discuss certain aspects of work. All these slowly build up my knowledge and guts in work interaction.

But what excites me in this unit, is the fact that you get the chance to know things of the front offices work, without having the need to handle it first time. It’s useful as a stepping stone and as a learning process, since you mostly have the time to get use of things by yourself. This is the case for most middle office deployments like KYC/AML, RMD and PIP.

One another side, the time here in the MMU, i gained a lot of weight, all to the likings of the staffs there who really like to snack and dine out. I guess that’s what happens when most of the staffs are women -_________-;. Another thing is that I managed to travel in a consecutive 4 months, to Singapore, Jogja (2x), and Malang. But
I guess this was due to to piling boredom of working in middle office. Its the routine that often kills.

Anyway, that’s almost all on my time there. New place new things, I guess that what I’m gonna face when entering my new office. See ya next time ;-).

Deployment Chronicles~Operation Departments

Just a sudden idea, the thought of writing down my experiences over the past deployments. 4 rounds in 1 year. Time does flies. With 6 months in operations, 4 month start in middle. Not to mention the 2 months training in the start, its as if we’re already veterans having gulpped so much things over those time. The writing here will go on till the very last round. It’ll be 2 for starters. The first one i thought to summarized it as each operation round was just 2 months.

Foreign remittance for starters. In between July till September, things were where job started. Had a rocky start since my body had to adapt, experiencing nose bleeds till typhoid. The work itself was really stamina stretching as we often had to work till seven. And for info, the office hours are officially till 4.30 pm :p.

The co workers, though most of them were middle aged, were really helpful in lending a hand with our first time in office. Though just seem about remitting foreign money, this the start of where we got to know the ins and outs of banking. It was also here that I experienced my first ramadhan since working, another new feeling asides having it in aussie for the last two years before.

After having a half month extension, I moved on to the new round. Originally to Deposit, things changed a week before with a sudden announcement that I was placed at Credit service.Ok . . . that’s gonna be around 4 units in just two month. Another lot of things to handle. Lucky or not, I didn’t managed to get a taste of all units till the very end. Only managed to be in the loan unit with a few trips of learning at the bank guarantee unit. Export and import units were left untouched. This also happened to my co TRP mates who were deployed there.

Under staffing was mostly the main cause. Hence, I couldn’t let myself ho to other units while my current one was bleeding with less people. Nevertheless, it was at this place that i managed to get a more broader perspective of other banking areas. As the unit was mainly about executing loan transactions, its was mostly about credits and their basics. Also i had the first time to interact with staffs from the second floor where main business activities were usually carried out.

The work itself was kinda detailed and involving loads of paper work. And as a loan fighter, I had to quickly summarized them soon to be able to act as a helping hand to the current unit. Time flew and finally I was getting a grip on things by the third week. By the end of my time here, we also had to prepare for our performance at the Branch Seminar. Having to dance Beyonce’s Single ladies, trust me . . . that’s gonna be my first and last shameful performance in front of a huge crowd -________-;

Third round . . . account service. Back to the first floor. The place was rite besides the foreign remittance. This is one of the slow and laxiest department in operations, as you normally get to home at around 5-6 pm on normal days. This place has a lot of things to study, which are not as intertwined with each others. They involve preparing fax remittances, account maintenance, and petty cash execution. As being one of the laxiest, thing were kinda a tand slow at start, having to figure out what the hell to do. I even had one day were I managed to do nothing but just reading manuals and procedures.

But that was just one day. The next was simultaneous periods of working as ai got to know the know hows. It was here that we finally got to plan our TRP first major get away to singapore for the upcoming months in middle and front office. With christmast and new years passing by, all of a sudden, we already had our operations past by.
Though only half a year, I believe our time in this place really helped us set a foot in the office. It also serves to mold our attitudes and mindset to our work. Next stop would be te middle/front office, where new things are bound for us . . . were no TRP has gone before . . .

Surviving in Oz

Ok . . . maybe gw kangen belakangan ama hidup gw setahun lalu di ozzy . . . sampe bikin blog kedua dalam beberapa hari ini tentang oz. Hanya saja . . . daripada mendem aja di otak, gw pikir ditulis aja, daripada ada ide bagus tapi malah g dipublish. Keburu jadi fosil di utekku nanti :p
Eniwei, its all bout what made me survived in Ozzy. Well, pastinya beda2 tiap orang, but then again, its just an illustration of I could do back then during those 2 years. Lets see . . .

1. Yahoo Messenger
First things first, gw harus berterima kasih ama di sopwer. Tanpa ini, bisa jadi gw bakal malah membusuk ato berevolusi jadi orang aborijin. Karena adanya ini, gw bisa tetep keep in touch ama temen2 n keluarga gw di ozzy. Di ozzy pun, adanya ini bisa membuat gw lebih leluasa ngebahas soal di kala g bisa kopdar karena hal2 lain. Dan 1 lagi yg gw suka . . . pake YM pu bisa disambi dengan ngerjain tugas (kcuali emang bener2 butuh konsen lho yo :p). Bener2 gw harus bersyukur dah ada sopwer ini. Really can’t imagine life would be without n

2. Internet
Tentu kalo pengen bisa YM-an, harus ada inet :p. Tapi terlepas dari YM, inet sendiri juga memainkan peran signifikan dalam upaya gw bertahan hidup. Gw masih inget hari2 pertama gw disana tanpa adanya koneksi, sumpah . . . . hambar nan hampa! Masih untung ada warnet yg bisa gw datangin sampe saat gw subscribe koneksi. Selain gw bisa update dengan berita2 n memudahkan dikala harus ngerjain tugas, yang paling gw suka adalah bandwithnya yg melimpah ruah !!. Ngga’ punya kampus, kos2an atopun pribadi, sumpeh . . . . 2 tahun gw jadi bandwith monster dan tak terhitung brapa banyak DVD yang gw hasilkan tuk backup data2 yang dah gw donlot . . . mulai dari BoA, laruku, manga, anime sampe drama. Just imagine . . .unlimited di kos, 7gb pribadi n 1 gb di kampus (sempet unlimited c dulunya :p). Sungguh . . . . masa2 indah yang entah kan terulang lagi . . . . .

3. Pecel
Panganan ndeso nan ngangeni >:D< . Resep pertama yang gw bawa dari Indonesia dan bahkan sempet pula bikin gw batal masuk ozzy gara2 dipermasalahkan ama petugas imigrasi :)). Begitu yg dari indo dah habis, alhamdulillah ternyata disini pun banyak yang jual bumbu pecel. Dan yang bikin gw semakin bangga . . . . itu bumbu bikinan MALANG!!! Subhanallah . . . . jan hidup AREMA . . . g kemana2 ada dimana yeahh !!! Eniwei. Mangan lecep iki jan nggarakno awak iki rasane koyo mulih kampung ae, muantap vokoke :D

4. Casual Work
Okay . . . to be honest, walo kliatan capek, gw saranin banget tuk bisa kerja di luar. Emang sih bakal harus pinter2 ngatur waktu, tenaga n pikiran dengan kuliah kita. But trust me, the benefits are way bigger if you are able to manage things properly. Yang pasti dapet uang saku tambahan dan tabungan kalo dah pulang nanti. Tapi selain itu itu juga akan membuka wawasan n melatih mental kita dalam menghadapi hidup coi ;), Belum juga hal2 positif lain seperti menambah kenalan n koneksi seruta memperlacar bahasa inggris. Banyak deh, its obviously worth the effort :D.

5. Get engaged with national organizations

Ini bisa lewat PPI atao sejenisnya. Yang jelas cari teman sebangsalah. Bukannya apa, walo emang dianjurkan memperbanyak kenalan2 asing mumpung di nagri, jangan ampe ngelupain ama teman dari negoro dewe. Selain udah klop dari segi bahasa, urusan2 tetek bengek biasanya jadi lebih cincai, dari kos2an, hang out sampe common interest. Syukur2 emang kalo ampe aktif di organisasi. Tapi kalo engga pun its not problem. Tapi paling g harus punya lah beberapa teman sebangsa yang bisa dikontek kalo2 ada apa2

6. Personal Skills

Yang ini emang agak rancu, tapi dalam hal ini, maksud jelas gw adalah try to do things yourself. Bukannya mencabut diri kita dari berbagai interaksi sosial yang memang mempermudah hidup kita. Tapi sebelum ke arah sana, ngga ada salahnya pabila kita mencoba mencoba menyelesaikan tantangan yang ada di depan kita alias MANDIRI!! Ini bisa dari segi belajar, bertransportasi, makan ataupun hal2 lain. Emang sih bakal kluar banyak usaha n dana. But believe me, every thing is worth it as it’ll enrich our self capability and confidence. Bukannya apa, soalnya di negeri kita yang cenderung semua ada n bisa minta tolong orang lain tuk ngerjain, di LN kondisinya bertola belakang. Kalopun ada yng bisa seperti di negeri sendiri, itupun biasanya g semua mau atao imbalannya besar. As they say. . . there’ aint’ free lunch :). For me personallym the things i was able to learn autodically was things such as cooking, repairing my bicycle, DIY stuffs and commuting alone B-).

I guess there’s loads left, but these six are the basics that I thingss have saved me from those times. If possible, might add some later on in a same title or even different one. Lets see later on . . . jya ne :).

All about ozzy (Part 1)

The barbie’s on lakeside . . . or maybe on the riverside, accompanied by the sunset

The blue sky above, barely any clouds seen, could either be mixed in the heat or the breeze

Cycling from places, easy as it comes as the lane is reserved just for us, just remember ur helmet and stay alert :)

Or you can just hop on the train or the bus, do bring your fully loaded smartrider to ease things

Hungry? Just stop by at your favorite kebab parlor and have a juicy bite of those tender lamb meat inside *sluurrpppnyamnyam

Or if its just a thirst quencer that you need . . . just find some fountains that can be seen almost everwhere :p

The clean streets and roads, all with the happy go life that they live, is far away from the bust

That’ll constantly put your mind at peace . . .

(to be continued . . . .)

When experience matters

Time flies . . . and all of a sudden . . . we’re just into the 5th round of deployment, or the second ever since entering the middle/front offices. Damn i guess a lot of things have happened over the past 4 months in MMU. From the lamest to the greatest . . . . just name it ... from weekend-ing at Singapore, double visiting Jogja and a trip to Malang. Well . . . i guess I’ve spent at least once a month going outside city. Can’t help it though, with the increasing routines and workload to swallow up, your bound to do such things sooner or later, even if it does cost some bucks, its worth it :)

And now, we’re in the CAD a.K.a Credit Analyst Department. Well, after having some heart popping weekdays preparing the BSMR test, we can now all move on the next phase. Damn it took time for the HR’s to figure out our placements. It took until H-2 for them to finally announce our destiny. Though i got the news while in Jogja, I ket following who went where. While some people did go to places where they wanted and where expected to do so, some others still didn’t. But that’s what you expect from the HR’s . . . . always with the element of surprise :p.

Anyway . . . first day of the month, of I went with two others. To be honest, every first things feel daunting, and I do still feel so even when having moving to new places. Regardless of the fact that the job description here ain’t something alien for me though as a former accounting student before, doing it first handily in the real world was something different. It’s full of the real consequences . . .

Therefore, off i went filling the first day with having myself in a mode of stage fever. Knowing what to do as I was given an assignment to analyze a certain company’s loan renewal, I was left awestruck without having a clue on what and where to begin. In the end of the day, all i managed to do was just reading out the manuals and previous works on how to get things started.

After a days break due to public holiday, the last day of the week back in office was way better (in my standards :p). I just started of with the simplest of task first. As the day started off, I received more instructions on what to do next. Hence forth, the day ended of with a days full of analyzing the financial reports. Really, even though it was just basically reading the numbers and the relationship in between them, it really left me hell drained out body and soul. Luckily I managed to have some good hang out with my TRP mates to let loose the stress out due to office the nite later.

In overall, I do somehow have mixed feelings having being placed here currently. While i cannot deny the fact that this current placement is in line with my academic qualifications, but i do realize that the job itself is more daunting since we’re talking bout real life cases. The fact that while it says its all bout analyzing, to me . . . its more bout an art being covered with calculations. There’s no shortcut in doind the job. While you can study the basics in college, what makes you a seasoned analyzer is the degree of exposure you get from doing the job continuously over and over again. Or in short . . . experience matters !

I know its normal feel helpless since i’ve just done 2 days of work. But the sheer anxiety within me keeps me from always prompting myself to keep up with the achievements of the previous rounds. Not to mention that my pride of an accounting alumni puts me on the edge to keep performing as what others expect me to do so. All i can do right now to keep opening up those accounting books of mine while also praying for the best so that I can end this round in a happy state insya Allah :)

NumB3rs (2)

83 . . . as i weigh #alamatperutbuncit

27 . . . . will be this year

45 . . . size foot . . . enough to make me back and forth finding the proper size

175 . . . enough far an Indonesian to be called tall *really?

18.5 years . . . too long to take into the workforce

10 years . . . is it enough to make me mature?

4 rounds . . . the deployments I've gone thru so far

20 or more . . . . are the countries I've visited

8 . . . cellphones I've used and had so far :D

Epitome of Freakness

Hah . . huh . . . heh . . hoh . . .Hih . . .

An amnesia of thoughts, really has left this soul dry through out the days living mundane stuffs . . . and now I’m already like . . . what the .... what’s going on with me?

An amalgamation of several stuffs such as social, assignments, futures, luckily no past but too much of a present >.<, all stuck up in one cramped room . . .
Not to be a moaner, but recent life has been the typical salary man life. Despite the neat tie, polished shoes and fancy clothes, you just end up doing the basic stuffs to fill out the senior staff’s work. The urge to make something out of the day has really been degraded into mere remembrance lately. Piled up by all other pragmatic errands.

And does it eat me? Somehow . . . YES!! First, you just feel you just wanna go home, lay your bed, be in one random sleep somewhere. Second, you just feel the sudden regret that weekend’s has passed. Third, you crave for any new entertainment that could fill up your soul. The fourth . . . the epitome of all . . . you just yearn and long for one answer. . . . when is all this gonna end??????????????????????Okay . . .it is rhetoric as it all has been decided, round the corner of may and june, but damn . . . it sure seems long. Never thought these times would be this full of boredom in a twisted manner never ever thought of. Then with all these moans, i wonder then . . . what if I’m a permanent staff . . . I’ld reckon feeling the same or even hellish things than I am.

Though saying to keep the positive vibration seems easy, maintaining and finding it is another thing. I guess the only thing to do in these times is to do what we do best at these moments . . . could be anything, but its a try to relinquish the better moments in life we had and use it as a spring or sort to bounce back up to the top I guess.

The next thing I’m eagerly waiting is the chance to take my leave. Really need a good getaway to detox my mind and routines from all the paperwork's of office. Already in the process of doing so, just hope all things go good ;).

I know that writing this wouldn’t do me any good as actions are more needed, but really . . . just felt the urge to write up something load to burn up all the bad things . . . .

Move or Stay?

Hehehe....again....a series of writing with the related topic. IF before it’s more on in or out, now...it pretty similar, whether to move jobs or stay...Though it might seem to early for me to ask such kind of questions, I believe I might have to ask this question sometime in the future sooner or later.

As far as i’ve known and taught since I was a kid, once you work somewhere, it’s most likely People tend to be more mobile on the jobs they do, move in and our of corporations for all sorts of reason.

As a freshmen, I think as for starters, its more due to the need of ataining self fulfillment. While other aspects might play in such as better salary and more more experience gaining, it all has the same root which is to fulfill ourself one way or another.

Asides in my office, I’ve also seen my friends do the same thing. Most of the time, it’s more on the money which they see as insufficient. Can’t blame people for thinking so as they might have different needs. But for me closely, it might also be due to the lack of fulfillment in non materialistic terms in office.

Be it it job mismatch, unhealthy relationships with co workers, cranky boss, slow promotion or short career levels....these are most of the causes that leads us to get ourselves out of one corporation. In relation to the above cause, I see this in a view that a job is like finding a wive, that could constantly make you at home till the time comes.

And to be honest, the voyage to find such kind of job in a corporation is somehow more of a link and match journey. It might be quick for some, but could end up as a hopping of jobs to jobs. The self contentment of a person is something really relative and not easy to see through.

For myself, I always try to be content on things I receive for I believe there’s always something more for me. But really who knows, life expectations and future development might cause me to question myself, is all this enough and is it the time to take on new things?

Only heaven knows . . . . .

Work in or out?

This ain’t about working out in the gym or in at our house. It’s more literally, as in would we work in our offices, as an employee, or do our own jobs, as in making one and be the employer of other people. A question in which I believe most of us would be asking to yourselves in at least a point in our lives.

I’ve done it myself once before, ad it still keeps lingering in my head as to whether I would be an employer of someone else in the future. Though it might sound an easy question, in reality it takes a lot of consideration to have the guts and embark on this journey. Though you do have the guts, all other things fall in to you and constantly challenges yourself.

The first time I asked this was around my bachelor days. It looked liked one hell of an awesome idea. Had some friends and mates asking me to join them in all sorts of ventures, from the simplest to the bizarre. However, it just never really hooked up to my mind. In the end, I merely just ended up collecting the ideas and experiences from others on what does it really take to be an entrepreneur.

As my days past, I really became more and more anxious on this thing. But i also realized somewhere along the days that this things really takes a lot of things to put at stake. Not only the mind, but money and out time would be put to test. I verified this with various books I’ve read along the way it sure did sound challenging.

The will, the money, the planning, the time and most of all . . . the mentality to put our lives in uncertainty stemming from the unclear nature of doing our own job. It really is something that you cannot do unless you have been exposed properly to the aspects in your life. The mentality to embrace uncertainty, befriend it, and feel constantly challenged with what can be done to overocome such obstacles.

With such aspects, I wouldn’t be surprise of only a handful of people really do end up succesful and both enjoying it at the same time. While i might see some people being successful, but doing both is one thing that I’ve seldom seen. For me, though the skills to be a entepreneur can be studied, it’s more about the proper exposure to the condition and the grown mentality from the early ages that differentiates these people.

But for some people, it’s not bout all those above mentioned things that really matters, its more on the force majeur in their lives that makes them like this. And honestly to say, it really does somehow work out as I’ve also seen loads of people succeeding due to this condition. But then I see the same thing, it’s more on the proper steps to make themselves prepared and exposed to.

Hence forth, I do envy these people, as i find them constantly on the voyage of finding and doing something new in their everyday lives. I to hope one day I have the sufficient preparation to embark on such journey. I don’t want to end up being a salaryman for the rest of my life. There’s gotta be something more in my life surely ;-)

A year since then . . .

Eeeeewwwww...tak terasa, hidup berjalan demikian cepat, dan tiba2, you’ve just found yourself setahun hidup di Jakarta, or to say, di Indonesia sejak kembali dari Perth. A chapter of journey that starts up new visions and experience.

Clear is in my mind, that nite that I had to part from Perth back to my country. Really felt sad knowing that a chapter’s life had to end after marvelous times there. But life had to continue on and it was clear for me, that staying there wasn’t the best of the options available.

Touch down on the on going worsening pollution of Jakarta, my thoughts were head focused on applying for jobs. What more had I have to do besides this. Could have started from Perth, but I thought of taking my time there. Here, it took me efforts to apply here and there, including going to job fairs and taking care of my degree credentials, in which sorry to say, didn’t result in anything up till now.

Nevertheless the tight atmosphere of getting a work, I tried my best to enjoy life. Reading books and watching movies from my laptop are just some of the many things I tried to do to occupy myself during to keep my mind from idle. I even had a visit from Somad, one visit in which I thought would be the last for some times to come with my fellow dorm mates. This was bound to come as we were all living our lives somewhere. The best now is to constantly keep in touch through available means.

My efforts on applications only ended up with two being followed up, one of them is where I’m now currently working. As for the other, well, my thought back then on denying the offer was somehow due to my insecure of my own knowledge. Being admitted to such high class corporation would obviously be a perfect match to what I’ve been studying so far. But it seems my lack of of diligence in this field was what held me back. Therefore, it now is part of my history.

On the other side, my admission into one of the biggest asian bank has somehow brought me most of the new and challenging things in life so far. Not only friends, but also perspectives and a whole new attitude regarding work and related matters. All immersed in a beautiful plan from the heavens that always keeps me gracious to Allah SWT from allowing me to experience such feat.

And now, a year has passed. Regardless of all the ups and downs during those times, it never keeps me to feel gracious. It is at times like this and always must we do, to look below on those who cannot reach our current level, say our thanks to Allah SWT for the chance and honor to be given such bounty in life.

God knows what’ll happen from here on, a year later, five years later, and beyond. My only hope is to be able to go all those times in wisdom and be a better person for myself and others. One more thing . . . with memories ;-)

Chasing Lions and Chased by Gudeg

Errrrr....seems i’ve been really loosing myself in time and space. Seem to be lost on when I wrote somethin lately. Guess it was on my starting days in MMU.

As of this place, well, almost 2 months have elapsed. How have I been doing? So so to be honest. The sheer difference of culture and work load has obviously led me to certain changes that had to be done to adapt to what’s happening there.
Speaking of adapting . . . well....fun also had to adapt. This time, we took extreme measures . . . which was . . . chasing merlions :D !! Ok....this was indeed planned 3 months before. But knowing that the day would come really had us all exited and ecstatic.

And so we did have a hell lot of fun there. All things on work were forgotten for those two days and we indulged ourselves in laughter and smile here there and everywhere. Not to mention burning out or money on the things we targeted or what our eyes fancied for.

Back to the room, all souls were invigorated. But for me....I still had other things up on my sleeve, which was letting myself chased by the Gudeg. Ok...ok...not as literally as it seems. But this next trip had to be speeded up. Curtosy of the deployment presentations that popped up suddenly a month ago. With the schedules in place, we had to squeeze up our time to handle things properly.

Therefore,up I went on the train the next two weeks later and of I was to Gudeg city. Though being somethin like the 4 or fifth time going there, it always leads me to the sense of excitement. Obviously though, especially if your gonna meet your love there ;-). As they say, love would find its way.

On this occasion, I made sure things were different as before. Therefore, I rented a motorcycle for my visit there. This made myself more mobile and able to visit places without worrying for the hard public transport over there. This then eventually had us having newer experiences together at places we hadn’t been before.

Well, that’s all for the chase. My next chase would probably be on April as this time, it’s all bout chasing the crazy lion. With the trip being on Easter, it’s gonna be extra time as I’ll be having one day extra fun. Really looking forward to the time. It’s gonna be a whip for me personally so I can do things enthusiastically for that day to come and enjoy it to the max ;-).