Epitome of Freakness

Hah . . huh . . . heh . . hoh . . .Hih . . .

An amnesia of thoughts, really has left this soul dry through out the days living mundane stuffs . . . and now I’m already like . . . what the .... what’s going on with me?

An amalgamation of several stuffs such as social, assignments, futures, luckily no past but too much of a present >.<, all stuck up in one cramped room . . .
Not to be a moaner, but recent life has been the typical salary man life. Despite the neat tie, polished shoes and fancy clothes, you just end up doing the basic stuffs to fill out the senior staff’s work. The urge to make something out of the day has really been degraded into mere remembrance lately. Piled up by all other pragmatic errands.

And does it eat me? Somehow . . . YES!! First, you just feel you just wanna go home, lay your bed, be in one random sleep somewhere. Second, you just feel the sudden regret that weekend’s has passed. Third, you crave for any new entertainment that could fill up your soul. The fourth . . . the epitome of all . . . you just yearn and long for one answer. . . . when is all this gonna end??????????????????????Okay . . .it is rhetoric as it all has been decided, round the corner of may and june, but damn . . . it sure seems long. Never thought these times would be this full of boredom in a twisted manner never ever thought of. Then with all these moans, i wonder then . . . what if I’m a permanent staff . . . I’ld reckon feeling the same or even hellish things than I am.

Though saying to keep the positive vibration seems easy, maintaining and finding it is another thing. I guess the only thing to do in these times is to do what we do best at these moments . . . could be anything, but its a try to relinquish the better moments in life we had and use it as a spring or sort to bounce back up to the top I guess.

The next thing I’m eagerly waiting is the chance to take my leave. Really need a good getaway to detox my mind and routines from all the paperwork's of office. Already in the process of doing so, just hope all things go good ;).

I know that writing this wouldn’t do me any good as actions are more needed, but really . . . just felt the urge to write up something load to burn up all the bad things . . . .