What Next???

Ooooouuuuhhh….when was the last time I did a normal posting…it seems to be ages man…though I’ve been writing much the last couple of weeks…I guess those were just rants and random thoughts on life . . .not the normal blog of life that I’ve been usually doing these years. Nevertheless…lets move on…hmm…much has happened lately…dunno if I can summarize every thing up. . . but I’ll try.

Ok…the last of month of my uni years (finally)….still….packed with assignments…though I have to be glad it was not as gruesome like September….I finally had the time to re-schedule and arrange my quite disasterous life pattern and schedule. Nothing big…but the whole bloodshed of September’s assignment really did take a toll on my mental sanity.

The thing is after that….it somehow put me in some sort of autism….the laziness to meet people and just wanna focus on keeping up with my assignments. I know it might be said as some sort of anti socialism…but hey…I’ve gotta my degree at stake here….While I’ve deeply reduced my targets this semester to a mere pass for each unit (AMiiiiiinnnn Ya Allaahhh……)…it still seems damn hard and often causes dissillution and pessimistic thoughts on how it’ll turn out on the end of semester….

Hoaaahheeemmm…..(sleepy mode)….ummm…ok…it seems spring has finally come….with all its weather that comes back and forth from windy….shiny….rainy….cold….and damn hot….wewww….got have a good stamina here coz all these changes often causes the brain to melt and boil in just mere days (lebay-ism xP). But for me…at least I can finally retire my heater…though it served me short (I guess just 4 months)…it really saved me from the savage of freezing temperatures here in Perth. Too bad I could’nt buy it earlier….if so…it would have saved me dollars months ago from the neverending sickness of autumn back then….

“Where ya gonna work mate…..?”…one question that has been asked several time to me….it sometimes even linger to my dreams….well…honestly…I cannot answer this right know….personally….I would love to say gallantly and shout …..”I WANNA WORK IN PEERRRRTTTHHHHHH”…but hey…as said before…the chances are slim…so I’ld probably end up somewhere in the jungle streets of Thamrin….Sudirman…or maybe around kuningan in Jakarta…who knows….

But really…my intentions to work in Perth are not that solid like months ago….regardless of the fact that I lack the funds to apply for a PR….the thing is…the living environment is just somehow of an alien to me. While Perth…like all other western cities in the world…have their abundant share of liveliness….liberty and modernity…to me…they all lack the sense of spiritualism…This sense has started to get into my nerves this last year after I came back from my long vacation back then…

And from there…I just thought….if I were to work here…I guess 2 years would be the maximum…or else…I’ld be risking the feeling of being too customized to the western way of living and start forgetting my roots as an Indonesian. This feeling isn’t weird for me as I once experience it as child when I had to move back to Indonesia after 8 years roaming the globe following my dad. Going back home at that time just felt like I was thrown back decades back to a primitive place. However…ever since then I’ve adjusted myself…and thought that Indonesia isn’t bad…while it certainly has it’s flaws here and there….I would think that it’s way better to enjoy these flaws as it is rather than enjoy the coziness of modernity but being blind of all the frailties of life as we usually see in Indonesia.

That is one lesson I’ve learnt thru my life. Life is not just about getting things easily and then enjoying it lavishly…but it is also but gaining it thru hard work…struggle….experiencing all the hardships of life….be emphatic and sympatic towards our surroundings…That is when we can fully understand that to be success….we must know and appreciate all the frailties that this world has to offer. Unless so…we will just end up as a greedy man asking for more and more….

Okk……I think my blog has gotten a bit dark of my ranting just now….well then…gotta lighten up things here :D….uhhmmm…what next then???Aaa yeeaahh….holiday…hmm…surely I’m not gonna repeat history and let it pass without nothing memorable like last year…so this time…I’ve planned it to make it different…way different from any of my vacations before….First thing…Im gonna go to New Zealand :D. Just visiting an old friend there for a week…Wee....technically this is my first vacation abroad (ozzy doesn’t count man :P)….second…I’m gonna get lost in Sydney for a night after that :P….now for this one…it sure gives me the goosebumps now as I’ve never ever gone a vacation ALONE before….eventhough it is just for a night….it would be in some way be a chance to test my guts and how I would fare in the world outside my safe zone…..eventhough I’ve made some plannings and reservations here and there…I just cannpt let go of this feelin…I can just hope every part of my planning goes in motion perfectly when the time comes….the key is…BE AN EXTROVERT MANNN!!!!

Ah….just remembered…I’m gonna move out in like 3 weeks time….after a year or so at leach HWY….i thought its time for me to find a new surrounding….It wasn’t bad here (except that you have to do a hell of a cleaning once a month)…but as I felt time pass here….it turned out a bit of a struggle here for me…especially when things just don’t go your way…One good example for me was when I had my knee injured 2 months ago…it suddenly felt really tiring having to comute from home to campus by just bus or walking…and it also took a toll on my savings >.<. While things have been better lately…it still would not stop me from moving out. Luckily…there’s a room that I can fill in…a friends room with other Indo friends :D. Finally…I can have some Indo sharemates to chit chat with ;). Thought just for a month or so…its better than nothing.

Working???sure thing mate….working is gonna be my daily thing once semester ends…Excluding my visit to NZ,Sydney and Indonesia…I reckon I’ll be working around 1.5 month till I graduate…till then….I hope I can gain as much ozzy dollars as I can…and while I can…coz I’m still uncertain on where I’ld end up workin later on. On thing to keep in mind…gotta limit the consumption to things I really need. Prices have gone up and with the need to gain as much dollars while possible….spending wouldn’t be a good idea I think….

Again…what next???I guess the only thing next is to pray and hope that every thing would be and end up better for me and my close ones. As summer closens by…I hope this phase of life to me would be one memorable one…a stepping stone to something bigger later on for me….For better life later on 