1 Month After

Kembalilah diriku menulis blog ini setelah agak lama tidak menulis...well not really. Selama selang waktu itu, sebetulnya ada beberapa notes yang tela kutuangkan di facebook, aslinya itu juga gara2 blm keinstall Office d laptop, jadinya langsung aja ketulis di facebok.

1 bulan sejak kukembali...well..almost sih. Selama 1 bulan setelah kembali dari Indo, banyak hal2 yang kembali kualami. Tetapi lebih banyak hal baru yang kualami selama 1 bulan ini. Terlepas dari baru ato engganya...yang pasti semua itu telah membuatku berpikir akan suatu hal.

Pikiran pertama ketika kukembali ke perth adalah kembali lagi memulai rutinitas normal yang biasa kujalani. Pertama kerja, luckily I managed to get myself tuned without any setbacks. Secara fisik, alhamdulillah engga berubah banyak. Untungnya selama liburan aku senantiasa menjaga kondisi fisikku (walo ujung2nya balik ke perth nambah 1 kilo :P)

But then...there came study. Hal yang menjadi tujuan utamaku dsini ternyata tidak semgampang yang kubayangkan. Twists and turns here and there menjadikan semester ini menjadi JAAAAUUUUUHHHHH lebih susah daripada semester2 sebelumnya. Even though i can use my past experience to get my self geared up quicker, life just won't be the same again.

And also, it's not only studies that's occupying my mind, it's also the fact that I'm in my last year here.Meaning?I have to get a grip on the reality that I'm gonna face later..which is finding a job. Despite the fact that I've always yearned to work overseas (regardless of critics and cynical views from my friends), it just seems difficult when I look back at my past facts. The fact that I have no work experience what so ever in accounting, no PR status, and all other stuffs, just seems to sum up in my head, making me anxious on how to face this future of mine.

Ok...honestly, I've somehow got a grip on what to do on this part. It's all coz I thought that I've just gotta do the things that lead to it. Despite the long and hard road ahead, that's the path I ave chosen and engraved to my self...3,5 years ago.

Relationship...oh no...please. But honestly, as a normal guy..who doesn't want to have a close relationship with the opposite sex?However, I was always a sucker for these kinda things...and it seems to be going on. My past experience over the last vacation has taught me some good lessons concerning this. However, constant dreams coming makes me always loose my cool to face this bothering situation. I'ld like to follow those dreams..but yet...after I think again...I don't deserve it...at least for now...therefor...it seems I'm gonna have to endure the loneliness huh ....

Loneliness..?yeah...speaking of that...it sure does reminds me of that fateful day....3,5 years ago. And when I relate it to now...it just all adds up and make sense. Though painful....but what I've thought back then would be how I'll be and should be doing things. And it certainly does help to save myself that is becoming weak hearted.

Why I chose that path back then...?Nothing more and nothing less to redeem myself from my lost times. That's wy I'm here...to retrieve it back...Therefor...cold minded...cold hearted are just some of the qualities I need to execute my dreams back then and get back my lost time. It's obviously gonna be painfull...not to mention lonely...but I believe that's the fate I have to shoulder.

This might be my last blog for the next couple of time ahead. NO blogs...and no notes....so no boring reading anymore for all u readers. And do not expect any lame poets again (sorry for the promised poet that I'ld like to give u a look). Even though I will be making any...it'll be for private consumption only since names are gonna be in it....don't wanna stir any troubles with saying names :P

Sayonara...minna...