1. Mandarin...hey....we've gota some 1 billion people who speaks mandarin...better join the stream to get a grasp of their words or risk being left behind
2. Japanese....for what???hehehe...u know...to better understand manga...anime...j-drama....j-songs...and whatever u name it :D
3. Korean....so that I can say some words to my BoA >:D<
4. Spanish....so that I can understand telenovelas (maksaaaaa :P)
5. Arab....why???so I can speak in heaven and not be a mute person there...for the language of heaven is arabic B-)
Friday, October 30, 2009
Friday, October 23, 2009
Wanderer’s Tale
An era of journey is close to its end….a wanderer is gonna move on to the next world…finding the unknown treasures and lessons to be learnt
Before so…it is worthwhile to stop first…take a rest…and look back at what have we got throughout the months of repent…solitude and grow…
Friends…experience…places…items…foods….money…knowledge…such obvious mundane things did happen…but does it really stop to just those? …isn’t there anything more worth noticing on this short break of life?
While it goes back to each perspectives and glasses…but from my glasses…it sent me countless visions of thought…so unique that it enriches my sould second by second…visions of gratitude to life as each second passes by daily.
As if light speed…the course not only filled in the gaps of the lost time…but it added up with thoughts of unprecedented chances. Hard work…fighter…openness…never satisfaction….order….maturity and self identification….some that were found on the cards of travel….
Still…there’s time to wrap things up….pack my baggage for the next dimension…but then…for the time….lets savor every second that passes by will be the memento for the uncertainties in the following journey.
May the next journey give me clearer views on life…not blurry ones like recently :P
Yo sólo soy un vagabundo vida
Before so…it is worthwhile to stop first…take a rest…and look back at what have we got throughout the months of repent…solitude and grow…
Friends…experience…places…items…foods….money…knowledge…such obvious mundane things did happen…but does it really stop to just those? …isn’t there anything more worth noticing on this short break of life?
While it goes back to each perspectives and glasses…but from my glasses…it sent me countless visions of thought…so unique that it enriches my sould second by second…visions of gratitude to life as each second passes by daily.
As if light speed…the course not only filled in the gaps of the lost time…but it added up with thoughts of unprecedented chances. Hard work…fighter…openness…never satisfaction….order….maturity and self identification….some that were found on the cards of travel….
Still…there’s time to wrap things up….pack my baggage for the next dimension…but then…for the time….lets savor every second that passes by will be the memento for the uncertainties in the following journey.
May the next journey give me clearer views on life…not blurry ones like recently :P
Yo sólo soy un vagabundo vida
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Rhymes of Life
Has anyone doubted the power of songs?Songs or.music…the oftern said universal language of this world. Has the power to convey words…meanings and feelings through endless rhythm and melodies. Regardless of what culture, race and religion, we always end up winding ourself with the rhymes of life.
OK…enough 4 the philosophical stuff…anyway…why I wrote this impulsive blog was this feeling I felt when I indulged myself thru the melodies inside my iPod. Just instincly, I turned it to randon and shuffle and let the fuzzy logic do the work on choosing the songs. Slowly…I found myself in some sort of kaleidoscope…..
The random songs in my iPod suddenly gave this sensation of how I fealt this song first when I heard it back then….the surroundings….what I was doing…what I was like…and many kinds of things…in short…it was as if I was in some sort of time capsule….going thru my life journey. Especially the rhymes before the year 2004.
Why 2004?well…first…I thought it was during this time I really hooked myself with sist BoA and the old mans of laruku….putting aside any popular songs of the time to just enjoy their masterpieces. But then….it wasn’t till I noticed later on that the songs before this year in my life was kinda like….full of meanings and life metaphors for me personally.
The songs were more rich in meanings….melodic and not to mention….personally evergreen. I know this sorta subjective…but hey….it is my blog…I can talk whatever I can :P. Each songs…has its distinct story on that particular life phase. It’s not like the songs after 2004 do not have these qualities…but I just personally feel they have lost the personal touch to me (well…except the two artists I mention above ^^).
Ah yeah…back to the metaphors…well…It’s obviously too much for to say in what metaphors they are….but in short….it gave me the nostalgic feeling of naivity….innocence….childish….rebellion….mischief….idealism….youth….fantasy and day dreaming….long list ain’t it :P…but yeah….that’s what been popping out in my mind recently.
Though you can feel this sensation as you countlessly go thru the songs anytime you want….to bad….its just a mere memento….a symbolism of what’s happened. The best for now is for it to be a neverending silent witness to the life journey we have gone thru….a long lasting melody that will always linger in our minds and hearts. An eternal rhyme of life for a classical story….eventually
OK…enough 4 the philosophical stuff…anyway…why I wrote this impulsive blog was this feeling I felt when I indulged myself thru the melodies inside my iPod. Just instincly, I turned it to randon and shuffle and let the fuzzy logic do the work on choosing the songs. Slowly…I found myself in some sort of kaleidoscope…..
The random songs in my iPod suddenly gave this sensation of how I fealt this song first when I heard it back then….the surroundings….what I was doing…what I was like…and many kinds of things…in short…it was as if I was in some sort of time capsule….going thru my life journey. Especially the rhymes before the year 2004.
Why 2004?well…first…I thought it was during this time I really hooked myself with sist BoA and the old mans of laruku….putting aside any popular songs of the time to just enjoy their masterpieces. But then….it wasn’t till I noticed later on that the songs before this year in my life was kinda like….full of meanings and life metaphors for me personally.
The songs were more rich in meanings….melodic and not to mention….personally evergreen. I know this sorta subjective…but hey….it is my blog…I can talk whatever I can :P. Each songs…has its distinct story on that particular life phase. It’s not like the songs after 2004 do not have these qualities…but I just personally feel they have lost the personal touch to me (well…except the two artists I mention above ^^).
Ah yeah…back to the metaphors…well…It’s obviously too much for to say in what metaphors they are….but in short….it gave me the nostalgic feeling of naivity….innocence….childish….rebellion….mischief….idealism….youth….fantasy and day dreaming….long list ain’t it :P…but yeah….that’s what been popping out in my mind recently.
Though you can feel this sensation as you countlessly go thru the songs anytime you want….to bad….its just a mere memento….a symbolism of what’s happened. The best for now is for it to be a neverending silent witness to the life journey we have gone thru….a long lasting melody that will always linger in our minds and hearts. An eternal rhyme of life for a classical story….eventually
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
The Flavor of Life
Ketika anak kecil…kita berceloteh….”enaknya yang dah besar….bisa melakukan ini itu sekehendaknya tanpa perlu disuruh-suruh…”
Ketika kita agak tua sedikit…semasa SMP….berucaplah kita…”enak ya anak SMA….hidupnya lebih fun n gawul….
Beranjak SMA….terseliplah kata2…”enaknya yang dah kuliah….hidup bebas tanpa aturan….SMA sucks…harus les sana sini biar bisa lulus UAN…>.<”
Semasa kuliah….berujarlah seseorang…”Enaknya yang dah kerja…bisa dapet duit tuk diri sendiri….kuliah bosen nih…dari kecil belajar mulu….”
Sewaktu kita dah kerja….berpikirlah kita…”Wew…kerja sibuk coy….engga ada waktu tuk refreshing…sibuk ngurusin perusahaan…
Bila anak sudah ada dan beranjak tumbuh….terlintaslah pikiran….”senangnya jadi anak kecil….engga ada beban hidup…bisa bebas berekspresi tanpa dimintai pertanggungjawaban”
So…what’s the point of all things above??
Hidup itu penuh keniscayaan….seiring kita bertambah tua…like it or not…kita akan dipaksa untuk meningkatkan tanggungjawab kita kepada diri dan orang-orang disekitar kita…cepat atau lambat hal ini akan terjadi. The only choice to not experience the above life cycle is for you to be a kid (forever) or either be an insane human without a common sense.
Time is the only wealth that we have….we always have it for the rest of our lives. Yet…as humans…we always tend to disregard it and misuse it for most of our lives. We just let time flow in our lives without knowing that every second of it is worth our lives and it’ll be asked for questioning on “that” day.
True we have to enjoy life…but it is also important that we use every second of our life for useful things…so that we don’t just moan on our lives and let things past by without a meaning. Every stage of life has its happiness and responsibility….Just be grateful and enjoy every part of it as we go through our lives.
Ketika kita agak tua sedikit…semasa SMP….berucaplah kita…”enak ya anak SMA….hidupnya lebih fun n gawul….
Beranjak SMA….terseliplah kata2…”enaknya yang dah kuliah….hidup bebas tanpa aturan….SMA sucks…harus les sana sini biar bisa lulus UAN…>.<”
Semasa kuliah….berujarlah seseorang…”Enaknya yang dah kerja…bisa dapet duit tuk diri sendiri….kuliah bosen nih…dari kecil belajar mulu….”
Sewaktu kita dah kerja….berpikirlah kita…”Wew…kerja sibuk coy….engga ada waktu tuk refreshing…sibuk ngurusin perusahaan…
Bila anak sudah ada dan beranjak tumbuh….terlintaslah pikiran….”senangnya jadi anak kecil….engga ada beban hidup…bisa bebas berekspresi tanpa dimintai pertanggungjawaban”
So…what’s the point of all things above??
Hidup itu penuh keniscayaan….seiring kita bertambah tua…like it or not…kita akan dipaksa untuk meningkatkan tanggungjawab kita kepada diri dan orang-orang disekitar kita…cepat atau lambat hal ini akan terjadi. The only choice to not experience the above life cycle is for you to be a kid (forever) or either be an insane human without a common sense.
Time is the only wealth that we have….we always have it for the rest of our lives. Yet…as humans…we always tend to disregard it and misuse it for most of our lives. We just let time flow in our lives without knowing that every second of it is worth our lives and it’ll be asked for questioning on “that” day.
True we have to enjoy life…but it is also important that we use every second of our life for useful things…so that we don’t just moan on our lives and let things past by without a meaning. Every stage of life has its happiness and responsibility….Just be grateful and enjoy every part of it as we go through our lives.
Plan A . . .B . . . and O
What would you think when reading those words above? Blood category? Or maybe go a bit racist by thinking its a saying for certain people...nope...nope...see it from a broader perspective ;)
It’s more on how we plan things. As humans, tentunya kita akan melakukan banyak hal terkait perencanaan, entah itu yang bersifat pribadi maupun dalam skala yang lebih besar seperti melibatkan orang lain atau suatu organisasi. Bagaimanapun, perencanaan merupakan suatu aktivitas inheren yang niscaya akan dilakukan manusia manapun dalam hidupnya. Rasanya hanya anak kecil dan orang gila saja yang tidak melakukan perencanaan, why?coz hanya merekalah yang bias menjalani hidup secara carefree tanpa beban utnuk memikirkan hidupnya.
Nevertheless,it is this one thing that also makes humans sometimes suffer and agonize due to the fact that planning is not something as easy as flipping your hand. Perencanaan, walo secara dasarnya melibatkan suatu logika berpikir, namun dalam praktiknya seringkali harus bersentuhan dengan variabel2 eksternal lainnya yang pada akhirnya sedikit banyak akan “menyesuaikan” planning ini sehingga mencapai suatu bentuk akhir yang suka engga suka akan diterima oleh perencana yang bersangkutan.
For example, I’ll start of with something simple. Kita menginginkan ssuatu. Mungkin kalo itu hanya suatu pikiran belaka, itu hanya sekedar wacana atau angan belaka. Tapi ketika kita sudah melakukan dan menuliskan langkah2 yang akan kita lakukan tuk meraih hal itu, maka itu sudah menjadi sebuah rencana. The problem starts here in fact...bahwa rencana akan senantiasa berevolusi mencapai bentuk paling pragmatis kemudian.
It is because the ones who executes plans are humans themselves, it is what makes plans often have to accommodate, adapt and change to the never ending surroundings that comes around us. Sesempurna apapun plan kita, sifat hidup sendiri yang tidak pernah pasti dan penuh ketidaktahuan akan apa yang kan terjadi membuat perencanaan harus senantiasa berubah2.
I’m not saying here that plans should not have a fix things on how to achieve what they want, I’m just stating that plans cannot be made rigidly and neglect the fact that it is only a mere hope written with its steps to gain it. Especially when it interacts with the variable of human being....it then reacts as some sort of chemical reaction...just coping to find the best outcome.
Though you have all these back up plans from A to...ah..just name the alphabet you want...but if you put out the variable of human and life destinies....it again ends up as just a mere thought. There are no such things as a perfect plan. Like in statistics...you can only achieve a degree of trustworthiness until 99%. Where does the last 1% go? Like it or not...it goes back to this one divine decision from the heavens on how it would turn out to be. It is this particular 1 % that makes a plan to be made or even completely broken at all.
That’s why in my religion, we are always to told to not only plan well for everything we do , but also never stop to pray to the heavens for that plan to succeed. Nevertheless, less people understand the significance this 1%. It is as if as long we plan the best, then all good things would come fourth. Unfortunately, life not as logical as that.
Aside the fact that there is this 1%, we also must remember that humans too play part in adjusting our plan. It’s not like we live in a vacuum, where we can just execute any plan without taking into considerations the interactions we have with other persons. Since we live in a society that forces us to interact with all sorts of persons, then there would obviously be a high chance for any plans to change.
But hey…don’t worry….that’s why nowadays they have what they call the science of management. Basically the art of dealing, interacting and arranging the acts of people, this science has really come in handy the last couple of ages and help gear up planning to a different level and erase the hardships that were first thought to hinder a planning completely. The downside is that this is not completely a magic tool that can help cut off the bad side of things…management science still has a long way to go in this part.
With all the explanations above, I’ld reckon myself to be qualified to write a decent book on planning in management :D, however, I just wrote this out of experience, past and recent. My life until now has pretty much thought me that planning is so important, that we should never ever dare to dream for something good unless we have prepared something to gain that thing. Or else, it’ll just end up as mere dreams. Back then…I did live on plans…but most of them were just short to middle term plans. Most of all, they pretty much lacked the element of synchronization.
It wasn’t till I moved to Perth that I started to think of a life long plan for the remainder of my life. It really sounded great, but in fact it is quite the challenging task to do. By this point that I realized, a life long plan should take into account all sorts of things, the good and bad aspects of life. You just cannot deduce that everything is gonna happen coz life is also full of ups and downs. In short, the plan should be prepared for any worst case scenarios.
But when we talk about preparing for the worst, this is also another factor that makes planning furthermore costly and tedious. The fact that we have to prepare for the worst means that we have to do all sorts of things to get ourselves prepared, and this would obviously hit our pocket hard. There are many life examples on this to mention, like savings, insurances and investing. Basically these activities are done to prepare our life for any upcoming hardships that would come by. It would be wonderful if we could just focus life on what we really want to do and plan without having to bother on the backup plans needed for safe beings, but this kind of situation rarely manifest itself into ones life.
Being prepared would also mean that we should have the ability to predict and determine what parts of our life that contribute to the uncertainty. Its not always about finding from the views of others, but identifying ourselves is one step to start this thing. Like a saying…if you can know yourself…then you would know the world….everything starts from us…then we spread things outward. I guess that’s all for now….don’t wanna to talk too much on this matter as I’m afraid it could bite me one day if I just speak and do nothing bout it myself.
PS: for those who really know me….they would have guessed the hidden meaning of this blog’s title :P….yup…..;)
It’s more on how we plan things. As humans, tentunya kita akan melakukan banyak hal terkait perencanaan, entah itu yang bersifat pribadi maupun dalam skala yang lebih besar seperti melibatkan orang lain atau suatu organisasi. Bagaimanapun, perencanaan merupakan suatu aktivitas inheren yang niscaya akan dilakukan manusia manapun dalam hidupnya. Rasanya hanya anak kecil dan orang gila saja yang tidak melakukan perencanaan, why?coz hanya merekalah yang bias menjalani hidup secara carefree tanpa beban utnuk memikirkan hidupnya.
Nevertheless,it is this one thing that also makes humans sometimes suffer and agonize due to the fact that planning is not something as easy as flipping your hand. Perencanaan, walo secara dasarnya melibatkan suatu logika berpikir, namun dalam praktiknya seringkali harus bersentuhan dengan variabel2 eksternal lainnya yang pada akhirnya sedikit banyak akan “menyesuaikan” planning ini sehingga mencapai suatu bentuk akhir yang suka engga suka akan diterima oleh perencana yang bersangkutan.
For example, I’ll start of with something simple. Kita menginginkan ssuatu. Mungkin kalo itu hanya suatu pikiran belaka, itu hanya sekedar wacana atau angan belaka. Tapi ketika kita sudah melakukan dan menuliskan langkah2 yang akan kita lakukan tuk meraih hal itu, maka itu sudah menjadi sebuah rencana. The problem starts here in fact...bahwa rencana akan senantiasa berevolusi mencapai bentuk paling pragmatis kemudian.
It is because the ones who executes plans are humans themselves, it is what makes plans often have to accommodate, adapt and change to the never ending surroundings that comes around us. Sesempurna apapun plan kita, sifat hidup sendiri yang tidak pernah pasti dan penuh ketidaktahuan akan apa yang kan terjadi membuat perencanaan harus senantiasa berubah2.
I’m not saying here that plans should not have a fix things on how to achieve what they want, I’m just stating that plans cannot be made rigidly and neglect the fact that it is only a mere hope written with its steps to gain it. Especially when it interacts with the variable of human being....it then reacts as some sort of chemical reaction...just coping to find the best outcome.
Though you have all these back up plans from A to...ah..just name the alphabet you want...but if you put out the variable of human and life destinies....it again ends up as just a mere thought. There are no such things as a perfect plan. Like in statistics...you can only achieve a degree of trustworthiness until 99%. Where does the last 1% go? Like it or not...it goes back to this one divine decision from the heavens on how it would turn out to be. It is this particular 1 % that makes a plan to be made or even completely broken at all.
That’s why in my religion, we are always to told to not only plan well for everything we do , but also never stop to pray to the heavens for that plan to succeed. Nevertheless, less people understand the significance this 1%. It is as if as long we plan the best, then all good things would come fourth. Unfortunately, life not as logical as that.
Aside the fact that there is this 1%, we also must remember that humans too play part in adjusting our plan. It’s not like we live in a vacuum, where we can just execute any plan without taking into considerations the interactions we have with other persons. Since we live in a society that forces us to interact with all sorts of persons, then there would obviously be a high chance for any plans to change.
But hey…don’t worry….that’s why nowadays they have what they call the science of management. Basically the art of dealing, interacting and arranging the acts of people, this science has really come in handy the last couple of ages and help gear up planning to a different level and erase the hardships that were first thought to hinder a planning completely. The downside is that this is not completely a magic tool that can help cut off the bad side of things…management science still has a long way to go in this part.
With all the explanations above, I’ld reckon myself to be qualified to write a decent book on planning in management :D, however, I just wrote this out of experience, past and recent. My life until now has pretty much thought me that planning is so important, that we should never ever dare to dream for something good unless we have prepared something to gain that thing. Or else, it’ll just end up as mere dreams. Back then…I did live on plans…but most of them were just short to middle term plans. Most of all, they pretty much lacked the element of synchronization.
It wasn’t till I moved to Perth that I started to think of a life long plan for the remainder of my life. It really sounded great, but in fact it is quite the challenging task to do. By this point that I realized, a life long plan should take into account all sorts of things, the good and bad aspects of life. You just cannot deduce that everything is gonna happen coz life is also full of ups and downs. In short, the plan should be prepared for any worst case scenarios.
But when we talk about preparing for the worst, this is also another factor that makes planning furthermore costly and tedious. The fact that we have to prepare for the worst means that we have to do all sorts of things to get ourselves prepared, and this would obviously hit our pocket hard. There are many life examples on this to mention, like savings, insurances and investing. Basically these activities are done to prepare our life for any upcoming hardships that would come by. It would be wonderful if we could just focus life on what we really want to do and plan without having to bother on the backup plans needed for safe beings, but this kind of situation rarely manifest itself into ones life.
Being prepared would also mean that we should have the ability to predict and determine what parts of our life that contribute to the uncertainty. Its not always about finding from the views of others, but identifying ourselves is one step to start this thing. Like a saying…if you can know yourself…then you would know the world….everything starts from us…then we spread things outward. I guess that’s all for now….don’t wanna to talk too much on this matter as I’m afraid it could bite me one day if I just speak and do nothing bout it myself.
PS: for those who really know me….they would have guessed the hidden meaning of this blog’s title :P….yup…..;)
Saturday, October 03, 2009
Twilight
No….it’s not about Edward Cullen…nope….I haven’t even read the novel….and nope…I’m not even looking at a sunset…Its more into my life and my thoughts about it lately. Ini tidak terjadi begitu saja…tapi setelah melalu berbagai pengamatan…pikiran dan perenungan…baik atas sekarang, masa lalu dan mempertimbangkan masa depan.
Kapan ya I had this thought…bisa jadi dalam seminggu ini….sungguh…usahaku tuk menikmati liburan dalam “pengasingan diri” menjadikan ku tuk dikit reminiscing back towards what I’ve been doing until this point. Aslinya sih hanya tuk introspeksi diri atas progress kuliah dan hidupku selama semester ini…but then…it seemed to go way back beyond what I intended to be.
Sudah kusinggung di beberap postingku yg lalu kalo aq sedang menjalani masa2 terakhirku di ozzy. Cukup menyesakkan sih aslinya…apalgi mengingat fakta bahwa aq telah berkoar akan apply PR dsini…but then…kita berencana…Allah menetapkan lain. It turned out my parents didn’t have the needed funds to help sponsor me to apply PR…so then there goes one’s dream of making a future for himself.
Sempet kepikiran tuk mendayagunakan tabunganku sendiri…bisa aja sih…apalagi dah kerja sejauh ini…I thought…why not?but again…setekah dipikir masak2….engga lah….bukannya aq g bsa memaksakan diri…but terdapat banyak pertimbangan2 tuk melakukan itu…obviously…dengan tabunganku itu..aq bsa melakukan banyak hal di indo dripada sekedar menghabiskannya tuk membiayai aplikasi PR.
So there…vanished one of my hopes…Namun demikian…bukan hal ini kok yg jadi pokok renungan ku…itu hanyalah salah satu yg alhamdulillah sejauh ini telah ku ikhlaskan…walo tetep meninggalkan semacem sesak klo dipikirkan terlalu mendalam lagi :P. But eniwei…I’ld like to go on some of the main reasons on why this blog was written in the end.
It’s more on the fact that I’ve looked back upon my old blog. Rasanya bener deh….nano2 banget….kadang aq bisa ketawa…senyum sendiri…termenung….membuat mata berkaca….heran dan hal2 lainnya ketika membaca kembali catatan perjalanan hidupku sejak akhir 2006 sampe saat ini. Sungguh…ketika aku membaca semua itu kembali….betapa aku mendapati suatu transformasi diriku….
Transformasi macam apakah?hmmm….a lot to say…but hey…lets start of one by one ;). Pertama….aq mendapati bahwa nuansa hidupku kala itu seungguh carefree…hidup tanpa beban…hidup seakan masa depan telah ditetapkan…semua itu tercemin dari gaya bahasa dan penceritaan di blog yang begitu adanya dan mengalir begitu saja. Aku engga bisa menyalahkan hal ini karena bagaimanapun itu merupakan konsekuensi hidupku saat itu yang emang cenderung sante akibat engga menjalani lagi kuliah rutin, Cuma ngerjain skripsi dan sedang menunggu masa2 ke ozzy.
But things took a turn once I moved to Perth. Slowly but sure, my writings were movings towards those of a logical and rational man. Tulisanku kudapati berkurang nuansa sante…dan berganti menjadi semacam tulisan yang menggambarkan progress hari2ku di Perth. Dan semua itu juga diikuti dengan berkurangnya suasana cair dan sante yg ada di tulisan2ku yang dulu. Emang sih…semua itu karena aktivitasku yg tidak lagi sante dan berganti menjadi kuliah rutin yang bebannya sungguh beda dengan kul di Indo. Walo aku tetep berusaha menulis hal2 yg lain disela2 senggangku…tapi hal2 semacam itu mulai jarang….tenggelam di antara keluh kesah seorang pengelana hidup….
Things took another change with the coming of facebook. Kali ini…kumulai melakukan tulisan2 kecil…to dalem bahasanya fesbuk…”notes”. Namanya juga notes…cuma tulisan2 kecil yang engga sepanjang blog. But during the times of me writing those notes…I just felt my mind flying freely and be able to writ done things shortly but full of metaphors and unusuall jokes asides life paradoxes. Dunno how I did it….Is it coz of the fact that I was kinda re-adapting to my studies after a too long vacation?That could be the fact if I look at recent blogs which have become again much like the blogs in the mid 2008.
By taking a look at my writing…it’s obvious that I’ve been from a carefree person to a person more into plans….rationality and logics in most of life. Hilang sudah rasa2 sante dan bebas sebagaimana hidup sebelum ke ozzy…tergantikan oleh nuansa tugas….planning dan eksekusi. Good or bad?hmm….itu yang harus dicari tahu berikutnya nih….
Carefree…well….sungguh aku merindukan suasana macem ini…ketika kita bisa melakukan segala sesuatu sesuai irama kita sesuka hati. But then….semua itu hilang ditelan bumi seiring datangnya komitmen2 hdup lainnya yang menuntut tanggung jawab dan perhatian penuh setiap waktu. Entah kapan lagi aku bisa menjalani hidup yang carefree…maybe dna mungkin hanya ketika aku mendapatkan suatu liburan yang panjang…,but hey….engga juga sih…coz skalipun ada liburan panjang….rasanya engga lagi aq bsa menikmati nuansa carefree itu kembali....
Why is that….I think it’s obviously the fact that as I get older….anda akan semakin dipaksa tuk berusaha melakukan sesuatu yang berguna dalam hidup anda daripada sekedar menghabiskan waktu seenaknya sendiri tanpa adanya beban…itu yang aku rasakan…dank arena ketidakmampuan melakukan ssuatu yang berarti itulah akhirnya jadi salah satu penyebab rasa menyesalku ketika liburan panjang terakhir…that is why I’m planning to put my next last long vacation to good use…to work and travel….to make things worthwhile…
But then…if I take a look at current things where life is pretty much planned….logic and more rational…I just cannot help thinking that I do lack the element of surprise…the need to do somethings unplanned and just let life go as it is according to your surroundings. I’l dlove to….but again…if I do so…I also cannot help remember the fact that my presence here is to regain my lost time.
For those who did follow my blog until now…you might have noticed that I once in a while mention about “lost time”. It’ just my saying of my bachelor days in where I just let life flow as it is without doing any proper planning for my life. The result?I managed to not only secure a bringhter future I could have gained….i also missed times and chances of prosperity and fortunes that I could have gained.
It’s not I’m disregarding the moments and experience I’ve gained from those times…it’s just that I feel that I have to make up for those times I’ve disregarded….not only coz I’m in ozzy which would look like a chance in a lifetime…but it is also the last chance to prove my worth to the others around me…those that have been watching upon me and placed there hopes on.
So in short….i cannot live the life of full carefreeness again…but yet I need to loosen up and enjoy my life of studies here…so…I guess it’s a matter of doing things in moderation hey…Living life in a planned way while also at the sametime feeling carefree and without any burden is not something you can do overnight….butuh waktu tuk melakukannya perlahan2 sehingga bsa mendapatkan cara yang tepat….hope I can do this ;)
For every twilight….there is always a sunrise towards a (hopefully) better future…that is what I’m always hoping for…
Kapan ya I had this thought…bisa jadi dalam seminggu ini….sungguh…usahaku tuk menikmati liburan dalam “pengasingan diri” menjadikan ku tuk dikit reminiscing back towards what I’ve been doing until this point. Aslinya sih hanya tuk introspeksi diri atas progress kuliah dan hidupku selama semester ini…but then…it seemed to go way back beyond what I intended to be.
Sudah kusinggung di beberap postingku yg lalu kalo aq sedang menjalani masa2 terakhirku di ozzy. Cukup menyesakkan sih aslinya…apalgi mengingat fakta bahwa aq telah berkoar akan apply PR dsini…but then…kita berencana…Allah menetapkan lain. It turned out my parents didn’t have the needed funds to help sponsor me to apply PR…so then there goes one’s dream of making a future for himself.
Sempet kepikiran tuk mendayagunakan tabunganku sendiri…bisa aja sih…apalagi dah kerja sejauh ini…I thought…why not?but again…setekah dipikir masak2….engga lah….bukannya aq g bsa memaksakan diri…but terdapat banyak pertimbangan2 tuk melakukan itu…obviously…dengan tabunganku itu..aq bsa melakukan banyak hal di indo dripada sekedar menghabiskannya tuk membiayai aplikasi PR.
So there…vanished one of my hopes…Namun demikian…bukan hal ini kok yg jadi pokok renungan ku…itu hanyalah salah satu yg alhamdulillah sejauh ini telah ku ikhlaskan…walo tetep meninggalkan semacem sesak klo dipikirkan terlalu mendalam lagi :P. But eniwei…I’ld like to go on some of the main reasons on why this blog was written in the end.
It’s more on the fact that I’ve looked back upon my old blog. Rasanya bener deh….nano2 banget….kadang aq bisa ketawa…senyum sendiri…termenung….membuat mata berkaca….heran dan hal2 lainnya ketika membaca kembali catatan perjalanan hidupku sejak akhir 2006 sampe saat ini. Sungguh…ketika aku membaca semua itu kembali….betapa aku mendapati suatu transformasi diriku….
Transformasi macam apakah?hmmm….a lot to say…but hey…lets start of one by one ;). Pertama….aq mendapati bahwa nuansa hidupku kala itu seungguh carefree…hidup tanpa beban…hidup seakan masa depan telah ditetapkan…semua itu tercemin dari gaya bahasa dan penceritaan di blog yang begitu adanya dan mengalir begitu saja. Aku engga bisa menyalahkan hal ini karena bagaimanapun itu merupakan konsekuensi hidupku saat itu yang emang cenderung sante akibat engga menjalani lagi kuliah rutin, Cuma ngerjain skripsi dan sedang menunggu masa2 ke ozzy.
But things took a turn once I moved to Perth. Slowly but sure, my writings were movings towards those of a logical and rational man. Tulisanku kudapati berkurang nuansa sante…dan berganti menjadi semacam tulisan yang menggambarkan progress hari2ku di Perth. Dan semua itu juga diikuti dengan berkurangnya suasana cair dan sante yg ada di tulisan2ku yang dulu. Emang sih…semua itu karena aktivitasku yg tidak lagi sante dan berganti menjadi kuliah rutin yang bebannya sungguh beda dengan kul di Indo. Walo aku tetep berusaha menulis hal2 yg lain disela2 senggangku…tapi hal2 semacam itu mulai jarang….tenggelam di antara keluh kesah seorang pengelana hidup….
Things took another change with the coming of facebook. Kali ini…kumulai melakukan tulisan2 kecil…to dalem bahasanya fesbuk…”notes”. Namanya juga notes…cuma tulisan2 kecil yang engga sepanjang blog. But during the times of me writing those notes…I just felt my mind flying freely and be able to writ done things shortly but full of metaphors and unusuall jokes asides life paradoxes. Dunno how I did it….Is it coz of the fact that I was kinda re-adapting to my studies after a too long vacation?That could be the fact if I look at recent blogs which have become again much like the blogs in the mid 2008.
By taking a look at my writing…it’s obvious that I’ve been from a carefree person to a person more into plans….rationality and logics in most of life. Hilang sudah rasa2 sante dan bebas sebagaimana hidup sebelum ke ozzy…tergantikan oleh nuansa tugas….planning dan eksekusi. Good or bad?hmm….itu yang harus dicari tahu berikutnya nih….
Carefree…well….sungguh aku merindukan suasana macem ini…ketika kita bisa melakukan segala sesuatu sesuai irama kita sesuka hati. But then….semua itu hilang ditelan bumi seiring datangnya komitmen2 hdup lainnya yang menuntut tanggung jawab dan perhatian penuh setiap waktu. Entah kapan lagi aku bisa menjalani hidup yang carefree…maybe dna mungkin hanya ketika aku mendapatkan suatu liburan yang panjang…,but hey….engga juga sih…coz skalipun ada liburan panjang….rasanya engga lagi aq bsa menikmati nuansa carefree itu kembali....
Why is that….I think it’s obviously the fact that as I get older….anda akan semakin dipaksa tuk berusaha melakukan sesuatu yang berguna dalam hidup anda daripada sekedar menghabiskan waktu seenaknya sendiri tanpa adanya beban…itu yang aku rasakan…dank arena ketidakmampuan melakukan ssuatu yang berarti itulah akhirnya jadi salah satu penyebab rasa menyesalku ketika liburan panjang terakhir…that is why I’m planning to put my next last long vacation to good use…to work and travel….to make things worthwhile…
But then…if I take a look at current things where life is pretty much planned….logic and more rational…I just cannot help thinking that I do lack the element of surprise…the need to do somethings unplanned and just let life go as it is according to your surroundings. I’l dlove to….but again…if I do so…I also cannot help remember the fact that my presence here is to regain my lost time.
For those who did follow my blog until now…you might have noticed that I once in a while mention about “lost time”. It’ just my saying of my bachelor days in where I just let life flow as it is without doing any proper planning for my life. The result?I managed to not only secure a bringhter future I could have gained….i also missed times and chances of prosperity and fortunes that I could have gained.
It’s not I’m disregarding the moments and experience I’ve gained from those times…it’s just that I feel that I have to make up for those times I’ve disregarded….not only coz I’m in ozzy which would look like a chance in a lifetime…but it is also the last chance to prove my worth to the others around me…those that have been watching upon me and placed there hopes on.
So in short….i cannot live the life of full carefreeness again…but yet I need to loosen up and enjoy my life of studies here…so…I guess it’s a matter of doing things in moderation hey…Living life in a planned way while also at the sametime feeling carefree and without any burden is not something you can do overnight….butuh waktu tuk melakukannya perlahan2 sehingga bsa mendapatkan cara yang tepat….hope I can do this ;)
For every twilight….there is always a sunrise towards a (hopefully) better future…that is what I’m always hoping for…
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