Life is a rollercoaster

. . . its bout being tight . . . full of rules and traps . . . you bet you could’ve had some time to breath

. . . its more horrid . . . . as if the storms had been cursed on you . . . but then, the sun suddenly shines after the storms

. . . . you’re left stranded . . . with all the sunshine . . . its turns out to be a fatamorgana . . . leaving you with nothin to do

. . . . your eyes are open to dreams . . . but thunder ripts apart and unleashes a volley of possibilities

. . . going deeper inside, questioning the truths and deceits on what may have sprouted, straightening things up one at a time

. . . face the phase of new lights, that’ll then serve to speeding up the environment and pace round us

It’s all bout shifting gears, back and forth, kicking the throttle and brakes swiftly, while thinking what needs to be finished of first . . . . as you up and downs in seconds

A waiting of the 1st year :D

Hahahahaha . . . . stessed out in work. Just spending our weekend to mybe Bandng a the farthest. You world suddenly feel dull and colored in black and white. You just then think of the time when the 1st year has passed n May later on. All the possibilities . . . all the dreams . . . all the ecstasy just flows into your bloodflow. As this title is dedicated to, lets see the places where I can go and get myself lost after quite some while . . .

1. Singapore
I know it kinda feels cliche or un nationalistic to go to this island country. But I swear that seeing some order in somewhere not Indonesian would really soothe up my mind. Besides, its only an hour away with just a few hundred thousands if u manage to get a promo ticket.

For me personally, its not bout the shopping (where most people are hyped up) nor the foods (Indonesia has better variety), its just simple talking a stroll done the roads and feel the fresh air once in a while. Not to mention stopping by any bookstore and browse for some titles that u might not see in your home city.

2. Malang
Dear sweat ngalam, never could I forget u. Despite the fact that my times in Malang so on would be li’ll bit dull since friends have scattered all over Indonesia, its always nice to come back. Feel the cool mornings and surroundings . . . it just rejuvenates your soul.

But lying in home wouldn’t be bad as there’s always something for me to do back here. It’s usually the small tiny works that are often left due to work that gets me worked up he. Oh yeah . . . there are also my “kids” waiting anxiously for me, letting me playing with them after months of absence.But most of all, its all bout seeing my family here, having a chit chat about life and all unimportant things :P.

3. Yogyakarta
Here, its obviously bout spending my time with my love. But un like usual visits, I’ld really love to go see some places outside the downtown. Even it takes to rent a vehicle, I’ld reckon it’ll be great seeing places that haven’t been visited for a long time or those that I haven’t visited yet.

4. Perth
Hahaha . . . the ultimate place to visit. Its just that I feel indebted to this city. Having the feeling to come see her every once in a while and say hello. Besides, it is this city that have brought me countless memories and experience in such a short time. Just for old times sake . . .

A week full of SHIT!!

Moanday . . . well, start of a week where things just don’t start of your way. When you have to do things against your will. Times where you just have to grumble upon the stuffs being thrown at you.

X-cuseday . . . the miserables continue . . . this time, make up some things to cover up for the mess that has happened. Be it true or false, but the world demands a scape goat or some sugarcoating for all the stains resulted.

Waitnesday . . . and all of a sudden, you’ve been left stranded longin for something you don’t even know its worth waitin for. Left behind and alone . . . . just holdin on . . . just holding on . . .

Thirstday . . . after tire waitin, your left limping and dead thirsty. Draggin your almost dead body and craving for an almost impossible oasis just for a gulp of water . . . . or maybe its just something more abstract that we are thirstful of?

Friedday . . . after being almost dead, your now hot heated being steamed to death due to the intense heat of the world that cooks you till ready to be served to those who have the heart to eat you alive . . . .

Shatteredday . . . .aaaarrrrgggghhhhhhhhhhhh . . . . . eaten alive, next thing you’ll find is yourself shattered to piece in a “I don’t know who’s stomach is this” condition. Finding your hand, legs, head and body shattered all over the place, kind feels like you were in hell (or have we arrived there yet?)

Shunnedday . . . . Aaaahhhh . . . .last of the tortures . . . left alone in solitude in some sort of a 2mx2mx2m room . . . enough to leave you out cramped while you squeeze yourself in a miserable space

Hahahaha . . . .jangan khawatir . . . in bukan adegan film atau kejadian nyata yang gw alami. Hanya sekedar khayalan gilak bagaimana jika kita memandang tiap2 hari dengan negative thinking. Those things above might sprout in head. But please, life isn’t as miserable as what I’ve depicted :D

(Un)Wanted

Wanted? Or maybe in fact really unwanted for me . . . anyway . . . here are a list of some things, or items to be precise, that’s been bothering my mind for the past moments. As if there’s been a devil incepted to my soul, endlessly prompting me to burn my wallet and get these things . . . here they are . . . . .

1. Be Be . . . BB . . The Blackberry
Nope, it ain’t some sort of fruit or a juice. It’s nowadays one of those handheld gadgets that you see people hold in their palms every second. Basically a phone, or maybe a smart phone if you wanna keep up 2 date, but what makes it uber famous (in Indonesia) is because of its dedicated Blackberry Messenger thru a sole internet link. Why people are so drooling for this is because they say it’ll keep you in contact every mili second. Add it with a good internet line, you’re pretty much in a virtual neighborhood.

And the fact most of my mates have this puny little thingy, they keep roaring the lame fact that it’ll keep you up in the vibes. Yeah . . . like hell I’ll fall for that. But what’s really itching my mind is the undeniable fact that it gives you unlimited access to the internet (if you use a full package that is). Another thing that has really bothering my faith . . . . T_T.

Hence, up to to this very moment, I’m still clinging on to not buying that gadget. Not only do I lack the money needed so, but I also feel that my current activities haven’t called for such need. So to me . . . it’ll still be a fruit for me, just let it be :P

2. Android Smartphone
Compared to a BB, I’ld really love to buy this one. But then . . . . the lack of money forbids me so. Hahaha . . . and to make things worst, I been buying recent tabloids and magazine on cellphone, making me fantasize on having one >.<

What makes it soooo lovable. Okay . . . it features the android OS itself, which as they say, boast the flexibility to do anything to your phone (due to its linux basis). Next is the availability of having tons of software to customize your phone as you wish. What next?eeerrrr . . . . . . . . . i think its again about the techs itself, boasting the latest techs and specs with it.

But then its all a dream. Coupled with the fact that I still do love my current phone makes me thinking twice on do I really need an Android yet???


3. Credit Card
Ahaaa . . . one of those smart yet devilish cards on earth. Yes it saves you in times of empty wallet, yes it does lead you to a convenient lifestyle having many vendors and places offering discounts and cash backs if you posses a certain card, yes it does gives you the thought that you are rich, but then . . . . . . . its all just an illusion.

Its just basically a card that allows you the privilege to borrow money from your bank. But little do people nowadays realize that by possessing one, you’ld better get your cash flows on track and strict as a late payment would hit you hard wit soaring interest rates. Hence, it’ll only serve you best if you can pay your debts on time and in full payments.

In here, the problems add up, particularly coz of credit card fraud. Regardless where you use it, be it the net or in any vendors, you’re always exposed to the risk of getting your card number stolen. If so, just be prepared for some unwanted usage of your card which might prompt you to cancel your card.
End note, if you decide to have one, makes sure you can manage your money first and have a healthy lifestyle as this card could be both you saviour and devil at the same time.

4. Bigger internet access
Huaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh . . . . . . i wonder why the internet connection in Indonesia SUCKS !! Really makes me miss my times back abroad where I had an abundant amount of bandwith at my disposal T_T.

But thinking of having a bigger access would really blow my wallet. Not only that, you still suffer from the possibility that your speed is not as they promoted in the ads. Therefor, I’m again stuck on how to keep myself connected to the world.

Again, if there were one, which can be searched for, my account keeps reminding me of how low I am on my cash flow each month if I force myself >.<. Thus, its all a in the end, just a dream of something that I hope to have. Better start of by being thankfull for the things I have even though its the least rather than not having anything at all . . . . .

Heads up high

Life is as it is . . . bright . . . dull . . . dark . . .or colorful

It goes back to what glasses we use . . .

Nevertheless, our age would always be a rainbow, shining thru after the rain

They will sometimes be cold, tough, and sometimes frightening

But worry not love, you’re not alone . . . . as we humans are meant to be together

Names may be shouted on us . . . things could be thrown to faces . . . or even stabbed from behind

Fear not dear . . . believe in Karma, and let the heavens do their job, for our lives are too precious for heavens work

Pray for light and forgiveness to be bestowed upon them while we go on thru life

It’s not bout looks . . . its takes heart and mind to whether the journey thru this mundane world, as it’ll wind away and show the eternity of ones soul

Road could lead astray . . . and it would be our belief that’ll keep us on track
Heads up . . . proud enough and smile to the world, for we have got to this moment

Look ever forward . . . see the promised future that we’ve both envisioned, and race thru all things till the heaven’s ring by

Our Nexus

You laugh . . . I laugh . . .

You cry . . . I cry . . .

You moan . . . I listen . . .

You fall . . . I bring you up . . .

You share . . . we enjoy . . .

You astray . . . I remind . . .

You silence . . . I ask why?

You dream . . . we vision

You smile . . . we love . . .

Our hearts intertwined with each other, makes you also do the same with me

Thru tears, laughs and dreams we’ve shared together, we are visioning an endless nexus, unbreakable ever

The thorns would always bite us . . . but it’ll be us to tirelessly grab our hands and go thru it unscathed

It doesn’t always need logic . . . just complement it with our hearts and sense, hence countless possibilities are em bowed to us

Can’t wait to make all this official . . . waiting for the heavens to lay their greetings on us :)

The Extinct~Manga

Graphic novels . . . . or manga as they say in nihongo. I bet, every people nowadays have at least read a manga once. To good to be true, the magic of reading a manga, where you can choose your desired title, really does leave you stunned and leaving wanting to wait for the next chapter.

Practically in Indonesia, graphic novels are from Japan, the percentage is around 97% I believe. It was only recently that those from Korea and the US tried to go thru the Indonesian market offering their variety of titles and genres. Regardless so, each every one of them has their own market.

Back to myself, I can remember reading these tiny books ever since grade 3. Back then in Singapore, it was a luxury to read such books as we had to go to Indonesia to get one that was already translated in Indonesian. I remember that one of my favorite manga was one called “Kenji”. A classic title that even manga oldschoolers till now would highly regard this title due to its story and artwork.

And as I grew older, the title’s I read expanded. But it wasn’t till my Uni days that the number of titles and my enthusiasm towards manga really exploded :P. Hundreds of titles I read and more genres I enjoyed. It surely did in someway, broaden my view of what’s happening in the world in a more surreal graphically way. And it also heightened up my interest in Japanese stuffs as almost of the titles I read where from Japan.

Not only I read them in hard copy format, I also progressed on to downloading the soft copies from the internet. With the number of titles available increasing, I slowly shifted away from my regular comic rental to self picking them from the internet. Not only its cheaper, but we also get the privileged to have them straight or sooner than waiting for the official printed version in Indonesia.

But then . . . why called it extinct? Well....pretty much due to the sudden fact that I just stopped reading them for now apparent reason. To say not reading at all would be wrong cause I do read some selected titles, just for the sake of finishing them of due to their interesting story. No apparent clear reason can be found to why I just stopped suddenly. Guess it might be the thought that I had to move on in life and do something more worthwhile.

Unlike philately where it has been dead and left in the cupboards, manga isn’t total dead to me. It’s just fading away, surely for to be extinct some day in my life. Till then, just enjoy on what’s left . . . .

The Extinct~Philately

Who doesn’t know philately? For total newbies, its practically the hobby of collecting stamps and related items pertaining to it. Though it looks boring, but honestly, it is one of the few hobbies where not only you collect items, but you also get to know all new other things as you go by. This is because stamps always depict something in them which sooner or later, would tickle our curiosity to get to know something new related to their inserted illustration.

Well, that’s enough for the introduction. Let’s start of with one my extinct pet hobbies. To say extinct means that I’ve once had a good time enjoying doing this till I suddenly stopped doing so . . . .

I can’t clearly remember since when I liked stating collection these small perforated items. Guess it was around grade 5 back then in S’pore. It escalated when I moved on living in Jakarta. During these times, I continued to a more serious level by collecting other stamp related items such as FDC’s and stamp sheets. It surely cost me a lot of money, which meant I had to keep saving to be able to get the latest item each every publishing.

By collecting them, it also meant I had to hunt for items that where rare or those that I haven’t had yet back then. And not only collecting all them, but I also had to go all the excitement of carefully covering them with protective plastics to guard them from fungi before storing them in the stamp book. To sum them up, it carefully trained my attention to detail and heart to patiently saving to get new ones.

But as they say, all good things must come to an end. The same goes for philately. My entrance to uni practically robbed my time and attention to take care of my hobby. Hence, it just faded away suddenly without saying good bye.

And now . . . the years have passed since I last brought my last stamp set. Every once in a while, it does tickle me to start collecting stamps again. This nostalgic feeling sure is lovely. But I also have to be honest with myself that current conditions require me to be pragmatic and use my money for better stuffs now and later. Therefore, my dearest collections would pretty be much kept safely in my cupboard, far from light and fungi that could destroy them . . . .

Jugglin

Come on . . . who doesn’t know juggling?you know . . . those kind of things clowns throw and catch at the circuses, throwing 2 till 4 objects, catching and throwing them simultaneously in a steady rhythm. Such entertaining feat at the circuses, little known by us, is somethin, we humans, often long for in our life?

You meab we long for throw and catching items like what those clowns do???nope2 . . . nai2 . . tidak2 . . .it’s not bout the throwing, but it’s all about how we can handling various things in life in a steady rhythm, without having to break any one of what we handle. Jeeezzz...sure sounds tough eh?

Basically, its all bout multitasking. One simple word that sounds easy, but in reality, even the smartest people have a bloody hard time in dealing with this. The ability to take care, handle and think at the same time on all sorts of things in life, One would really wonder, what does it take to be able to juggle all mundane aspects in life?Is there any cheat on being able to synchronize our life?

It’s not all bout the brain . . . but does it need heart?Who knows?Even I’m pondering the answer till this very second. But one thing I feel, its as if we always need someone and or somethin to be precise, to constantly remind us, of what has to be shifted, back and forth, to get our life in shape.

That certain something . . . or someone, is the very fact that we humans, cannot live by ourselves. Our weak and mundane existence shall always call for a reminder, so we know that there are things that we need to take care of and not just think of ourselves.

Its the very harmony of ones self and other to be able to juggle all the things we face in life. Be it seen or not, one must be ready to face all things together . . .