Finally…the month of ramadhan has come…may we all be able to increase our prayers in this blessed month. . .
Speaking of ramadhan…things have been hot hot cool (baca : panas2 dingin) for me lately. Yeah coz there have been a mix of things that have been happening to me lately…mentally and physically.
First things first that caught my attention this month was my kneep pain that got worst. It’s been like ….2,5 years I reckon since it first happened and the past weeks before have been quite painfull for me. Therefore…it did force me to put my use of bicycles on a hiatus. However…things didn’t improve since then…it even kinda got worst due to myself still working long hours while standing.
Such ongoing pain eventually forced me to seek a professional advice from a physiotherapist. It did turn out that there was a problem with one of my muscles that wasn’t moving as it’s supposed to be. Hence…I was taught some new exercise movements to train that muscle. Also I’ll be taping my knee and foot to help restrain my knee from being moved needless due to my activities that might cause my muscles tire too quickly. Ah yeah….compressing my knee couldn’t be left aside if I was having heavy activities….
25 seems to be the number of the month…yep…you’ve guessed it right ;)….I’m turning 25 this month. A personal milestone for me for I’m gratefull for all the things I’ve had good and bad till now. All those things have shaped myself till now and I dearly hope to be even more grateful for Allah SWT for all his blessings to come.
Though it was my 25th….didn’t mean I received heaps of wishes and congratz words…in fact…only few did send me. It doesn’t mean that I’m sad by this fact…by I somehow deliberately hide my birthday on facebook so that people would have to put more effort to notice it. And it did work…:D….the result till 3 days later on…only 10 people did congratulate me. For those who did…I reckon them as my closest friends and persons to my life. But out of all those approximately ten…the most sweetest one was obviously from my girl. She surprisingly when to all the trouble of sending me a birthday gift. Hontou ni….I should be more gratefull to Allah SWT that now I have someone that really loves and care for me…may I learne and be able to care and love her more than now for she deserves the best from me .
School???Even more distressing…especially when I remember it’s the last semester…does they have to finish it of with loads and heaps of assignments??Can’t they let me off easily (maunyaaaa :D ). Well…I guess that’s not gonna happen :P. The heat of assignments has been felt ever since the second week. And due to of that….i’ve had to scrap much of my habg out times with mates….please friends….do understand the conditions I’m in…..
And to make matters worst….the even threw the bulk of assignments on the tuition free week…just like last semester….but more painful…(since when assignments hasn’t been painful ?). So…here I’am finishing of those asses while I’m supposed to be enjoying my time.
Nevertheless, it’s business as usual….gotta stomp all those laziness in heart and march forward whatever lies in front of you….just force yourway out of boredom by exploring any means available to you so that you can get your body moving to root out all those bloody assignments in way.
With the coming of Ramadan…doesn’t mean I can use it as an excuse to not do things…I even think I should make good use of it to tighten up my loose time to do more meaningful things. Besides…it is my last ramadhan here in Perth…just make it an unforgettable one ;).
Friday, August 28, 2009
Saturday, August 08, 2009
Omoi no Tenshi
Alone in the room….filled with coldness that comes to the skin
Yet you wonder weeks ago. . .where it was warmth and joy that filled your face
You grasp that mobile of yours. . .watching earnestly for that someone to say “tadaima”
Yet. . .It all ended in a wink
Days by days you walk your steps for your humble dreams
Yet. . .your steps sometimes stumble across the sheer thought of having someone to walk besides you. . .taking your hands to fulfill a dream together
It’s not an unrequited feeling. . .a lad far across the oceans holds eye sweats. . .praying. . .hoping and longing for the promised time to come again.
Nevertheless. . .hard work and honest talks are all can be done. . for it’s the one step to keep our feelings intact to one another.
Or would I rather be penniless. . .just to hear an angelic voice to soothen your dry heart ?
Yet you wonder weeks ago. . .where it was warmth and joy that filled your face
You grasp that mobile of yours. . .watching earnestly for that someone to say “tadaima”
Yet. . .It all ended in a wink
Days by days you walk your steps for your humble dreams
Yet. . .your steps sometimes stumble across the sheer thought of having someone to walk besides you. . .taking your hands to fulfill a dream together
It’s not an unrequited feeling. . .a lad far across the oceans holds eye sweats. . .praying. . .hoping and longing for the promised time to come again.
Nevertheless. . .hard work and honest talks are all can be done. . for it’s the one step to keep our feelings intact to one another.
Or would I rather be penniless. . .just to hear an angelic voice to soothen your dry heart ?
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Cruise Control
It’s been more than a week or so here since my arrival back from home. Do I miss it…surely…all those things I had good and bad…it all can be wrapped up into one word….wonderful . But yeah…here I am to finish off one step of my life for the sake of events to come.
After a week…it sure has been some sort of a struggle to adapt to the cold weather that wea quite beyond my expectations. It turned out true that the winter this year was quite odd compared to the last time. For now…I just have to cope with it while warming up my brain for the upcoming semester.
Speaking of semesters…things have turned out quite…eerrhhmm….eeettooo….normal would it be?or would I say as expected?Anyway….the start of this semester has been according to plan. Luckily I managed to get a sneak preview of my schedules last semester. Therefore I’ve managed to plan my taken units in line and all other things accordingly. However, surprises do come up and most of them came in the form of…..yep…you guessed it….ASSignments….welcome back those aching assignments that are getting harder than ever before.
Nevertheless the hardships that would come forth…I’ve made my resolution. Since it’s my last semester…I would be pretty much naïve and dumb if I were to fall in the same hole twice. Meaning that I’ve decided to start of this semester ata running pace with all the good things from previous ones continued. Being my last…I just want to make my last mark in my life…not just a mere mark…but a memorable mark… in all ways insya Allah.
When I remember this as my last semester…I suddenly remember something this afternoon. I just received a message that a couple of my best friends (finally) were able to past their thesis tests. Despite the fact that it them quite some time to finish it, I’m just plainly delighted by this news. At last, they can move on to another phase of their lives which obviously be more challenging than ever….but hey…that’s life…c’est la vie :D
By looking at this news…it just makes me even more eager to wrap this semester in the best manner possible. Surely there’s gonna be bumps here and there….but I’ve made my mind…this is my last chance to redeem myself of my lost time back then so….there’s no turning back…do this semester as if your gonna die tomorrow…as if there is no second chance for you…and as if…your whole life is on the line….
All I pray is for Allah SWT to give me the strength to face all my life struggles and make a man who is always gratefull for all bounties in this world. . . amin
After a week…it sure has been some sort of a struggle to adapt to the cold weather that wea quite beyond my expectations. It turned out true that the winter this year was quite odd compared to the last time. For now…I just have to cope with it while warming up my brain for the upcoming semester.
Speaking of semesters…things have turned out quite…eerrhhmm….eeettooo….normal would it be?or would I say as expected?Anyway….the start of this semester has been according to plan. Luckily I managed to get a sneak preview of my schedules last semester. Therefore I’ve managed to plan my taken units in line and all other things accordingly. However, surprises do come up and most of them came in the form of…..yep…you guessed it….ASSignments….welcome back those aching assignments that are getting harder than ever before.
Nevertheless the hardships that would come forth…I’ve made my resolution. Since it’s my last semester…I would be pretty much naïve and dumb if I were to fall in the same hole twice. Meaning that I’ve decided to start of this semester ata running pace with all the good things from previous ones continued. Being my last…I just want to make my last mark in my life…not just a mere mark…but a memorable mark… in all ways insya Allah.
When I remember this as my last semester…I suddenly remember something this afternoon. I just received a message that a couple of my best friends (finally) were able to past their thesis tests. Despite the fact that it them quite some time to finish it, I’m just plainly delighted by this news. At last, they can move on to another phase of their lives which obviously be more challenging than ever….but hey…that’s life…c’est la vie :D
By looking at this news…it just makes me even more eager to wrap this semester in the best manner possible. Surely there’s gonna be bumps here and there….but I’ve made my mind…this is my last chance to redeem myself of my lost time back then so….there’s no turning back…do this semester as if your gonna die tomorrow…as if there is no second chance for you…and as if…your whole life is on the line….
All I pray is for Allah SWT to give me the strength to face all my life struggles and make a man who is always gratefull for all bounties in this world. . . amin
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Carees of Venus
Standing…seeing you left my legs limp…but you walked me through the start of what I longed for
Words…stuck at my throat for a while…it just melted freely with the soothing of your touch.
Hands…little I kenw those small and cold hads were actually warm enough to keep my heart warm and brighter as days pass.
Shoulders…I hope those small ones be able to support our ties for ages to come my dear
Cheeks…tender enough to make me wanna touch those softness forever.
Regardless of what you are…I yearn and long for that promised time we had together to stay firm and strong on our ties whatever stands between us….
Till that time…all I can do is relive those moments we caressed each of our heads….to soothen the pain of distance between us.
Words…stuck at my throat for a while…it just melted freely with the soothing of your touch.
Hands…little I kenw those small and cold hads were actually warm enough to keep my heart warm and brighter as days pass.
Shoulders…I hope those small ones be able to support our ties for ages to come my dear
Cheeks…tender enough to make me wanna touch those softness forever.
Regardless of what you are…I yearn and long for that promised time we had together to stay firm and strong on our ties whatever stands between us….
Till that time…all I can do is relive those moments we caressed each of our heads….to soothen the pain of distance between us.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Saigo no...
Breakfast at Perth…lunch at Jakarta….dinner at Surabaya….Be’ol di Malang xP
Huehehehehe…Cuma sekedar pembuka dan pengingat bagaimana aq memulai liburan terkahirku sebagai mahasiswa aja kok :D. Dan tak terasa…bagiku tuk kembali ke Perth…For me…this vacation has many last’s to it…bukan mellow…tapi liburanku berikutnya tentunya tidak bisa lagi kunikmati dengan mindset yg sebebas ini.
Secara keseluruhan….aq bisa mengatakan puas atas liburanku kali ini. Walo tidak selama liburan kemaren, rasanya liburan kali ini bisa terlaksana secara efektif dan efisien. Demi tercapainya hal ini, tentunya aq belajar banyak dari pengalaman2 lalu tuk membuat liburan kali ini lebih bermakna…and…it worked :D
Dengan teman2…walo aq engga bisa menemui semua…tapi dengan yang bisa kutemui…rasanya bener2 nikmat dan lega mengatahui mereka semua baik2 dan sehat2…terutama mereka2 yg sedang berusaha menyelesaikan skripsi, lega mengetahui mereka bisa bener2 mulai giat (walo karena kepepet). Bagi yg lain…it’s good to hear they are also going on with their lives happily ;)
Tapi yang paling membuatku berkesan yakni pertemuanku dengan kekasihku. Walo Cuma 3 minggu…but the memories that were made would live forever. Pertemuanku dengannya…semakin memantapkan segala perasaanku dengannya…baik rasa sayang…rasa cinta dan rasa ingin melindunginya. Dan tentunya engga akan berhenti sampe itu aja….tapi akan menjadi basis bagi hal2 baik yang akan dating bagi kita berdua insya Allah di masa mendatang…demi hubungan kami berdua
Nilai2ku??Not bad walopun asline engga memenuhi target. Namun demikian…aq tetep merasa bersyukur atas hasil2 yg ada karena jika kuingat kembali semester lalu….sungguh kacau dan bisa mendapatkan hasil seperti sekarang…again…I must consider myself lucky. But then…tetep kedepan engga boleh kuserahkan diriku pada nasib baik belaka….hasil yg baru ini harus kujadikan dasar bagi perbaikan2 demi tercapainya hasil yg lebih baik tuk semester terakhirku di Perth.
Anyway….tomorrow…I’ll be at Perth…to start again my last struggle for the final semester. May Allah SWT give me the strength to face all challenges and hindrances that comes forth to me…and keep me a gracious person towards all things you have gave to me good and bad…amin :)
Huehehehehe…Cuma sekedar pembuka dan pengingat bagaimana aq memulai liburan terkahirku sebagai mahasiswa aja kok :D. Dan tak terasa…bagiku tuk kembali ke Perth…For me…this vacation has many last’s to it…bukan mellow…tapi liburanku berikutnya tentunya tidak bisa lagi kunikmati dengan mindset yg sebebas ini.
Secara keseluruhan….aq bisa mengatakan puas atas liburanku kali ini. Walo tidak selama liburan kemaren, rasanya liburan kali ini bisa terlaksana secara efektif dan efisien. Demi tercapainya hal ini, tentunya aq belajar banyak dari pengalaman2 lalu tuk membuat liburan kali ini lebih bermakna…and…it worked :D
Dengan teman2…walo aq engga bisa menemui semua…tapi dengan yang bisa kutemui…rasanya bener2 nikmat dan lega mengatahui mereka semua baik2 dan sehat2…terutama mereka2 yg sedang berusaha menyelesaikan skripsi, lega mengetahui mereka bisa bener2 mulai giat (walo karena kepepet). Bagi yg lain…it’s good to hear they are also going on with their lives happily ;)
Tapi yang paling membuatku berkesan yakni pertemuanku dengan kekasihku. Walo Cuma 3 minggu…but the memories that were made would live forever. Pertemuanku dengannya…semakin memantapkan segala perasaanku dengannya…baik rasa sayang…rasa cinta dan rasa ingin melindunginya. Dan tentunya engga akan berhenti sampe itu aja….tapi akan menjadi basis bagi hal2 baik yang akan dating bagi kita berdua insya Allah di masa mendatang…demi hubungan kami berdua
Nilai2ku??Not bad walopun asline engga memenuhi target. Namun demikian…aq tetep merasa bersyukur atas hasil2 yg ada karena jika kuingat kembali semester lalu….sungguh kacau dan bisa mendapatkan hasil seperti sekarang…again…I must consider myself lucky. But then…tetep kedepan engga boleh kuserahkan diriku pada nasib baik belaka….hasil yg baru ini harus kujadikan dasar bagi perbaikan2 demi tercapainya hasil yg lebih baik tuk semester terakhirku di Perth.
Anyway….tomorrow…I’ll be at Perth…to start again my last struggle for the final semester. May Allah SWT give me the strength to face all challenges and hindrances that comes forth to me…and keep me a gracious person towards all things you have gave to me good and bad…amin :)
Friday, June 26, 2009
To Move and Change
Ore wa saigo no vacation….hmm….g nyangka ini dah liburan terakhirku…dan ketika ku menapak tilas 2 liburanku sebelumnya….tampak jelas dimataku beberapa perbedaan antara sekarang dan dahulu.
On my first…well…berhubung mendadak…engga banyak yang bisa kulakukan. Dengan 12 hari….yang bisa kulakukan hanyalah hal2 penting (aslinya kebanyakan engga penting :P ) selama masa itu. But yeah...it felt fun…why?coz at that time…I could still meet and see some of my uni friends. Its as if…I was younger back then…unknowing that time that would be my last time to see most of them….
The next vacation…hmm….2,5 month…I though it was gonna be my best and memorable vacation….truth?it turned 180 degrees around and left me like a fool in the end. The fact that I inadequately thought on the worst case scenario caused myself to merely enjoy the ashes and ruins of what was left at that time….
And now…hmm…the sensation when I first stepped back home….it’s as if…I was thrown back months ago on my last vacation…It’s as if nothing changed…But yeah…maybe it was due to my mindset that I intended this vacation to finish of some unfinished business on myself. Not bad nevertheless though ;)
However…that sensation was only on my house…on the outside…I just felt that everything has changed…my neighbourhood…my town…my friends…I mean everything…and in the end…I just had this thought that I’m really some sort of country bumpkin from oz trapped in the jungle of Indonesia….
Hmmm…where shall we start…At first…I knew this last vacation…I shouldn’t be expecting much…especially in terms of meeting olf friends and so. But when I look at their facebook’s ….I just cannot help thinking that everyone is moving at such pace that I’m left behind…making me feel that am I really living life at its real???
I mean…while everyone is already working their asses to shape their dreams and future…I wonder to myself…what have I done until now to do such things…I know that study is already one step…but for others….i honestly feel that I lack all sorts of vital things to shape my dream….
And also one thing…the fact that I cannot again meet them freely as we did…it just feels kinda lonely…yeah..I do miss those times when we could just do all sorts of miscellaneous things without thinking….laughing and crying on anything…it just feels like yesterday….while the fact is that it seems like it’s already a distant past…
As for the town and society…is it just me or am I already feeling the sense of not being able to act Indonesian while I’m already in my home country. I mean…months ago on my vacation…I could still tolerate all sorts of mistakes and vices I encounter made by usual day Indonesians….now???I can’t let go of the feeling that they all seem so uneducated…
It’s not that I’m putting them on a lower level than me….its just that I wonder…am I able to fit in again to the Indonesian society once the time comes for me….I wonder…have I already been that used to the cleanliness and tidy routines I’ve been going through in ozzy…?It seems that I have in one way or another….
If there is one chance for me to finally mature and shape my self once and for all…I guess now is the time. Why so?coz it’s gonna be the last chance for me to reminisce on my past and think forward on what I’m gonna be and do. Not to mention…it’ll also serve as some sort of transition phase for me to say goodbye to all my nice and bitter times as a teenager…With being 25 this year…I’ve pretty much felt all sorts of things in life and I guess it is time to part with them in a good and peaceful manner.
For all those times…good and bad…please…shape myself to be a better man as time goes on…For life only comes once…It’s not worth throwing life away for doing things without consideration and thinking….
Towards the unknown future….
On my first…well…berhubung mendadak…engga banyak yang bisa kulakukan. Dengan 12 hari….yang bisa kulakukan hanyalah hal2 penting (aslinya kebanyakan engga penting :P ) selama masa itu. But yeah...it felt fun…why?coz at that time…I could still meet and see some of my uni friends. Its as if…I was younger back then…unknowing that time that would be my last time to see most of them….
The next vacation…hmm….2,5 month…I though it was gonna be my best and memorable vacation….truth?it turned 180 degrees around and left me like a fool in the end. The fact that I inadequately thought on the worst case scenario caused myself to merely enjoy the ashes and ruins of what was left at that time….
And now…hmm…the sensation when I first stepped back home….it’s as if…I was thrown back months ago on my last vacation…It’s as if nothing changed…But yeah…maybe it was due to my mindset that I intended this vacation to finish of some unfinished business on myself. Not bad nevertheless though ;)
However…that sensation was only on my house…on the outside…I just felt that everything has changed…my neighbourhood…my town…my friends…I mean everything…and in the end…I just had this thought that I’m really some sort of country bumpkin from oz trapped in the jungle of Indonesia….
Hmmm…where shall we start…At first…I knew this last vacation…I shouldn’t be expecting much…especially in terms of meeting olf friends and so. But when I look at their facebook’s ….I just cannot help thinking that everyone is moving at such pace that I’m left behind…making me feel that am I really living life at its real???
I mean…while everyone is already working their asses to shape their dreams and future…I wonder to myself…what have I done until now to do such things…I know that study is already one step…but for others….i honestly feel that I lack all sorts of vital things to shape my dream….
And also one thing…the fact that I cannot again meet them freely as we did…it just feels kinda lonely…yeah..I do miss those times when we could just do all sorts of miscellaneous things without thinking….laughing and crying on anything…it just feels like yesterday….while the fact is that it seems like it’s already a distant past…
As for the town and society…is it just me or am I already feeling the sense of not being able to act Indonesian while I’m already in my home country. I mean…months ago on my vacation…I could still tolerate all sorts of mistakes and vices I encounter made by usual day Indonesians….now???I can’t let go of the feeling that they all seem so uneducated…
It’s not that I’m putting them on a lower level than me….its just that I wonder…am I able to fit in again to the Indonesian society once the time comes for me….I wonder…have I already been that used to the cleanliness and tidy routines I’ve been going through in ozzy…?It seems that I have in one way or another….
If there is one chance for me to finally mature and shape my self once and for all…I guess now is the time. Why so?coz it’s gonna be the last chance for me to reminisce on my past and think forward on what I’m gonna be and do. Not to mention…it’ll also serve as some sort of transition phase for me to say goodbye to all my nice and bitter times as a teenager…With being 25 this year…I’ve pretty much felt all sorts of things in life and I guess it is time to part with them in a good and peaceful manner.
For all those times…good and bad…please…shape myself to be a better man as time goes on…For life only comes once…It’s not worth throwing life away for doing things without consideration and thinking….
Towards the unknown future….
Walking on a Looser’s road
Hmm….finally….a vacation…after those hell of asinans (read: assignments), I really just wanted to easen my mind and refresh my body…especially when ur still in the middle of the never ending coughs…
Well…now…I really don’t care much on how my semester results when end up…All I hope is that I pass all those units so I don’t have to extend another semester. Really..it has been one horrible season this time due to the lack of planning and execution. I’ve pretty much listed most of the problems on my previous posting so it’s there for those who are curious on what my probs are about.
For some…a vacation is to relax…have fun and do miscellaneous things…For me…it’s is the same…with the exception that it also serves me the chance to prepare myself to plan and think about what I’m gonna do and achieve the next season. And lucky me…I’ve managed to get a sneak preview on my schedules next term. My first impression…still…it’s gonna be another hellish 3 month.
There is a reason why I say so. The truth is…every semester gets harder and harder. To continuously improve yourself, you just cannot rely on your past achievements. You’ve gotta think of new ideas and be more creative on how to achieve and survive the new season. Sounds easy…yeah…but to be honest…it’s in fact harder than expected…I’ve faced this one personally previously.
In short, the hard parts on the next term would be the fact that I’ll be going through the Ramadhan. In one way…it does spell good and heavy meals on Maghrib :D…..but in other words…it would also spell heavy loads of work and study on an empty stomach and cold season. Therefore…I pray to Allah SWT…please and please…let my body and mind healthy during the month of Ramadhan so I can concentrate fully on all my activities there….amin.
The other things…yep…it’s the units. The units are pretty much repetitions of past subjects I’ve done during my bachelor days. It might sound easy…but yeah…I’ve gotta do some extra reading to refresh my memories on those subject. The last thing you expect is to know nothing at the start of class….and yeah…this was one mistake I did last semester….
Next??Hmm…yeah…the next semester is also the last semester for me….After that….it’s gonna be the real world….the real thing where you throw yourself to the society to implement and test your lifetime skills that you’ve gained and built during all those years of education from toddler to postgrad.
This last fact…In one way…it does relieve me…All these years of study has pretty much bored me to the bone…so it is one welcome change…but yeah then…it also puts me on my nerves coz I feel not confident enough with my knowledge and life experience to face work and society. I just feel that I left so many chances in the past that could have added my curriculum vitae….
Speaking bout this when end me on another train of regretness…so it would be useless at this point. All I can do is to do my best to repent for my lost time and gain new and better experience to help me for my future.
Well then…it all goes back to what I’ll be facing later on…just hope I can use this last real vacation of mine to rejuvenate my body and mind so it’ll be ready for my last and final study term…amin…
Well…now…I really don’t care much on how my semester results when end up…All I hope is that I pass all those units so I don’t have to extend another semester. Really..it has been one horrible season this time due to the lack of planning and execution. I’ve pretty much listed most of the problems on my previous posting so it’s there for those who are curious on what my probs are about.
For some…a vacation is to relax…have fun and do miscellaneous things…For me…it’s is the same…with the exception that it also serves me the chance to prepare myself to plan and think about what I’m gonna do and achieve the next season. And lucky me…I’ve managed to get a sneak preview on my schedules next term. My first impression…still…it’s gonna be another hellish 3 month.
There is a reason why I say so. The truth is…every semester gets harder and harder. To continuously improve yourself, you just cannot rely on your past achievements. You’ve gotta think of new ideas and be more creative on how to achieve and survive the new season. Sounds easy…yeah…but to be honest…it’s in fact harder than expected…I’ve faced this one personally previously.
In short, the hard parts on the next term would be the fact that I’ll be going through the Ramadhan. In one way…it does spell good and heavy meals on Maghrib :D…..but in other words…it would also spell heavy loads of work and study on an empty stomach and cold season. Therefore…I pray to Allah SWT…please and please…let my body and mind healthy during the month of Ramadhan so I can concentrate fully on all my activities there….amin.
The other things…yep…it’s the units. The units are pretty much repetitions of past subjects I’ve done during my bachelor days. It might sound easy…but yeah…I’ve gotta do some extra reading to refresh my memories on those subject. The last thing you expect is to know nothing at the start of class….and yeah…this was one mistake I did last semester….
Next??Hmm…yeah…the next semester is also the last semester for me….After that….it’s gonna be the real world….the real thing where you throw yourself to the society to implement and test your lifetime skills that you’ve gained and built during all those years of education from toddler to postgrad.
This last fact…In one way…it does relieve me…All these years of study has pretty much bored me to the bone…so it is one welcome change…but yeah then…it also puts me on my nerves coz I feel not confident enough with my knowledge and life experience to face work and society. I just feel that I left so many chances in the past that could have added my curriculum vitae….
Speaking bout this when end me on another train of regretness…so it would be useless at this point. All I can do is to do my best to repent for my lost time and gain new and better experience to help me for my future.
Well then…it all goes back to what I’ll be facing later on…just hope I can use this last real vacation of mine to rejuvenate my body and mind so it’ll be ready for my last and final study term…amin…
Monday, June 01, 2009
Stuck
Fu…fu…fu…fu….the semester has almost ended here…and still wondering what I’m gonna do on my vacation…go back home or be freezing cold in the winter of Perth.
With myself in this study week…I can finally get my body and mind to rest for a bit after those battering assignments. Especially those two stats unit…really…they were the main nightmare of this season…flipping my brain up side down just to get a grip on this exquisite subject.
Though I’ve still got like two assignments and a exam to finish of, I can pretty much do all those on a walking pace since the due dates for both are like a week in between. That means I can prepare them carefully….hopefully :P…Heeyyyy….you’ve gotta do it…wrap the semester nicely ;)
Speaking of how this semester went…I wouldn’t say it went the best of ways as expected. In fact….I’ld say it went worse than expected. Too many factors contributed to this semesters wreckage…some latent…some were due to my ineptness.
For the latent part…I guess I’ve said it many times in previous blogs before. Sure…it did somehow affect me. But what I really hated that it consumed my time and mind early at the semester till it left me forgetting what I had to plan and prepare for this semester.
And…it proved me right…I lagged behind in terms of my performances since I couldn’t tune myself in. Aside of that…I guess I took too long of a vacation…something that I finally realized lately. Even though I lagged behind, I tried my best to plan and prepare would could still be done. Though hard…some things finally came up to face this semester.
But then…I forgot…this semester wasn’t the same as before…why?Coz you have two tution free weeks pooled together. Good?OBVIOUSLY NOT !!coz that also means your gonna have a double load of assignments on your tail to finish of during that time. And sure it did….double bill of ASS-ignments really loaded my mind leaving me without any time and chance to re-build my strength.
As the tuition week passes…there I was working my ass and getting a grip on how to untie the challenges that faced me. Also…the need to prepare the AQWA outing for the TPA kids came by. Little that I knew…at that time…something bad was coming that would cost me a month of strength.
Yeah…those two weeks passed and I somehow managed to get the PANTAT finished. Also…I somehow managed to salvage some plans to finish of this semester but then…I fell sick…and it just dragged on for a month!!First…just a normal flu…next….pollen allergy…and now….chesty coughs. Now…it has kinda relieved…but still the signs show that it can go back anytime. For the time being….I just hope that vacation comes so that I can concentrate on getting back my health.
Back to the main topic…though the 2 weeks passes…I was there again…facing even more hard core work to do….most of them courtesy of stats of course (I even made a note on this in my facebook). It couldn’t had been harder had my fellow group mates didn’t screw and be stiff headed. Really…it did cost us finally in the presentation stage. Though not slaughtered as I thought would be…still…I just thought we could have done better and patch those unneeded holes in our work. But yeah…let by gone be by gones…there’s nothing I can do.
Eventhough some results have come up…and honestly…its not as worst as expected…but the feeling that I could have done better still lingers in me. Now…all the mistakes are visible to me and it just makes me wonder…why couldn’t I realize it earlier….days…weeks…months ago. And another thing that makes me feel kinda regretfull is the fact that most of the mistakes I made this semester…technically or not…were things that I did in the past…meaning…I’ve fell in the same hole again!!!!!^%^&$^*$*^#%*#%#%
Hmm…yeah…we as humans do encounter these mistakes…given..it really is a normal thing. But why I hate it is coz that means I’m jeopardizing my chance to redeem my lost time is getting harder and harder…As for now…All I can hope is for a miracle to happen…again as what happened last semester. But still…I doubt it…coz u know…miracles only come once…that’s what I believe…
For the rest of my work…hope I can really wrap those up…as a consolation for myself…to get the best out of the worst right now….
With myself in this study week…I can finally get my body and mind to rest for a bit after those battering assignments. Especially those two stats unit…really…they were the main nightmare of this season…flipping my brain up side down just to get a grip on this exquisite subject.
Though I’ve still got like two assignments and a exam to finish of, I can pretty much do all those on a walking pace since the due dates for both are like a week in between. That means I can prepare them carefully….hopefully :P…Heeyyyy….you’ve gotta do it…wrap the semester nicely ;)
Speaking of how this semester went…I wouldn’t say it went the best of ways as expected. In fact….I’ld say it went worse than expected. Too many factors contributed to this semesters wreckage…some latent…some were due to my ineptness.
For the latent part…I guess I’ve said it many times in previous blogs before. Sure…it did somehow affect me. But what I really hated that it consumed my time and mind early at the semester till it left me forgetting what I had to plan and prepare for this semester.
And…it proved me right…I lagged behind in terms of my performances since I couldn’t tune myself in. Aside of that…I guess I took too long of a vacation…something that I finally realized lately. Even though I lagged behind, I tried my best to plan and prepare would could still be done. Though hard…some things finally came up to face this semester.
But then…I forgot…this semester wasn’t the same as before…why?Coz you have two tution free weeks pooled together. Good?OBVIOUSLY NOT !!coz that also means your gonna have a double load of assignments on your tail to finish of during that time. And sure it did….double bill of ASS-ignments really loaded my mind leaving me without any time and chance to re-build my strength.
As the tuition week passes…there I was working my ass and getting a grip on how to untie the challenges that faced me. Also…the need to prepare the AQWA outing for the TPA kids came by. Little that I knew…at that time…something bad was coming that would cost me a month of strength.
Yeah…those two weeks passed and I somehow managed to get the PANTAT finished. Also…I somehow managed to salvage some plans to finish of this semester but then…I fell sick…and it just dragged on for a month!!First…just a normal flu…next….pollen allergy…and now….chesty coughs. Now…it has kinda relieved…but still the signs show that it can go back anytime. For the time being….I just hope that vacation comes so that I can concentrate on getting back my health.
Back to the main topic…though the 2 weeks passes…I was there again…facing even more hard core work to do….most of them courtesy of stats of course (I even made a note on this in my facebook). It couldn’t had been harder had my fellow group mates didn’t screw and be stiff headed. Really…it did cost us finally in the presentation stage. Though not slaughtered as I thought would be…still…I just thought we could have done better and patch those unneeded holes in our work. But yeah…let by gone be by gones…there’s nothing I can do.
Eventhough some results have come up…and honestly…its not as worst as expected…but the feeling that I could have done better still lingers in me. Now…all the mistakes are visible to me and it just makes me wonder…why couldn’t I realize it earlier….days…weeks…months ago. And another thing that makes me feel kinda regretfull is the fact that most of the mistakes I made this semester…technically or not…were things that I did in the past…meaning…I’ve fell in the same hole again!!!!!^%^&$^*$*^#%*#%#%
Hmm…yeah…we as humans do encounter these mistakes…given..it really is a normal thing. But why I hate it is coz that means I’m jeopardizing my chance to redeem my lost time is getting harder and harder…As for now…All I can hope is for a miracle to happen…again as what happened last semester. But still…I doubt it…coz u know…miracles only come once…that’s what I believe…
For the rest of my work…hope I can really wrap those up…as a consolation for myself…to get the best out of the worst right now….
Fallen Angels
It’s on something more…on to our nexus…bonds…one thing that has tickled me on some of my re-encounters and cross paths.
I bet…every one of us had a dream…that one dream as ayouth that we always held on…and we vowed in our hearts that we hope to fulfill those wishes…pure and idealistic wishes…till our soul departs the body…however…little we did realize that life is full of winding roads.
We made friends…acquaintances…and contacts here and there…yet…all seems to have vanished in the ashes of mundane matters.
Why I’m saying these dark yet depressed words…feelin depressed?nope…just reflecting on some that had and felt those words above years ago. And when I engage such things…I cannot help but to feel this notion of lossness and pityness towards those evaporated dreams and sacred visions.
Even though some have survived the harshness and beatings of this hellish world….still…many have been led astray…lost in the fog of worldly problems…desires and sadness…by then…I wonder…is there still a spark of light to still find again that lost hope and time…
Maybe…they left to find happiness…to escape the harshness of the dreams…to find togetherness…to seek love…or any other thing….such things cannot be blamed for we are humans who still long for such kind of things…maybe…it was our intentions that were not strong…our prayers not enough…or even…we were just playing around that time…who knows but the heavens above….
If time were to come back again…I wonder what went wrong…what was missed….what was lacked till that special light bestowed was to be lost…Nevertheless…such things won’t ever happen…just the intentions of doing so presently is what’s available for us.
For those who survived…please…stay as you are…or even soar higher….bring our fallen dreams…and do…pray for us…the fallen angels…to be able to ever revive our broken wings and redeem that forgotten hope we once together held upon. Stay alight…at the very least to be our lighthouse in this dark world.
For me and those fallen angels….
I bet…every one of us had a dream…that one dream as ayouth that we always held on…and we vowed in our hearts that we hope to fulfill those wishes…pure and idealistic wishes…till our soul departs the body…however…little we did realize that life is full of winding roads.
We made friends…acquaintances…and contacts here and there…yet…all seems to have vanished in the ashes of mundane matters.
Why I’m saying these dark yet depressed words…feelin depressed?nope…just reflecting on some that had and felt those words above years ago. And when I engage such things…I cannot help but to feel this notion of lossness and pityness towards those evaporated dreams and sacred visions.
Even though some have survived the harshness and beatings of this hellish world….still…many have been led astray…lost in the fog of worldly problems…desires and sadness…by then…I wonder…is there still a spark of light to still find again that lost hope and time…
Maybe…they left to find happiness…to escape the harshness of the dreams…to find togetherness…to seek love…or any other thing….such things cannot be blamed for we are humans who still long for such kind of things…maybe…it was our intentions that were not strong…our prayers not enough…or even…we were just playing around that time…who knows but the heavens above….
If time were to come back again…I wonder what went wrong…what was missed….what was lacked till that special light bestowed was to be lost…Nevertheless…such things won’t ever happen…just the intentions of doing so presently is what’s available for us.
For those who survived…please…stay as you are…or even soar higher….bring our fallen dreams…and do…pray for us…the fallen angels…to be able to ever revive our broken wings and redeem that forgotten hope we once together held upon. Stay alight…at the very least to be our lighthouse in this dark world.
For me and those fallen angels….
One month ago…one month later…
One month passes…we still go by those lavish dreams
Hopes rekindle…awaiting what’s to be encountered on the spears of our sights
Endless phases accompany us to the exchanges we had
And now…a turn has passed
Years ago…little was known on the future steps…
And then it turned out to be what heart couldn’t even imagine
Nevertheless…I’m happy as a bronze mileage is broken
Hopes rekindle…awaiting what’s to be encountered on the spears of our sights
Endless phases accompany us to the exchanges we had
And now…a turn has passed
Years ago…little was known on the future steps…
And then it turned out to be what heart couldn’t even imagine
Nevertheless…I’m happy as a bronze mileage is broken
Friday, May 29, 2009
Master Grade Gundam Plastic Models I Really want to have....
1. MG Hi-Nu Gundam
Wonder why?well...pertama-tama...nih model kit bukan didasarkan atas anime melainkan novel. Selain itu...emang dasarnya modelnya dah mbois banget dan memperlihatkan bentuk sempurna dari MS Nu-Gundam. Dipadu dengan strip warna purple...what more can you get...especially with those fin funnels at disposal :D
2. MG Unicorn Gundam
Hmm....Yang bikin nih model kit unik adalah kemampuannya tuk berubah mode dari Unicorn mode yang sekilas menampakkan kit seperti MS biasa menjadi Destroy mode. Pada mode inilah wajahg gundam-nya keliatan beserta perubahan wujud tubuhnya dimana frame2-nya bergeser menampakkan warna2 merah dari dalam frame-nya.
3. MG Ext-S Gundam
Upgrade version of the sentinel Gundam...bigger..nastier...and obviously more stronger :D. Masih bisa trasformable tentunya. Desainnya juga sangat tekninal dan berbeda dari model2 MS lainnya.
4. MG Crossbone Gundam Full Cloth
Hooo....another version of the crossbone gundam...hanya saja kali ini dengan anti beam cloth yang membuatnya lebih sangar. Perlengkapan senjatanya juga lebih lengkap. The skull design on its head makes its design look badass and unorthodox compared to other MS from any other Gundam series.
5. MG 00 Raiser Gundam
Ok..ok...ok...i know this plamo hasn't made it to the production lines...but i cannot help not to put it in my list. Why? Coz i'm simple mesmerized by its design in the anime. I believe that the MG version would be one of the awesome gundam kits out there...especially if Bandai does indeed include the GN Sword III which wasn't included in most of the kits from other grades.
Wonder why?well...pertama-tama...nih model kit bukan didasarkan atas anime melainkan novel. Selain itu...emang dasarnya modelnya dah mbois banget dan memperlihatkan bentuk sempurna dari MS Nu-Gundam. Dipadu dengan strip warna purple...what more can you get...especially with those fin funnels at disposal :D
2. MG Unicorn Gundam
Hmm....Yang bikin nih model kit unik adalah kemampuannya tuk berubah mode dari Unicorn mode yang sekilas menampakkan kit seperti MS biasa menjadi Destroy mode. Pada mode inilah wajahg gundam-nya keliatan beserta perubahan wujud tubuhnya dimana frame2-nya bergeser menampakkan warna2 merah dari dalam frame-nya.
3. MG Ext-S Gundam
Upgrade version of the sentinel Gundam...bigger..nastier...and obviously more stronger :D. Masih bisa trasformable tentunya. Desainnya juga sangat tekninal dan berbeda dari model2 MS lainnya.
4. MG Crossbone Gundam Full Cloth
Hooo....another version of the crossbone gundam...hanya saja kali ini dengan anti beam cloth yang membuatnya lebih sangar. Perlengkapan senjatanya juga lebih lengkap. The skull design on its head makes its design look badass and unorthodox compared to other MS from any other Gundam series.
5. MG 00 Raiser Gundam
Ok..ok...ok...i know this plamo hasn't made it to the production lines...but i cannot help not to put it in my list. Why? Coz i'm simple mesmerized by its design in the anime. I believe that the MG version would be one of the awesome gundam kits out there...especially if Bandai does indeed include the GN Sword III which wasn't included in most of the kits from other grades.
Saturday, May 09, 2009
Returner...
Hmm…how long has it been…
that time since I said I’ld stop writing for a while…yeah…2 months I guess…Well…I can say since those two months…many things have happened small and big. Lets try to write down what has happened lately 
.
Anyway…I was pretty much stressed out when I said I’ld stop writing for the moment
. But then, things slowly eased away. But one thing didn’t go away which was those assignments. Even now, those assignments still bother with greater intensity given that there are only less than 1 months left to the end of semester. And thinking bout those assignments, I think that I won’t be able to get those 4 HD’s I planned for…
it just feels damn hard this semester…
guess I’m gonna give my all even though the chances of 4 HD’s have diminished….
Life…ah…full of ups and downs…when I remembered the fact that I came back down and wanted to forget that somebody…
guess what…now I’ve got one to think and care for…whew…what a turn of fate…when I remembered that I wanted to concentrate on study and work…now…I have to care for this someone that I hope to be my future wife (Insya Allah)…
Well…you might be surprised I found this person in the 2 months I didn’t write anything…well..
it’s kinda long and short of a story. As I wanted to forget and move on…she came…as we interacted, I kinda comfortable. Time passed and I spent the nights not able to forget her..days went and I thought…”yeah…this feeling came again at such short intervals”. But hey…I’ve learnt my lessons and I fully know that I’m already attracted to her. I gave it a shot and…yeah…I’ve let go of my “jomblo” status after 25 years of my life 
.
Obviously our relationship would have ups and downs…especially we both started of in a LDR. But…what I believe is that it isn’t the time to play around in these kind of relationships. Even though I yet have to meet her…with the interactions we’ve had…I have faith in myself that this is my one. I just need to ascertain myself. Even though she doesn’t turn out to the best of my expectations…at the very least my basic requirements have been fulfilled and that has already got myself content. We’ll just have to polish and improve ourselves as the time goes on between us.
Aside of that and studies…life has been pretty much dull. To fill in time, I tried to re live my wanna be hobby of gundam plastic model building. Since there aren’t many choices in Perth, I had to buy some online at ebay. Though I still need to finish of 2 remaining models, the 2 others have certainly decorated my room in some way
.
Wallet?Ah yeah….it’s the month of sheer bankruptcy I guess. The need to buy a brand new bike has caused one hole in my savings. Couldn’t help it though since I really need a new one that had no trouble to replace my dying old bike. And thank God…My new battle hopper really lives up to my expectations
. Just need to be alert o bike thieves that linger around on campus….ready to break the chains on my bike.
The other wallet meteor was the fact that I had to register IELTS. For the sake of getting a PR status after graduation, I again have to go through the pain of such tests again after two years since the last one. Just hope my English hasn’t deteriorated...why I say this is coz that even though I live in Perth in which I’m supposed to speak English, I tend to speak more Indonesian and Malay coz of my friends…not good…
What else…aha..yep…forgot to tell that me and the kids from TPA went on a trip to AQWA. It was quite the memory since we had fun with the kids and all TPA staffs together
. The place itself was kinda like a mini version of Seaworld in Ancol. Nevertheless…the place was quite enjoyable…besides…you don’t get much tourist attractions in Perth so better enjoy things as it is.
Ahh…I guess that’s all for now…hope from now on I can start writing in a normal interval like before. It really turns out that writing can soothe my thoughts that have been contaminated by mundane affairs. Eniwei…c u….
that time since I said I’ld stop writing for a while…yeah…2 months I guess…Well…I can say since those two months…many things have happened small and big. Lets try to write down what has happened lately .Anyway…I was pretty much stressed out when I said I’ld stop writing for the moment
. But then, things slowly eased away. But one thing didn’t go away which was those assignments. Even now, those assignments still bother with greater intensity given that there are only less than 1 months left to the end of semester. And thinking bout those assignments, I think that I won’t be able to get those 4 HD’s I planned for… it just feels damn hard this semester… guess I’m gonna give my all even though the chances of 4 HD’s have diminished….Life…ah…full of ups and downs…when I remembered the fact that I came back down and wanted to forget that somebody…
guess what…now I’ve got one to think and care for…whew…what a turn of fate…when I remembered that I wanted to concentrate on study and work…now…I have to care for this someone that I hope to be my future wife (Insya Allah)…Well…you might be surprised I found this person in the 2 months I didn’t write anything…well..
it’s kinda long and short of a story. As I wanted to forget and move on…she came…as we interacted, I kinda comfortable. Time passed and I spent the nights not able to forget her..days went and I thought…”yeah…this feeling came again at such short intervals”. But hey…I’ve learnt my lessons and I fully know that I’m already attracted to her. I gave it a shot and…yeah…I’ve let go of my “jomblo” status after 25 years of my life .Obviously our relationship would have ups and downs…especially we both started of in a LDR. But…what I believe is that it isn’t the time to play around in these kind of relationships. Even though I yet have to meet her…with the interactions we’ve had…I have faith in myself that this is my one
. I just need to ascertain myself. Even though she doesn’t turn out to the best of my expectations…at the very least my basic requirements have been fulfilled and that has already got myself content. We’ll just have to polish and improve ourselves as the time goes on between us.Aside of that and studies…life has been pretty much dull. To fill in time, I tried to re live my wanna be hobby of gundam plastic model building. Since there aren’t many choices in Perth, I had to buy some online at ebay. Though I still need to finish of 2 remaining models, the 2 others have certainly decorated my room in some way
.Wallet?Ah yeah….it’s the month of sheer bankruptcy I guess. The need to buy a brand new bike has caused one hole in my savings. Couldn’t help it though since I really need a new one that had no trouble to replace my dying old bike. And thank God…My new battle hopper really lives up to my expectations
. Just need to be alert o bike thieves that linger around on campus….ready to break the chains on my bike. The other wallet meteor was the fact that I had to register IELTS. For the sake of getting a PR status after graduation, I again have to go through the pain of such tests again after two years since the last one. Just hope my English hasn’t deteriorated...why I say this is coz that even though I live in Perth in which I’m supposed to speak English, I tend to speak more Indonesian and Malay coz of my friends…not good…
What else…aha..yep…forgot to tell that me and the kids from TPA went on a trip to AQWA. It was quite the memory since we had fun with the kids and all TPA staffs together
. The place itself was kinda like a mini version of Seaworld in Ancol. Nevertheless…the place was quite enjoyable…besides…you don’t get much tourist attractions in Perth so better enjoy things as it is.Ahh…I guess that’s all for now…hope from now on I can start writing in a normal interval like before
. It really turns out that writing can soothe my thoughts that have been contaminated by mundane affairs. Eniwei…c u….
Monday, April 27, 2009
新月~ New Moon
Precious moments pass, I wonder upon the starry night now
Dark…yet…you start to appear…slowly glowing my soul
Fading away all those old shadows…you enlighten and bedazzle myself
You offer laughs…smiles…and happiness…in a humble way…that even pride cannot resist
Despite so…there are things left mysterious…tempting ones heart to explore and go on a never ending voyage through the skies
Through the sparkling stars above…your light is always the brightest
As if your rays send an enchantment of songs throughout the never ending nights…keeping it warm in the middle of the upcoming snows
Though you still have more to shine in the depths of my heart…I will still be here waiting for you…the time you will shine to your fullest…to a full moon
Dark…yet…you start to appear…slowly glowing my soul
Fading away all those old shadows…you enlighten and bedazzle myself
You offer laughs…smiles…and happiness…in a humble way…that even pride cannot resist
Despite so…there are things left mysterious…tempting ones heart to explore and go on a never ending voyage through the skies
Through the sparkling stars above…your light is always the brightest
As if your rays send an enchantment of songs throughout the never ending nights…keeping it warm in the middle of the upcoming snows
Though you still have more to shine in the depths of my heart…I will still be here waiting for you…the time you will shine to your fullest…to a full moon
Monday, April 06, 2009
What if....
What if…I hadn’t known u back then…would my heart stay as cold as before?
What if…I wasn’t bedazzled by u back then…would my 1st still be in my mind forever?
What if...we hadn’t interacted too much…would we still have words to discuss now?
What if…you didn’t call me that night…would I wonder how nice to hear your sound?
What if…I didn’t go back too quick…would you still feel lonely by yourself that time?
What if…we didn’t have some force majeur…would we still think positively on each other?
What if…the sacred time didn’t come…we still maintain that ongoing pace that would look so quick?
What if…u didn’t send me that note…would I still be hoping for that promise that I thought was a joke?
What if…u weren’e intrenched by your duties…would u have time to just say hello to me?
What if…I wasn’t engulfed in solitudeness…would u still have a flowing conversation with me?
What if u didn’t tell me your past…would I then had the courage to say…”daisuki” ?
What if we didn’t get to see each other back then…would that mean there’s still a chance?or do I just have to consider myself foolish and unlucky again?
What if…we were to cross paths some day one day…would we be able to recognize each other?
What if…what if…what if…Wallahualam bis shawab….
What if…I wasn’t bedazzled by u back then…would my 1st still be in my mind forever?
What if...we hadn’t interacted too much…would we still have words to discuss now?
What if…you didn’t call me that night…would I wonder how nice to hear your sound?
What if…I didn’t go back too quick…would you still feel lonely by yourself that time?
What if…we didn’t have some force majeur…would we still think positively on each other?
What if…the sacred time didn’t come…we still maintain that ongoing pace that would look so quick?
What if…u didn’t send me that note…would I still be hoping for that promise that I thought was a joke?
What if…u weren’e intrenched by your duties…would u have time to just say hello to me?
What if…I wasn’t engulfed in solitudeness…would u still have a flowing conversation with me?
What if u didn’t tell me your past…would I then had the courage to say…”daisuki” ?
What if we didn’t get to see each other back then…would that mean there’s still a chance?or do I just have to consider myself foolish and unlucky again?
What if…we were to cross paths some day one day…would we be able to recognize each other?
What if…what if…what if…Wallahualam bis shawab….
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Happily young or rot older ?
Haha…biar kutebak…pasti mikir arti judul tulisan ini apa hehehehe :p 
Eniwei…segalanya bermulai pada sabtu pagi nan indah di butcher dimana aq bekerja. Semua berjalan dull seperti biasa…terutama karena belum padatnya kerja pagi itu….dan ketika kusedang menghayati memotong lapisan daging demi daging …eh…bos gw nnya…”tok…bagaimana pendapatmu tentang pasangan yang menikah muda…?setuju engga?”. Jujur aja…gw kaget pagi2 ditanyain pertanyaan berat macam itu. Bukannya gw sendiri engga pernah bicara masalah ini atau apa…Cuma gw emang secara pribadi sampe saat ini menghindari aja isu macem ini yg bagi gw agak2 “sensi”
Eniwei…mauku sih mengelak jawaban ini…but yeah…my bos insisted on me answering yes or no…Oh crap…now I’m in some sort of awkward position…Eniwei…I just answered..mostly no…hehe…now here where things get interested. She asked why I didn’t agree..?kujawab…karena kalo menikah muda..bagaimana anda akan menghidupi keluarga…bos gw jawab …”ya orang tua masing2 lah..”….gw pun reply…”okelah kalo begitu…masalahnya…sangat jarang ditemukan orang tua yang semacam itu”
Dan berikutnya kukekmukakan alasanku bahwa ketika 2 insan telah menikah…pada hakikatnya ortu sudah tidak bertanggung jawab atas mereka (terutama secara keuangan)…but then…my bos said…”lho…kenapa harus tidak lagi bertanggung jawab?”…now…this is where I suddenly felt checkmate :P…
Pembicaraan selanjutnya yakni bos-ku ngomong bahwa di dunia sekarang ini…dalah mengapa menikah muda bener2 dipermasalahkan padahal anak2 sekarang secara fisik tumbuh dewasa secara cepet…which also means that they are physically mature (especially in terms of sex). But then…just coz of not financially ready…then many people decide to not or at least postpone marriage. Until this…she did hae a point…
And then…bos ku bilang mengapa ada pandangan bahwa ketika anak sudah menikah dikatakan bahwa tanggung jawab ortu putus..itu lebih dikarenakan alasan budaya doang…dan ketika kuberpikir sampe point itu…gw juga inget…apa ada dalil ayat baik di al-qur’an atopun hadist-lah yang mengatakan bahwa ortu tidak lagi bertanggung jawab atas anak2nya (especially financially) ketika mereka2 sudah menikah?engga ada deh rasanya…:P
But I tried to refute by saying that once married, a man has the responsibility to feed the family or in other words…work. Till here…we both agreed. Tapi bosku menambahkan…betul emang demikian…tapi faktanya seringkali hal ini menyebabkan anak2 muda takut untuk menikah hanya karena alasan kerja…kerja…dan kerja. Kalopun sudah kerjapun…masih banyak dijumpai para bujang yang tidak mau menikah…alasannya….yg lom mapan lah yg itu lah dan 1001 alesan lainnya.
That was one fact that I couldn’t deny…even 4 myself. Another fact that my bos stated was about bagaimana para bujang harus seringkali menempuh pendidikan tinggi (sampe S2) dan pada saat yang bersamaan harus menekan gejolak naluri biologi terhadap lawan jenis di tengah gempuran keterbukaan aurat disana sini yang dah bener “syaithannirajimmmm” (istilah gw sendiri :D ). Dia menambahkan…apa para bujang2 perlu menunggu utk lulus utk kemudian kerja trus baru nikah?Can’t just both the parents help out at least with the funding of their education while still maintaining their marriage?Must it be education…or work that separates two loving people from being married to each other?
Up till this point…I couldn’t say more…What my boss said was in fact all the most true…Kenyataan (atau mungkin tatanan masyarakat) seringkali harus kejam terhadap para bujang2 (dan perawan2 maybe :D ). But my boss put more emphasis on parents nowadays…why do they have to require their kids to graduate and get a job (for boys) before getting married?Can’t they help and play their part in helping young married couple by soothing their financial distress (especially when they both have to undergo uni 1st).
Mendengar omongan itu…aq juga jadi berpikir…alangkah baiknya jika semua orang tua bisa seperti yang didambakan bos gw. Kadang gw juga mikir…anak2 jaman sekarang emang cepet banget dewasa secara fisik. Dan tentunya hal ini juga membawa konsekuensi hasrat penyaluran nafsu seksual juga pada puncak2nya. Namun ya itu dia…selalu harus tertekan karena menyelesaikan skul/kul :-S
Selama hidupku pun aq pernah mendapati teman2q nikah muda dan alhamdulillah ortu mereka masih mau at least membiayai dari segi uang kul…beberapa bahkan masih ngasih uang saku ;) (ooohh…how lucky they are…). But in regards to them being married…I do notice some differences after they got married…something which me and my boss agreed on…they in certain ways…become mentally more mature in doing and facing life. I don’t know why…but I guess it’s coz of their binding commitment of marriage that makes them (even unconsciously) to do so.
Oh well…walo kita berharap ortu2 sekalin mau melakukan hal seperti yang diangankan bos gw…that’s life…changing such kind of thought frame is gonna take time. But I also like to add something from my POV concerning this matter. Just to add up things of what I’ve written down here ;)
Sebanyak apapun kita berharap agar ortu2 mau seperti itu…nyatanya juga bahwa anak2 sekarang walo dewasa secara fisik..tapi hamper kebanyak masih belum dewasa secara pikiran…alias masih berpikir kekanak-kanakan. So…How can we demand for parents to fulfill such wish if we even cannot prove to them that we are also mature in terms of mental and mind?
But then…it’s not us who’s completely us at fault here for being not mature in terms of mind. Tetapi system pendidikan kita yang juga berperan kita dalam membentuk pribadi yang tidak akan pernah siap secara mental. Untuk dapet dikatakan siap…bagiku kita harus secara awal dihadapkan pada kenyataan hidup dalam pendidikan kita agar kita dapat segera terjun ke masyarakat dan berpartisipasi…tapi faktanya sekarang?Kita dikungkung oleh berbagai jenjang pendidikan yang kebanyakan mengajarkan teori belaka yang kemudian membuat kita akan kagok ½ hidup sewaktu2 kita engga lagi bersekolah…why? Coz they haven’t taught us anything on how to survive in such time and age. They just teach us on how to make ourselves dependant on out parents (financially especially).
Eniwei…akan sangat bahagia andaikata kita bisa mendapatkan nikmat macem yang telah dirasakan oleh teman2 yang beruntung diatas. Tetapi kita juga harus memainkan peran kita bahwa kita juga telah sanggup bersikap dan berpikir secara dewasa aja, jangan Cuma dewasa fisik doang :D. Oh yeah….the current social system juga harus berperan dalam membentuk insan2 yang lebih mampu survive dalam usia muda dan tidak hanya membuat kita bergantung ama ortu aja…so…3 pihak inilah yang harus berperan kedepannya ;)
PS : For those lucky friends of mine out there…may Allah SWT bless u for able to fulfill half of your diens at such a young age ;)…hontou ni…INVU
Eniwei…segalanya bermulai pada sabtu pagi nan indah di butcher dimana aq bekerja. Semua berjalan dull seperti biasa…terutama karena belum padatnya kerja pagi itu….dan ketika kusedang menghayati memotong lapisan daging demi daging …eh…bos gw nnya…”tok…bagaimana pendapatmu tentang pasangan yang menikah muda…?setuju engga?”. Jujur aja…gw kaget pagi2 ditanyain pertanyaan berat macam itu. Bukannya gw sendiri engga pernah bicara masalah ini atau apa…Cuma gw emang secara pribadi sampe saat ini menghindari aja isu macem ini yg bagi gw agak2 “sensi”
Eniwei…mauku sih mengelak jawaban ini…but yeah…my bos insisted on me answering yes or no…Oh crap…now I’m in some sort of awkward position…Eniwei…I just answered..mostly no…hehe…now here where things get interested. She asked why I didn’t agree..?kujawab…karena kalo menikah muda..bagaimana anda akan menghidupi keluarga…bos gw jawab …”ya orang tua masing2 lah..”….gw pun reply…”okelah kalo begitu…masalahnya…sangat jarang ditemukan orang tua yang semacam itu”
Dan berikutnya kukekmukakan alasanku bahwa ketika 2 insan telah menikah…pada hakikatnya ortu sudah tidak bertanggung jawab atas mereka (terutama secara keuangan)…but then…my bos said…”lho…kenapa harus tidak lagi bertanggung jawab?”…now…this is where I suddenly felt checkmate :P…
Pembicaraan selanjutnya yakni bos-ku ngomong bahwa di dunia sekarang ini…dalah mengapa menikah muda bener2 dipermasalahkan padahal anak2 sekarang secara fisik tumbuh dewasa secara cepet…which also means that they are physically mature (especially in terms of sex). But then…just coz of not financially ready…then many people decide to not or at least postpone marriage. Until this…she did hae a point…
And then…bos ku bilang mengapa ada pandangan bahwa ketika anak sudah menikah dikatakan bahwa tanggung jawab ortu putus..itu lebih dikarenakan alasan budaya doang…dan ketika kuberpikir sampe point itu…gw juga inget…apa ada dalil ayat baik di al-qur’an atopun hadist-lah yang mengatakan bahwa ortu tidak lagi bertanggung jawab atas anak2nya (especially financially) ketika mereka2 sudah menikah?engga ada deh rasanya…:P
But I tried to refute by saying that once married, a man has the responsibility to feed the family or in other words…work. Till here…we both agreed. Tapi bosku menambahkan…betul emang demikian…tapi faktanya seringkali hal ini menyebabkan anak2 muda takut untuk menikah hanya karena alasan kerja…kerja…dan kerja. Kalopun sudah kerjapun…masih banyak dijumpai para bujang yang tidak mau menikah…alasannya….yg lom mapan lah yg itu lah dan 1001 alesan lainnya.
That was one fact that I couldn’t deny…even 4 myself. Another fact that my bos stated was about bagaimana para bujang harus seringkali menempuh pendidikan tinggi (sampe S2) dan pada saat yang bersamaan harus menekan gejolak naluri biologi terhadap lawan jenis di tengah gempuran keterbukaan aurat disana sini yang dah bener “syaithannirajimmmm” (istilah gw sendiri :D ). Dia menambahkan…apa para bujang2 perlu menunggu utk lulus utk kemudian kerja trus baru nikah?Can’t just both the parents help out at least with the funding of their education while still maintaining their marriage?Must it be education…or work that separates two loving people from being married to each other?
Up till this point…I couldn’t say more…What my boss said was in fact all the most true…Kenyataan (atau mungkin tatanan masyarakat) seringkali harus kejam terhadap para bujang2 (dan perawan2 maybe :D ). But my boss put more emphasis on parents nowadays…why do they have to require their kids to graduate and get a job (for boys) before getting married?Can’t they help and play their part in helping young married couple by soothing their financial distress (especially when they both have to undergo uni 1st).
Mendengar omongan itu…aq juga jadi berpikir…alangkah baiknya jika semua orang tua bisa seperti yang didambakan bos gw. Kadang gw juga mikir…anak2 jaman sekarang emang cepet banget dewasa secara fisik. Dan tentunya hal ini juga membawa konsekuensi hasrat penyaluran nafsu seksual juga pada puncak2nya. Namun ya itu dia…selalu harus tertekan karena menyelesaikan skul/kul :-S
Selama hidupku pun aq pernah mendapati teman2q nikah muda dan alhamdulillah ortu mereka masih mau at least membiayai dari segi uang kul…beberapa bahkan masih ngasih uang saku ;) (ooohh…how lucky they are…). But in regards to them being married…I do notice some differences after they got married…something which me and my boss agreed on…they in certain ways…become mentally more mature in doing and facing life. I don’t know why…but I guess it’s coz of their binding commitment of marriage that makes them (even unconsciously) to do so.
Oh well…walo kita berharap ortu2 sekalin mau melakukan hal seperti yang diangankan bos gw…that’s life…changing such kind of thought frame is gonna take time. But I also like to add something from my POV concerning this matter. Just to add up things of what I’ve written down here ;)
Sebanyak apapun kita berharap agar ortu2 mau seperti itu…nyatanya juga bahwa anak2 sekarang walo dewasa secara fisik..tapi hamper kebanyak masih belum dewasa secara pikiran…alias masih berpikir kekanak-kanakan. So…How can we demand for parents to fulfill such wish if we even cannot prove to them that we are also mature in terms of mental and mind?
But then…it’s not us who’s completely us at fault here for being not mature in terms of mind. Tetapi system pendidikan kita yang juga berperan kita dalam membentuk pribadi yang tidak akan pernah siap secara mental. Untuk dapet dikatakan siap…bagiku kita harus secara awal dihadapkan pada kenyataan hidup dalam pendidikan kita agar kita dapat segera terjun ke masyarakat dan berpartisipasi…tapi faktanya sekarang?Kita dikungkung oleh berbagai jenjang pendidikan yang kebanyakan mengajarkan teori belaka yang kemudian membuat kita akan kagok ½ hidup sewaktu2 kita engga lagi bersekolah…why? Coz they haven’t taught us anything on how to survive in such time and age. They just teach us on how to make ourselves dependant on out parents (financially especially).
Eniwei…akan sangat bahagia andaikata kita bisa mendapatkan nikmat macem yang telah dirasakan oleh teman2 yang beruntung diatas. Tetapi kita juga harus memainkan peran kita bahwa kita juga telah sanggup bersikap dan berpikir secara dewasa aja, jangan Cuma dewasa fisik doang :D. Oh yeah….the current social system juga harus berperan dalam membentuk insan2 yang lebih mampu survive dalam usia muda dan tidak hanya membuat kita bergantung ama ortu aja…so…3 pihak inilah yang harus berperan kedepannya ;)
PS : For those lucky friends of mine out there…may Allah SWT bless u for able to fulfill half of your diens at such a young age ;)…hontou ni…INVU
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Soulless
Lost…soulless…even though skyscrapers plundge high to the heavens…
Filthy rich…still…a piece of light dims away
Laughs…hurrays...and cheers…nevertheless…they stay dull
Struggling to live…yet at the same time it’s just a mere event of drowning in the
depths of hell
Without the heavenly light…mundane would it be forever without any sacred benefits
And still…people flock year by years…searching for that better life…yet…is it worth it?
Risking our light and pride…sometimes…we can only tell when it’s only too late….
Would the hopes be true eventually…nonetheless…we live as bubbles in the ocean…unaware of what we can do…
Leaving us astray by that sweet but deadly warmth….
Forgiveness and consciouness is all I ask…to go through the times till the promised is fulfilled
Filthy rich…still…a piece of light dims away
Laughs…hurrays...and cheers…nevertheless…they stay dull
Struggling to live…yet at the same time it’s just a mere event of drowning in the
depths of hell
Without the heavenly light…mundane would it be forever without any sacred benefits
And still…people flock year by years…searching for that better life…yet…is it worth it?
Risking our light and pride…sometimes…we can only tell when it’s only too late….
Would the hopes be true eventually…nonetheless…we live as bubbles in the ocean…unaware of what we can do…
Leaving us astray by that sweet but deadly warmth….
Forgiveness and consciouness is all I ask…to go through the times till the promised is fulfilled
Dareka
Coridor…pale yet warmth…at a verge of a cliff
However….eyes gazed at a dim light at the end
Closer it came…bedazzled I was
Sacred from its start, shockingly revealing its boundaries not even allowed
In awe….wondering who and why now
Knewing it would be an end…you came closer shouting out that hidden urge of closeness…
Embracing…as if time stood still…drops fell…
Happy as I was…still…in the silence of grasping things
Suddenly…you raised your face…showing me what’s supposed to be something for the dialogues to come
Losing my time…words of promise exchanged…vowing to wait each other despite all odds
Overwhelmed by it…nevertheless…I overlooked how I was supposed to address….the one with a sweet and tender smile
Even though…it all was nice…despite an unknown promise to whom I should fulfill it….
However….eyes gazed at a dim light at the end
Closer it came…bedazzled I was
Sacred from its start, shockingly revealing its boundaries not even allowed
In awe….wondering who and why now
Knewing it would be an end…you came closer shouting out that hidden urge of closeness…
Embracing…as if time stood still…drops fell…
Happy as I was…still…in the silence of grasping things
Suddenly…you raised your face…showing me what’s supposed to be something for the dialogues to come
Losing my time…words of promise exchanged…vowing to wait each other despite all odds
Overwhelmed by it…nevertheless…I overlooked how I was supposed to address….the one with a sweet and tender smile
Even though…it all was nice…despite an unknown promise to whom I should fulfill it….
Friday, March 13, 2009
1 Month After
Kembalilah diriku menulis blog ini setelah agak lama tidak menulis...well not really. Selama selang waktu itu, sebetulnya ada beberapa notes yang tela kutuangkan di facebook, aslinya itu juga gara2 blm keinstall Office d laptop, jadinya langsung aja ketulis di facebok.
1 bulan sejak kukembali...well..almost sih. Selama 1 bulan setelah kembali dari Indo, banyak hal2 yang kembali kualami. Tetapi lebih banyak hal baru yang kualami selama 1 bulan ini. Terlepas dari baru ato engganya...yang pasti semua itu telah membuatku berpikir akan suatu hal.
Pikiran pertama ketika kukembali ke perth adalah kembali lagi memulai rutinitas normal yang biasa kujalani. Pertama kerja, luckily I managed to get myself tuned without any setbacks. Secara fisik, alhamdulillah engga berubah banyak. Untungnya selama liburan aku senantiasa menjaga kondisi fisikku (walo ujung2nya balik ke perth nambah 1 kilo :P)
But then...there came study. Hal yang menjadi tujuan utamaku dsini ternyata tidak semgampang yang kubayangkan. Twists and turns here and there menjadikan semester ini menjadi JAAAAUUUUUHHHHH lebih susah daripada semester2 sebelumnya. Even though i can use my past experience to get my self geared up quicker, life just won't be the same again.
And also, it's not only studies that's occupying my mind, it's also the fact that I'm in my last year here.Meaning?I have to get a grip on the reality that I'm gonna face later..which is finding a job. Despite the fact that I've always yearned to work overseas (regardless of critics and cynical views from my friends), it just seems difficult when I look back at my past facts. The fact that I have no work experience what so ever in accounting, no PR status, and all other stuffs, just seems to sum up in my head, making me anxious on how to face this future of mine.
Ok...honestly, I've somehow got a grip on what to do on this part. It's all coz I thought that I've just gotta do the things that lead to it. Despite the long and hard road ahead, that's the path I ave chosen and engraved to my self...3,5 years ago.
Relationship...oh no...please. But honestly, as a normal guy..who doesn't want to have a close relationship with the opposite sex?However, I was always a sucker for these kinda things...and it seems to be going on. My past experience over the last vacation has taught me some good lessons concerning this. However, constant dreams coming makes me always loose my cool to face this bothering situation. I'ld like to follow those dreams..but yet...after I think again...I don't deserve it...at least for now...therefor...it seems I'm gonna have to endure the loneliness huh ....
Loneliness..?yeah...speaking of that...it sure does reminds me of that fateful day....3,5 years ago. And when I relate it to now...it just all adds up and make sense. Though painful....but what I've thought back then would be how I'll be and should be doing things. And it certainly does help to save myself that is becoming weak hearted.
Why I chose that path back then...?Nothing more and nothing less to redeem myself from my lost times. That's wy I'm here...to retrieve it back...Therefor...cold minded...cold hearted are just some of the qualities I need to execute my dreams back then and get back my lost time. It's obviously gonna be painfull...not to mention lonely...but I believe that's the fate I have to shoulder.
This might be my last blog for the next couple of time ahead. NO blogs...and no notes....so no boring reading anymore for all u readers. And do not expect any lame poets again (sorry for the promised poet that I'ld like to give u a look). Even though I will be making any...it'll be for private consumption only since names are gonna be in it....don't wanna stir any troubles with saying names :P
Sayonara...minna...
1 bulan sejak kukembali...well..almost sih. Selama 1 bulan setelah kembali dari Indo, banyak hal2 yang kembali kualami. Tetapi lebih banyak hal baru yang kualami selama 1 bulan ini. Terlepas dari baru ato engganya...yang pasti semua itu telah membuatku berpikir akan suatu hal.
Pikiran pertama ketika kukembali ke perth adalah kembali lagi memulai rutinitas normal yang biasa kujalani. Pertama kerja, luckily I managed to get myself tuned without any setbacks. Secara fisik, alhamdulillah engga berubah banyak. Untungnya selama liburan aku senantiasa menjaga kondisi fisikku (walo ujung2nya balik ke perth nambah 1 kilo :P)
But then...there came study. Hal yang menjadi tujuan utamaku dsini ternyata tidak semgampang yang kubayangkan. Twists and turns here and there menjadikan semester ini menjadi JAAAAUUUUUHHHHH lebih susah daripada semester2 sebelumnya. Even though i can use my past experience to get my self geared up quicker, life just won't be the same again.
And also, it's not only studies that's occupying my mind, it's also the fact that I'm in my last year here.Meaning?I have to get a grip on the reality that I'm gonna face later..which is finding a job. Despite the fact that I've always yearned to work overseas (regardless of critics and cynical views from my friends), it just seems difficult when I look back at my past facts. The fact that I have no work experience what so ever in accounting, no PR status, and all other stuffs, just seems to sum up in my head, making me anxious on how to face this future of mine.
Ok...honestly, I've somehow got a grip on what to do on this part. It's all coz I thought that I've just gotta do the things that lead to it. Despite the long and hard road ahead, that's the path I ave chosen and engraved to my self...3,5 years ago.
Relationship...oh no...please. But honestly, as a normal guy..who doesn't want to have a close relationship with the opposite sex?However, I was always a sucker for these kinda things...and it seems to be going on. My past experience over the last vacation has taught me some good lessons concerning this. However, constant dreams coming makes me always loose my cool to face this bothering situation. I'ld like to follow those dreams..but yet...after I think again...I don't deserve it...at least for now...therefor...it seems I'm gonna have to endure the loneliness huh ....
Loneliness..?yeah...speaking of that...it sure does reminds me of that fateful day....3,5 years ago. And when I relate it to now...it just all adds up and make sense. Though painful....but what I've thought back then would be how I'll be and should be doing things. And it certainly does help to save myself that is becoming weak hearted.
Why I chose that path back then...?Nothing more and nothing less to redeem myself from my lost times. That's wy I'm here...to retrieve it back...Therefor...cold minded...cold hearted are just some of the qualities I need to execute my dreams back then and get back my lost time. It's obviously gonna be painfull...not to mention lonely...but I believe that's the fate I have to shoulder.
This might be my last blog for the next couple of time ahead. NO blogs...and no notes....so no boring reading anymore for all u readers. And do not expect any lame poets again (sorry for the promised poet that I'ld like to give u a look). Even though I will be making any...it'll be for private consumption only since names are gonna be in it....don't wanna stir any troubles with saying names :P
Sayonara...minna...
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Back to Foreverness
Aaaahhhhh….akhirnya….back to perth….setelah 2,5 bulan ku pulangkan jiwa dan ragaku ke tanah airku Indonesia…kembali diriku harus go bek tu perth demi meraih cita2ku :P
How was my vacation?Seperti permen nano nano…rame banget rasanya liburanku….semuanya bisa dikatakan kualami…senang (pastinya ini lebih banyak :P), susah (susah karena hal2 GJ) dan sedih…lho kok sedih?ada ajah deeehhh:p…tapi pastinya ini juga melengkapi liburanq menjadi suatu liburan yang member hikmah yang banyak bagi diriku.
Awal2nya kupikir 2,5 bulan bisa bener2 kugunakan tuk hal2 yang sesuai jadwal…ternyata engga….2 minggu pertama….pengennya relax do nothing…malah selama 2 minggu ini ku masih diserang jetlag. Jadinya bawaanku ngantuk cepat…padahal masih jam 9 malam . The next couple of weeks I tried to start enjoying things as I planned. But yeah…kita merencanakan..Allah berkehendak lain….ternyata hidup engga seindah impian he..he..he..:P
But then…life still goes on…After a month there…I finally did what others say a real vacation. Artine jalan2 ke luar menikmati liburan dan engga hanya diem aja di rumah. Palembang, Bandung, Jakarta dan Surabaya menjadi sasaran jalan2ku…maklumlah…malang sendiri isinya cuma itu2 aja, jadinya pengennya mengenal tempat2 lain:P. Khusus tuk Palembang….walo Cuma 2 hari aja…it was quite worth it…menikmati bagaimana rasanya pulau Sumatra dan wisata kulinernya;). For Bandung?He..he..he..palagi kalo engga hunting baju2 bagus nan murah ;). Habisnya….baju2 di perth mahalnya minta mati…ntar kalo diriku engga punya baju masa diriku mau telanjang di perth?maybe aman2 aja sih :p…tapi entar diriku bisa ditangkap polisi Indo atas tuduhan pelanggaran UU Pornografi (emang bisa polisi indo nangkepin orang di perth ?).
The last month of my visit there was simply a bit plain. Cuma berusaha menikmati liburan apa adanya:P. But it still gave me the best memories and impression needed to refill my spirit for the upcoming semester. If there is one thing I still regret is not being able to meet all my friends for one last time before going back. However, I’ve predicted this so it didn’t leave me that disappointed though .
And here I am then…back to foreverness. U might wonder why I say foreverness?Well…it’s just that I always reminisce back to last year when I first came to perth. Left alone a month prior the start of studies was one of the loneliest times in my life. With the summer heat that was strikingly hot, the cloudless blue skies and the tree leaves that didn’t even move…it just felt like it would stay like that forever…especially when the day is long during summer. But yeah the again…that was a year ago. Now?Its obviously much more better. At least I know what to do and who to contact know even after 2,5 months leaving perth.
Nevertheless, the 2,5 months did somehow leave some unexpected excess on me…for example…I seem to having difficulties on speaking good and proper English. If before I could just speak without even have to think what I wanna speak…now its like I’ve gotta think first before saying something…crap…this really isn’t good news. This means that I might have trouble when I face the customers on my work .
Study?well….I do hope I haven’t lost the sensation of how to study properly and effectively. With a target of 4 High Distinctions (Ya Allah…berikanlah hambaMU ini kekuatan tuk meraihnya), I’m gonna have to put everything I have to achieve it. Of course with more effort and sacrifices than ever before. Its gonna be one hell of a semester for the next couple of months….
Therefor…despite the ups and downs I’ve had over the past 2,5 months…I’m gonna have to leave it behind and look forward to the next semester. Put aside all your troubles, worries and despair to concentrate on what u’ve planned and aimed for. For the next semester…ganbatte kudasai ne ….matta ne ;)
How was my vacation?Seperti permen nano nano…rame banget rasanya liburanku….semuanya bisa dikatakan kualami…senang (pastinya ini lebih banyak :P), susah (susah karena hal2 GJ) dan sedih…lho kok sedih?ada ajah deeehhh:p…tapi pastinya ini juga melengkapi liburanq menjadi suatu liburan yang member hikmah yang banyak bagi diriku.
Awal2nya kupikir 2,5 bulan bisa bener2 kugunakan tuk hal2 yang sesuai jadwal…ternyata engga….2 minggu pertama….pengennya relax do nothing…malah selama 2 minggu ini ku masih diserang jetlag. Jadinya bawaanku ngantuk cepat…padahal masih jam 9 malam . The next couple of weeks I tried to start enjoying things as I planned. But yeah…kita merencanakan..Allah berkehendak lain….ternyata hidup engga seindah impian he..he..he..:P
But then…life still goes on…After a month there…I finally did what others say a real vacation. Artine jalan2 ke luar menikmati liburan dan engga hanya diem aja di rumah. Palembang, Bandung, Jakarta dan Surabaya menjadi sasaran jalan2ku…maklumlah…malang sendiri isinya cuma itu2 aja, jadinya pengennya mengenal tempat2 lain:P. Khusus tuk Palembang….walo Cuma 2 hari aja…it was quite worth it…menikmati bagaimana rasanya pulau Sumatra dan wisata kulinernya;). For Bandung?He..he..he..palagi kalo engga hunting baju2 bagus nan murah ;). Habisnya….baju2 di perth mahalnya minta mati…ntar kalo diriku engga punya baju masa diriku mau telanjang di perth?maybe aman2 aja sih :p…tapi entar diriku bisa ditangkap polisi Indo atas tuduhan pelanggaran UU Pornografi (emang bisa polisi indo nangkepin orang di perth ?).
The last month of my visit there was simply a bit plain. Cuma berusaha menikmati liburan apa adanya:P. But it still gave me the best memories and impression needed to refill my spirit for the upcoming semester. If there is one thing I still regret is not being able to meet all my friends for one last time before going back. However, I’ve predicted this so it didn’t leave me that disappointed though .
And here I am then…back to foreverness. U might wonder why I say foreverness?Well…it’s just that I always reminisce back to last year when I first came to perth. Left alone a month prior the start of studies was one of the loneliest times in my life. With the summer heat that was strikingly hot, the cloudless blue skies and the tree leaves that didn’t even move…it just felt like it would stay like that forever…especially when the day is long during summer. But yeah the again…that was a year ago. Now?Its obviously much more better. At least I know what to do and who to contact know even after 2,5 months leaving perth.
Nevertheless, the 2,5 months did somehow leave some unexpected excess on me…for example…I seem to having difficulties on speaking good and proper English. If before I could just speak without even have to think what I wanna speak…now its like I’ve gotta think first before saying something…crap…this really isn’t good news. This means that I might have trouble when I face the customers on my work .
Study?well….I do hope I haven’t lost the sensation of how to study properly and effectively. With a target of 4 High Distinctions (Ya Allah…berikanlah hambaMU ini kekuatan tuk meraihnya), I’m gonna have to put everything I have to achieve it. Of course with more effort and sacrifices than ever before. Its gonna be one hell of a semester for the next couple of months….
Therefor…despite the ups and downs I’ve had over the past 2,5 months…I’m gonna have to leave it behind and look forward to the next semester. Put aside all your troubles, worries and despair to concentrate on what u’ve planned and aimed for. For the next semester…ganbatte kudasai ne ….matta ne ;)
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Un-said
Un-said memories…un-said words…un-said thoughts…un-said emotions…un-said times…un-said heart…un-said minds…un-said promises…un-said dreams…un-said ties…un-said masks…un-said fatamorganas…un-said passion…un-said tears…un-said wishes…un-said aspirations…un-said forever it will be…
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